What's going on in Burwick?

A development and character ask blog for my CS WIP, Burwick Destination

[loveforsundown]

Hi guys. My life fell apart and I've had to face long-buried trauma I quite literally never thought I'd have to deal with again, so suffice to say that's been hard. And in all that I forgot about moving over my game demos. I'll either get to it tomorrow or on my next day off if I don't have the energy yet. Sorry about that.

[loveforsundown]

Hello everyone. I'm still here. Sorry for the silence. My job is physically exhausting and on top of that I've been having health problems I need to start figuring out. I've got health insurance for the first time, so I'll be able to start seeing a doctor, thankfully. And then maybe things will become easier.

Anyway, the real reason I'm making this post is I just found out dashingdon will be shut down and everything deleted by the end of this month. This is really saddening news when I think of all the beloved, dead WIPs that may now be lost forever if no one initiates some kind of recovery effort.

For those that may be worried about my works in particular, there's no need. I have all of my files, so I can move the games over to the latest hosting site (I believe it's now cogdemos.ink?) whenever. And I'm making this post on my LfS blog because Love For Sundown will be the first time I make sure I do. It's a completed game, so you can say I'm more motivated to hold it up as an example of my works haha. So I'll make sure people can keep playing it as soon as possible. If you're wondering about HoF... I'll think about it. But all my other demos will make their way over eventually as well. I don't know how eager people are about my work anymore, though, so I might be slow about it.

That's all for now, though. I hope to get back to writing eventually. I just wish life were easier to live right now.

[godsamael]

The LfS anthology now has an official blog

I decided to separate LfS into its own blog because my main is a mess lmao. But I will be able to tag more consistently over there so things should be easier to find.

I just finished it, and I've reblogged the most relevant posts to it. You can find the blog here: @loveforsundown

Note that I'm considering the entire blog Not Safe For Work so anything explicitly that will not be specially tagged.

Also if you sent an ask I never got around to answering (I don't ignore my asks, they just get lost, I promise) you can feel free to resend it to that blog.

[bookofbrokencandles]

If anyone here likes erotica and monster boys and wants to know what my side project is, I now have a blog dedicated entirely to it. This has the first game release and will also be used to announce the second game's release once it's ready.

[bookofbrokencandles]

Commissions open for all my works

So, my mom had to leave one of her jobs last week. She's trying to get a new one, but of course that takes time. I just got back from my trip, so my funds are currently depleted and I'm not back to work yet (I have one day next week, but that's as far as I know atm) so I don't have the money to help out right now. We're not in terrible shape yet, but I want to be sure we can actually afford to eat before someone gets back to her about a job.

So, this is all I can do.

My ko-fi for anyone who wants to donate

$5 for 500 words

$10 for 1000 words

Please message me if you're interested. I will do these as quickly as I am able. Currently, unlimited slots.

[bookofbrokencandles]

Commissions open for all my works

So, my mom had to leave one of her jobs last week. She's trying to get a new one, but of course that takes time. I just got back from my trip, so my funds are currently depleted and I'm not back to work yet (I have one day next week, but that's as far as I know atm) so I don't have the money to help out right now. We're not in terrible shape yet, but I want to be sure we can actually afford to eat before someone gets back to her about a job.

So, this is all I can do.

My ko-fi for anyone who wants to donate

$5 for 500 words

$10 for 1000 words

Please message me if you're interested. I will do these as quickly as I am able. Currently, unlimited slots.

[bookofbrokencandles]

Commissions open for all my works

So, my mom had to leave one of her jobs last week. She's trying to get a new one, but of course that takes time. I just got back from my trip, so my funds are currently depleted and I'm not back to work yet (I have one day next week, but that's as far as I know atm) so I don't have the money to help out right now. We're not in terrible shape yet, but I want to be sure we can actually afford to eat before someone gets back to her about a job.

So, this is all I can do.

My ko-fi for anyone who wants to donate

$5 for 500 words

$10 for 1000 words

Please message me if you're interested. I will do these as quickly as I am able. Currently, unlimited slots.

[burwickdestination]

Okay here's the post

So, as I've said before, I started Burwick Destination when I still didn't really know how IF making should go and I also really wasn't good at planning, so my plans for Burwick were a mess. I needed to take time to redo all my plans before I could proceed. That's all true, but there's one thing I never mentioned. The reason it was at the bottom of my priority list.

I didn't really want to get back to Burwick.

Now, don't worry, this isn't a "Burwick is cancelled" post. It's actually the opposite.

I started out avoiding thinking about Burwick for a long time. I stopped having positive feelings about it and I was so afraid it would go the way of HoF if I let it become a source of negativity in my life, so I basically started pretending it didn't exist where I could.

However, recently something in my mind changed. It stopped feeling like I was avoiding it and more like I was just taking a break. In removing that pressure I felt from the game, I was able to look at it again and think about what I was less enthused about and I finally came to a conclusion.

I'm making a big change in Burwick. The basic premise will remain the same, MC will still be a victim of a demon possession with a choice between the three demons, the characters will still be who they are.

But I decided I did not want to write about police detectives anymore. MC and the other characters will no longer be involved with law enforcement. Currently, I'm playing with the idea of a PI agency if I want to keep the investigation elements of the original plan, so I may end up going with that. I'm going to continue brainstorming to see what I want, though.

Obviously, this'll change a lot of things and the current demo will be thrown out for that reason, but since I'm already redoing my plans, I don't personally find it a tough change to make. I think it'll be a lot easier now that I've made this decision early on.

I have no idea where this puts Burwick in my priority list now. I guess I'll feel it out as I go. I'm not gonna put too much pressure on myself this time. I'll just see how it goes.

I just wanted to talk about what I'm thinking so people can prepare themselves for this change. I might remake the blog when the time comes, or just nuke the current posts, or I'll leave it alone as it is. I'll cross (or burn) that bridge when I get to it.

[burwickdestination]

Would anyone who follows this blog notice if I made a post

[ghostsofruefell]

Hello, followers of this account and the others I will reblog this too. I'm just gonna kinda ramble here, but I also have some important info re: when Ruefell will be completed (and Burwick)

I'm sure people have noticed I have a habit of starting projects and never getting anywhere with them:

Honey and Fire, that was my first try at IF and I was a teenager and had no idea what I was doing and it's just no longer a viable project, so that's cancelled for real.

Burwick Destination, I was still inexperienced and young, so my planning is total garbage and needs to be completely rebuilt from the ground up, perhaps the story will change a good deal when I get around to that. But I'm not ready to do that and I won't be for a while. I'm ashamed of how long it's been on hiatus, so I need to take this time to clear my plate and just not look at it for a while, that way it won't go the way of HoF and take a toll on my mental health.

Magic of Ruefell, my planning is much better and I'm still confident in this one. But it's a big project. Which brings me to my newest project.

The Book of Broken Candles. @bookofbrokencandles This one is my new and primary focus. I feel prepared to see this one to completion.

See... I have problems lol. I'm just gonna level with you guys. I struggle really, really badly with executive dysfunction and some symptoms that lead me to certain labels I can't get diagnosed, but are symptoms that frequently strangle my creative efforts. I was in a much worse place when I started those first three projects (and my not-so-secret other one on my main) so they also got this treatment as I fell into yet another pit that prevented me from working. But I feel like I'm in a better place now. It's not perfect and I'm still slower than hell at writing, but I'm also still writing. Consistently, at that, which is something that hasn't happened for me since my fanfic days in my teens. That's a good sign, to me.

I'm worried about what will happen as we get into December, because I already hate how early the sun sets where I live and I don't do well with seasonal depression. But I won't be too hard on myself, whatever happens, and I hope that will be enough to get me through this season without a great deal of pain to my writing.

But that's neither here nor there right now. I wanted to clear state what's going on in my head right now regarding my projects:

Truth be told, Burwick and Ruefell are too much right now. Burwick moreso, but that's for multiple reasons. I've already said it, but I need to return to it at a much later date and pick up the pieces of my teenage mess.

Ruefell, it's in a way better state, but it is... a big bite to chew right now, in terms of being my first completed IF. So I don't think it can be my first completed IF. Its cast and number of variables are on the large side and I don't want to burn out on it. There's also more promise in the plot that I'd really like to have the experience needed to deliver on.

Candles is... getting a bit on the big side haha. It's seeming larger than I expected when I first conceived of it. But I'm keeping it in a much tighter scope. Its focus is much narrower, I'm more confident in the decisions I'm making to keep the number of variables under control (aka not being too much of a people-pleaser) and I have a set limit on the number of chapters it will have, so I can see the timeline a lot clearer. What this means is basically just that Candles will take a little longer to complete than I initially thought, but it won't be harder to complete.

So here's the timeline: Candles completed -> Ruefell completed -> Circle back around to Burwick and complete that.

Then I'll see what ideas I've shelved in that time. I have some I've been kicking around for a long time, and one that may very well end up being my magnum opus when I get to it. And I think my dream is to one day write a VN. I have an idea, but it is also massive, so maybe I'll manage to make that dream come true with a smaller project before that one.

I think that's all I have to say right now... Thank you, everyone, who's been patient with me all this time. If you still enjoy my work, please follow me over at @bookofbrokencandles and send me asks and stuff, I need engagement to survive or I feel like I'm screaming into a void that won't echo.

Ok, bye.

[ghostsofruefell]

Just a reminder my family and I are desperately in need of money for groceries and possibly bills. I won't be able to complete commissions until my laptop is repaired (it sounds like that'll be by around the end of this month) but I do have those open. Please see the other post for information and a link to my ko-fi.

[ghostsofruefell]

And literally the day after that post about commissions, my computer broke down out of nowhere. We're gonna have to send it in to be repaired after we hear back from support and hope I don't lose any files, but for now, I won't be able to write.

Still, please, please consider commissioning me. The information is in the post just before this one on my blog(s) We're really gonna need the money. I will be working on commissions as soon as my laptop is in working order again.

[ghostsofruefell]

I want to thank everyone who helped me the last time with my emergency commissions. It really was a big help and my mom was able to go back to work on time.

Unfortunately, it’s not over yet. Due to the irresponsibility of party-goers on Thanksgiving in my state, the (actually responsible) restaurants are being punished again and my mom is going to be out of work once more. The way her boss is planning it, if she can’t get another job, she may be out of work for all of January.

This means we’re going to be super poor again and we need help with groceries and bills. I still have 2 commissions to finish from last time and I apologize for the delay, as you can probably tell life is hitting me hard, but I will be working harder to get things done faster. In the meantime

Emergency commissions are still open.

My ko-fi is here

One coffee = 500 words.

I will do just about anything. I don’t have many limits, but please contact me beforehand if you want something particularly outlandish.

And I will only do ROxMC (Poly counts, of course)

After donating, if you would like a commission, please contact me with the following information;

NSFW or SFW

RO(s) of your choosing

What tone you want - Fluff, Angst, plain old Thirst, etc.

Prompt, if you have one, or just tell me to decide

Also let me know if you want to remain anonymous when I post the finished work

Thank you, everyone! Please think about commissioning me if you can 🤗

[ghostsofruefell]

Still taking emergency commissions

Ko-fi is here. 500-1k words, or more for any donations above $10. Just message me on any of my blogs.

[ghostsofruefell]

Emergency commissions- in need of grocery/bill money

so, my NaNoWriMo plans have gone completely out the window. Oregon is shutting down again for, presumably, 2 weeks. I’m all for doing what we can against the virus, but they’re doing this so irresponsibly and not actually supporting the people whose only sources of income they’ve just taken away. What this means is my family and I are going to be super freaking broke the next 2 weeks (at LEAST) and I don’t know how we’re going to get through this. We have bills to pay, we have pets to feed, we have ourselves to feed.

This year, especially this latter half of it, has been such garbage, as I’m sure you all can sympathize. I cannot handle anymore of this stress.

All I have is a ko-fi, which you can donate to here. I can offer, for any donations, short fics of your choosing of 500 to 1k words. I know that’s not a lot for what I’m asking, but I really wasn’t prepared for this. if you want to donate more than $10 and want more for your donation, please contact me, I’m totally willing to work that out. I just need some help.

[ghostsofruefell]

Oh, I have a Ko-fi now

I’m sorry I haven’t been super active on my blogs, nor very good at keeping up with asks, or even writing my damn games, and then here I come asking for money. This year has been hard on a lot of people, I know, and I’m no different. I’ve been intending to start a ko-fi basically since I started writing IF, but thing after thing kept getting in the way. But I can’t keep putting it off anymore. I need support.

Don’t feel pressured to do it. I deeply appreciate all kinds of support, including just putting up with me and my ramblings. Just having a platform where I am listened to and I can talk about my characters is helpful for my mental health, and better mental health means I can work easier on getting content out for you guys.

And also, at some point in the future, I will be doing commissions for ko-fi donations. I can’t right now, but if you want some incentive, that’s something to look forward to, I think lol.

Anyway, if you’d like to throw a little monetary support my way, click –> here

[burwickdestination]

Seth: You seem hard to kill.

MC: Aw thank you. I haven’t been killed yet.

Seth: To your knowledge.

MC: What?

[burwickdestination]

i'm a sucker for evil men ;;; i need to know if evil couple things are in the itinerary for seth's route like manipulating people together (I think that was a thing seth was ok with like pretending to be in love with another RO but maybe I imagined it), promising the wrath of a thousand suns for an enemy bruising ur lover's face, getting a victory kiss over the bodies of ur enemies and all the jazz 🙏

I love when tumblr mobile doesn’t notify me of new asks so I have to look on desktop which I never do and see what’s been sitting for me for who knows how long.

Sorry! Anyway. I don’t recall saying Seth would be okay with MC pretending to be in love with another RO. I don’t think he would be. MC’s corrupted routes with the other ROs do feature heavy manipulation and not real love. Seth specializes in manipulating people and corrupt!MC can do that, so that part is true and if you follow the corrupted route with Seth, your cup will runneth over with evil couple things 🖤