What dream am I hanging on to?
One Nice Bug Per Day
Lint Roller? I Barely Know Her

pixel skylines
Peter Solarz
DEAR READER
Stranger Things
hello vonnie
$LAYYYTER

@theartofmadeline

No title available

❣ Chile in a Photography ❣
2025 on Tumblr: Trends That Defined the Year
Game of Thrones Daily

Origami Around
Jules of Nature

JVL

blake kathryn

izzy's playlists!
I'd rather be in outer space 🛸
Sade Olutola
seen from Jordan
seen from Belgium
seen from United States
seen from France
seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
seen from Italy
seen from France

seen from Tunisia

seen from France
seen from Philippines

seen from Germany

seen from United States

seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States

seen from France
@businessconsiderations
What dream am I hanging on to?
$$$$$ $$$$$ $$$$$ $
Progress since last week...
1. Practice storytelling
Same, working on wins for Jun/Jul/Aug
2. Expand network
Not great, 0 for 2 on my last 2 cold emails to VPs. Gonna keep trying.
3. Increase marketability
Pushed my exam to Jun 30 to give myself more time. I've been writing so much in preparation I've given myself Carpal tunnel.
178.2 lb
Down 18 lb overall, 3.2 behind goal after 14 weeks...
Well, I've reached the end of my President's Day to Memorial Day challenge, didn't lose 21.2 lb, but 18 ain't bad.
The line is pretty interesting. I pretty much stayed right on target from mid-Feb to mid-Apr, losing ~1.6 lb per week. Then came my work trip which slowed progress down a bit, but I recovered and was back on goal in early-to-mid-May. Then who knows what happened, I got too lax, maybe diminishing returns on my strategy, whatever, it's over.
I'm not doing my full recap like I normally do, my fingers hurt, I don't feel like typing that much right now. I ran my runs, I ate and recorded my grades, I did all the things this week. I did fine.
I did crack and have some beers on Sunday, only making it to 97 days without alcohol, not the full 99. We hosted people I didn't feel like making small talk with without a few drinks. This is a character flaw of mine, I admit, but I'm not going to beat myself up over it. We hosted more people on Monday and I didn't drink. Hopefully, this is start of me drinking less.
I read what my goals were originally, to get to 175 by Memorial Day, to 165 by my 46th birthday, to stay there until my 47th.
I don't know, I think I'm backing off that. First, a summer goal: 9 weeks to lose 4-6 lbs, that'd put me below 175 at least, possibly to the low 170s. Then it'll be August when I want to ramp up the running miles, no longer optimizing my diet for weight loss.
So maybe 165 by 46 isn't doable. Maybe it's 165 by 47 then hold it for a year. I think that's where I'm at. I think that sounds good.
Accounting for investments and long-term assets
I sit for Part One of the CMA exam at the end of June, and I'm at the point of my preparation where (already having gone through all the units and taking notes) I'm going back to the beginning and doing practice problems.
Practice problems for the first few sections--accounting cycle, financial statement analysis, asset valuation--have been fairly straightforward. But, man, practice problems centered on investments and long-term assets have shined a spotlight on my knowledge gap in these areas. I clearly haven't mastered the material yet, so I figured writing a blog post on the topic could help.
This will be a boring blog post that interests no one besides me. Not sure why I felt compelled to write that previous sentence since that describes every post on this blog.
Investments in debt securities
Important to note that accounting rules differ for investments in debt securities and equity securities. So equity securities will be next.
Debt securities represent a creditor relationship with an entity. This includes:
Corporate bonds
Redeemable preferred stock
Government securities, e.g. T-bills and T bonds
Convertible debt
Commercial paper
Excludes:
Derivatives, i.e. options, futures, forwards
Leases
Accounts receivable
Notes receivable (even though they seem like it)
*Classification*
Investments in debt securities can be classified in 3 distinct ways:
Held-to-maturity (HTM): for these you need a positive intent to hold to maturity + the ability to hold to maturity. Based on the time to maturity, these are current (<1 year to maturity) or non-current (>1 year to maturity) assets
Trading: bought and held with intent to sell in near term, generally recorded as current assets
Available-for-sale (AFS): sort of in the middle of trading and HTM, generally non-current assets, ultimately based on intent
*Valuation*
Trading and AFS debt securities are reported at fair value. HTM debt securities are reported at amortized cost.
For the two reported at fair value, there's a difference in how gains/losses are recognized. Unrealized gains/losses on trading securities are recognized right away in Net Income, no need to wait for gains/losses to become realized via a sale.
But for AFS securities, unrealized gains/losses are recognized in Other Comprehensive Income (OCI) until they are sold, at which point the gain/losses becomes realized and recognized in Net Income. However, there is an exception for credit losses, if the value of the AFS security declines due to expected credit losses, that loss should be booked to Net Income not OCI.
For HTM securities reported at amortized cost, no unrealized gains/losses are recognized. And no realized holding gains/losses from sale of HTM securities because they are held to maturity, it's right there in the name.
*Reclassification*
There could be situations where investments in debt securities ought to be transferred between classifications. Obviously transfers should only occur when justified, i.e. when there's a change in intent to hold a particular security to maturity.
These reclassifications are all accounted for at fair value, we just need to understand what we do with any unrealized holding gains. Here are the 4 scenarios:
From trading to any other classification - any unrealized gains/losses have already been recognized, so no adjustment is needed, easy breezy
From any other classification to trading - unrealized gains/losses recognized in current period earning, i.e. Net Income
From HTM to AFS - unrealized gains/losses recorded in OCI
From AFS to HTM - you need to amortize the unrealized gains/losses from OCI with any bond premium/discount amortization (not gonna lie, not sure what this looks like in practice, haven't seen any review problems that detail this, if I do later on, I'll come back and update this)
*Impairment*
For debt securities, a credit loss is recognized if it's determined that all principal and interest won't be collected. Using Current Expected Credit Loss (CECL) model, we recognize this as a period expense, essentially an allowance against the investment. Hence, impairment.
For HTM, we have to consider if we are going to collect all the principal and all the interest. If the answer is no, the security should be reported at the present value of the principal and interest we expect to collect. The difference between this and the amortized cost is recognized as a credit loss.
For AFS, credit losses are limited by the amount the fair value falls below the amortized cost. Because if all else fails, you won't sell, you'll just hold to maturity as that's the best value you can get, so it doesn't make sense to mark it below that point.
For trading, no need to worry about impairment because trading securities are always marked to fair value.
*Sale of debt securities*
For trading, difference between book value and selling price is recognized as realized gain/loss. This is just about timing as book value equals fair value but as of last period end. Think if security was marked to market at end of period 2, but we sell the middle of period of 3, we have to mark to market for whatever is unrealized mid-period.
For AFS, difference between original cost and selling price gets recognized as realized gain/loss in Net Income and accumulated OCI for unrealized gain/loss is written off.
Investment in equity securities
Wow, I took too long writing the debt securities section. Hopefully, this section is simpler.
Equity securities represent ownership interest or right to acquire or dispose an ownership interest. This includes:
Ownership shares
Warrants/rights/call options (rights to acquire)
Put options (rights to dispose)
Excludes:
Preferred stock redeemable at the investor's option
Mandatorily redeemable stock
Treasury stock
Convertible bonds
*Classification*
FVTNI - Fair Value through Net Income, this is generally applicable to all equity securities, think trading.
But this is accounting so there are, of course, exceptions:
Equity method investments - if you own at least 20%
Consolidated investees - you own greater than 50%
Practicability exception - if fair value is not readily determinable, investment reported at cost less impairment +/- the observable price changes
*Valuation and income*
Unrealized holding gains/losses are recognized in Net Income as they occur. Normal dividends are recognized in Net Income as they occur.
A liquidating dividend, however, is a return of capital, thus reduces my investment basis. That's giving me back some of my original investment, that's not income.
And of course, when you sell an equity security, any remaining changes in fair value are recognized as a gain/loss.
Property, Plant, and Equipment
These are assets with physical substance, acquired for use in operations, not for resale. They include land, building and equipment--generally subject to depreciation. Classified in these buckets:
Land (property)
Buildings (plant)
Equipment
Accumulated depreciation (contra-asset)
*Valuation*
Historical cost = costs to acquire + cost to bring to locations and intended use, e.g. transportation, installation
GAAP and IFRS used the following cost model:
Carrying value = historical cost - accumulated depreciation - impairment
IFRS only allows for revaluation model:
Carrying value = fair value at revaluation date - subsequent accumulated depreciation - subsequent impairment
Revaluation losses run through P&L (unless you are reversing prior gains in OCI). More or less the same as impairment, just not permanant.
Revaluation gains run through OCI (unless you are reversing prior losses in P&L).
Impairment reverses revaluation gains first, then reporting through P&L.
Check out this amazing illustration to demonstrate:
Depreciation
Why does depreciation exist? The matching principle, we are trying to match income to expense. Doesn't the asset generate income over it's life? Yes, ok then, we match revenue and expense over its life.
The depreciation method doesn't have to be perfect, but it must be systematic and rational.
The need to depreciate an asset can be physical (related to wear and tear) or functional (related to obsolescence or inadequacy). Regardless, we come up with an estimated useful life. And usually at that point, the asset has some salvage value.
We can depreciate at the asset level. Or we can go narrower and depreciate at the component level, separating each part of the fixed asset, e.g. motor needs replaced every 5 years, whole machine lasts 20.
Or we can go broader and depreciate at the composite level, averaging useful lives for an asset class and depreciate as a group. Note: there is no gain/loss recognized when one asset in a composite is sold; instead, the gain/loss is absorbed in the accumulated depreciation account when the average service life of the group of assets has not been reached. No ideas what MACRS is, but it's not compatible with composite depreciation.
*Methods*
Ok, these involve some math, so hopefully I do them justice in a mere bullet point list:
Straight-Line: (cost - salvage value) / estimated useful life = depreciation ... simple, depreciation expense is same amount each period
Sum-of-the-Years'-Digits: this is an accelerated method, best described via example. Say it's 5 years, 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 = 15. Year 1 depreciation is 5/15 of total, year 2 is 4/15, year 3 is 3/15, year 4 is 2/15, year 5 is 1/15
Units of production: based on usage, e.g. copier is good for number of copies, this is the most accurate to matching principle. So (cost - salvage value) / estimated units = rate per unit; then rate per unit * number of units = depreciation expense
Declining balance: another accelerated method, most common is double. Importantly, salvage value is not part of calculation, just used as floor. So for double, calculate straight-line without salvage value, double that for year one. Year 2 take what's left, straight-line then double. For instance, $10m asset, 5 year life, $2m salvage value. Year 1 is $10m / 5 * 2 = $4m. $6m left to go. Year 2 is $6m / 5 * 2 = $2.4m. $3.6m left to go. Year 3 is $3.6m / 5 * 2 = $1.44m, $2.16m left to go. Don't need to do the math for Year 4, just take it down to $2m, thus $0.16m and stop as we hit the salvage value floor. I think I did that right.
Intangible assets
These are not physical but used in operations, for instance, long-lived legal rights, competitive advantages, acquisitions to be used.
They can be specifically identified, e.g. patents. Or they can't be, e.g. goodwill.
They can be purchased, e.g. legal and registration fees. Or they can be internally developed, e.g. trademarks.
What about R&D? GAAP says no, just expense it. IFRS says, expense research, but capitalize development. The line between research and development is technological feasibility. More precisely, IFRS allows you to capitalize development if you prove
Technological feasibility
Intent to complete
Ability to use or sell
Will generate future economic benefits
Resources are available to complete
*Capitalization of costs*
Cost are capitalized and measured by:
Cash paid or fair value of other assets
Present value of liability incurred
Fair value of consideration for issued stock
Costs may be determined by whichever is more evident:
Fair value of the consideration given
Fair value of property acquired
Cost of unidentifiable intangible assets = total cost of assets acquired - sum of identifiable assets acquired. Cost of identifiable assets should not include goodwill.
*Amortization*
Amortization with definite life is determined by: shorter of estimated life or remaining legal life. For instance, if patent lasts for 10 years, but useful life is 5, we amortize for 5. While if patent lasts for 10, but useful life is 20, we amortize for 10. Straight-line method should be applied unless you can demonstrate that another systematic method is more appropriate.
With indefinite life, you need to test for impairment annually. IFRS allows intangible to be marked to market like fixed assets, GAAP does not.
*Sale*
Pretty obvious: selling price vs. carrying value to determine gain/loss.
*Valuation*
Under GAAP, use the cost model:
Finite life: cost less amortization and impairment
Infinite life: cost less impairment
IFRS allows for cost model or revaluation model. Revaluation model is just what it sounds like, intangible assets are revalued to fair value at a subsequent revaluation date:
Revaluation model carrying value = fair value on revaluation date - subsequent amortization - subsequent impairment
(Subsequent amortization obviously only applies to finite life intangible assets)
Revaluations must be performed regularly so carrying value doesn't differ materially from fair value. If you revalue one intangible asset, you have to do so for all other assets in its asset class, unless there is no active market for the intangible assets. Treatment as follows:
Gains: in OCI (unless reversing prior loss in Net Income) accumulating in Equity as "Revaluation Surplus"
Losses: in Net Income (unless reversing prior gain in OCI)
Impairment: first reduces Revaluation Surplus to zero, then hitting Net Income
Impairment of assets
*Fixed assets*
Mostly we are talking property, plant, and equipment here.
The test...
Is there impairment? Compare undiscounted future net cash flows to net carrying value:
If positive, no impairment
If negative, yes impairment
Impairment on assets held for use, take fair value (aka present value of future net cash flows) less net carrying value to get impairment loss, then:
Write asset down
Amortize new cost
Restoration is not permitted
Impairment on assets held for disposal, same impairment loss calculation but have to add cost of disposal to get total impairment loss, then:
Write asset down
No amortization taken
Restoration is permitted
Impairment loss is reported as a component of income from continuing operations before income taxes.
Under IFRS, fixed asset impairment loss is: calculated using one-step model comparing:
Carrying Value
Recoverable Amount
Recoverable Amount is greater of:
Fair Value less Cost to Sell
Value in Use
Value in Use is:
Future Cash Flows from the Fixed Asset
*Intangible assets other than goodwill*
Indefinite useful life, tested for impairment at least annually. Finite useful life, whenever circumstances change that indicate carrying value may not be recoverable.
Under GAAP, finite life amortized over its life, infinite life not amoritized.
Two-step impairment test for FINITE life intangible assets:
Carrying amount of asset compared to sum of undiscounted cash flows expected to result from use of asset and its eventual disposition
If carrying amount exceeds those undiscounted cash flows, then asset is impaired and impairment loss = difference between carrying value and fair value
Repeating for effect...
Determine impairment: use undiscounted future cash flows
Amount of impairment: use fair value
One-step impairment test for INDEFINITE life intangible assets:
Generally not able to estimate future cash flows here, so simply compare carrying value to fair value. Though it's probably not that simple.
Again, impairment loss is reported as a component of income from continuing operations before income taxes. (Unless, of course, the impairment loss is related to discontinued operations.)
The impairment test of intangible assets is the same as the test for property, plant, and equipment above...but there is a initial qualitative test for indefinite life intangibles that you do first to skip the rigamarole when it's obvious there's impairment when fair value is below carrying value.
*Goodwill*
Under GAAP, calculated at the reporting unit level. Again, occurs when carrying value exceeds fair value. A reporting unit is an operating segment or one level below an operating segment.
Under IFRS, calculated at the cash-generating unit.
Quantitative test isn't necessary, GAAP allows for qualitative test, as long as >50% chance fair value is less than carrying value based on factor such as these:
Macroeconomic conditions
Overall financial performance
Bankruptcy, litigation, or changes in management/strategy/customers
Industry or market conditions
Sustained decrease in share price
Cost factors that could have negative effect on earning and cash flows
Recapping asset differences between GAAP and IFRS
More details on most of this above...
Intangible assets:
Development costs: GAAP no but for software for external use, IFRS yes with technical/economic feasibility
Revaluation: GAAP no, IFRS yes if active market exists (but not goodwill)
Long-lived assets and revaluation:
Revaluation: GAAP no, IFRS yes
Component depreciation: GAAP permitted, IFRS required
Revision of depreciation methods, residual values, or estimated life: GAAP if appropriate, IFRS at least every year
Capitalization of borrowing costs: GAAP on interest paid during construction/do not offset interest income/average interest on average accumulated expenditures capitalized, IFRS interest and other ancillary costs and changes to FX rates regarded as adjustments to interest are eligible/interest expense is offset against interest income/actual borrowing cost capitalized
Impairment: GAAP two-step test (see above), IFRS one-step test (see above)
Reversal of impairment loss: GAAP yes up to previously recorded losses but only if asset held for disposal/not permitted if asset held for use, IFRS yes/gains to OCI/losses to Net Income
5 mi
8:38ap, 78F, 74% humidity, sunny, 44:38, 9:52 min/mi pace
It was hot, don't let those weather stats fool you.
I ran from my normal starting point on Ekana, left on Lockwood, turned around at 2.6 and came back.
My hands have been hurting, maybe Carpal tunnel, it's annoying, but I feel no pain when I run. No matter how sick or hurt I am--as long as it's not a running injury--running gives me temporary reprieve.
My running playlist was just Oasis's Definitely Maybe album in honor of the Manchester Derby FA Cup final happening after my run, unfortunately the good guys lost.
I did a 9:46 mile 1, 9:32 mile 2, 9:28 mile 3, felt like I could have stepped it up and run 2 more negative splits. But it was hot, I hadn't eaten anything yet, and I wasn't trying to break any world records, just wanted to run happy and healthy.
9:55 mile 4, then really slowed up for the last mile at 10:34, that was probably taking it too easy, but I had a day full of studying coming, plus I'd be doing a 20-min run/walk with my daughter later for her couch to 5k program, so it's fine, better safe than sorry.
Goodbye, I'm going home
Man City lost the FA Cup final. Listening to Definitely Maybe on my morning run beforehand didn't give them any good luck I guess.
There was a defensive miscommunication then one moment of magic, and we were down 2-0.
Couldn't convert any of our chances until it was too late, and we lost 2-1.
We'll watch the UCL final, sure, but it's summer now, time to do other things. Except there's MLS, Orlando City and Messi in Miami. Then there's Copa America and the Euros. And we are going to the Man City v Barcelona friendly at Camping World at the end of July. Which is the same week that our kids' club team camps start. And we have all summer of training before that.
Ahhhh, summer break.
"You can cold email nearly anyone, but nearly everyone overlooks how powerful it can be. Sending one email each week that feels like a stretch can change your life. Will you get turned down? Sure, most of the time. But you only need one to pay off for something amazing to happen. Take your time, write a thoughtful message, and muster the courage to press Send."
- James Clear on the power of cold emails
Still no response from the VP I emailed earlier in the week. But I need to keep trying. I like the idea of a weekly cold email streak, so reading this James Clear newsletter was timely. I will keep the streak going next week.
I have gotten good at responding to emails. Someone I interviewed but didn't select emailed me for feedback. I responded within the hour with some thoughtful notes. Based on his gracious response back, I can tell he'd never received that thoughtful of an email back before.
Tyler Cowen does this. He is known for being a good emailer. I have emailed him twice now with questions about his books on two different occasions. He responded once within 2 minutes, the other time it took him 12 minutes.
I won't hold the lack of the response from the VP against him. Not everyone is Tyler Cowen. I am sure he has his legitimate reasons for not responding. On to the next one...
All I ever wanted all I ever needed is here in my arms
I will never tire of this song.
I may not listen to it for a few months or even a year, but then it pops back up into my consciousness, and I listen to it a few times a day for a few weeks.
I do this thing where I'm like: my favorite song by a particular artist or the field? That is, if I had to choose between only listening my favorite song of theirs or everything else they've ever done for the rest of my life, what would I choose?
For Depeche Mode, it's easily "Enjoy the Silence" for me, the field be damned.
$$$$$ $$$$$ $$$$$
Progress since last week...
Doing better here, pretty locked in at the moment.
1. Practice storytelling
Have my list, working through it, aiming for some big wins here Jun/Jul/Aug.
2. Expand network
Trying, man, I'm trying. Lunch scheduled today with an AVP I want to reconnect with. Emailed a VP I've been meaning to reach out to for a while now, hasn't responded. Have a list I'm working through.
3. Increase marketability
In full-fledged practice problem mode for CMA exam. Feeling OK about the material, but really need to hit some of the cumbersome math concepts hard in the coming weeks. Exam in 3.5 weeks, hope to feel better about the material soon.
179.9 lb
Up 0.7 from last week, down 16.3 overall, 3.4 behind goal after 13 weeks...
Up week-over-week, it was a long time coming, definitely not hitting 176 or 177 in a week, let alone 175.
This is OK! I can still reach the 178s, this is great, if I can get to 178.2, that's 18 lb. in 14 weeks, this is quite an accomplishment!
I am already planning the summer, I'm thinking I'm not going to start ramping up the running mileage until the fall, keep a couple more months of optimizing for weight loss--albeit at a slower pace--over the summer. Thinking 6 lb. in 9 weeks, i.e. two-thirds of a lb. per week. This is doable! This puts me in the low 170s before August when I start running more.
This is within striking distance of my long term goal of 165, though by my 46th birthday might be too aggressive if I want to hit some running goals. May before 47?
I ran 5 times for 18.1 miles last week, not counting the short runs with my daughter, will likely keep it under 20 miles per week throughout the summer.
My EGPA was exactly a C+ of 2.33: Mon B-, Tue A-, Wed C, Thu B, Fri/Sat/Sun C-. My worst week by far, don't think I went under 3.0 in any of the first 12 weeks, obvious why I gained weight this week. I don't need to recap every detail. Treating it like a parents guide for a movie: the week was rated R, not for alcohol or dessert, but rather for cheese and carbs.
No alcohol for 13 weeks, 91 days. 91/99, nearly 92% of the way there. Though not gonna lie, thinking of allowing myself beer on Memorial Day weekend, so I might only make it 96 or 97 days, life's too short.
I feel optimistic about the future.
Hung in a Bad Place
Mike Tomlin says you need to accept being uncomfortable to achieve special outcomes.
I know this to be true but try to pretend that it's not.
Pretty much anything worth doing in life, any accomplishments I've accomplished have come during times when I've been uncomfortable, from work to family to health.
So when I dream of the future, why am I not visualizing myself being uncomfortable? I always daydream of life after the accomplishment, when I am comfortable.
I think I need to refocus my daydreams away from the life of leisure I will live after I've accomplished something and towards the life I would be happy living doing something interesting.
4.5 mi
5:17p, 88F, 65% humidity, sunny, 44:38, 9:52 min/mi pace
Soccer tournament Saturday, didn't have time to run before we left for the first game. Had a big brunch between games, got home after the second game around 4:30p, not hungry on account of the big brunch, noticed brief thunderstorm that rolled through on our drive home was wrapping up, figured I'd knock my run out before dinner.
It was hot and humid, but I have turned myself into someone that like breathing in the humid air, I feel alive. Thought about running 5-5.5 miles, since I had fuel from my earlier-in-the-day eating, but I turned back toward home slightly earlier than I should have because I fail at math when running sometimes.
I ran out Ekana, left on Lockwood, turned around at 2.35 mi, ran back. Decided to stop at 4.5 mi and walk the rest of the way home, felt great.
Got home and asked my daughter if she wanted to run, she's doing a couch to 5K program with me, this weekend called for a 20-min run/walk in 2-min run/2-min walk splits. She did great. It's fun running with her. So that added another 1.7 mi to my day.
Thought about jumping in the pool afterward too cool down but was too lazy, sat around in my sweaty clothes watching MLS then showering and heading to bed.
Playoffs?
I read someone, likely an American, write on Twitter about how great a 4-team playoff would be to determine the Premier League champion.
And, sure, City v. Villa and Arsenal v. Liverpool, followed by a final at Wembley would be cool.
It's a wonderful idea, but I liked it better the first time when it was called the FA Cup. (And the even the second time when it was called the League Cup.)
I prefer the European system of concurrent league and playoff systems with the possibility of separate winners. Not every year has to have a singularly, great champion. That’s OK!
I admit winning the FA Cup doesn’t feel on par to winning a league title because teams devalue the cups.
So let’s make the FA Cup winner earn a Champions League spot. Problem solved.
“By far the dominant reason for not releasing sooner was a reluctance to trade the dream of success for the reality of feedback.”
- Kent Beck via James Clear
I'm nearly two weeks into reading historian Benny Morris's book about the first Arab-Israeli war, it's interesting so I'm going to keep going. But it's long and based on the pace I'm on, it'll be awhile before I finish, I'm not even halfway through.
It's not super quotable so I'll likely pull quotes from other places for my weekly Saturday posts for the next few weeks.
Not much to say about this quote other than it pretty much describes my life.
I have this blog that no one reads. But I like the name. I've spend my life in big business. I am good with numbers. I can read a financial statement. I can offer my insights. I can tell a good story. Maybe I can put this all together and be a content creator of things that people actually consume.
But I just keep aimlessly writing a blog no one reads, dreaming about a future I am not working to make happen, telling myself writing here daily is its own reward.
Sometimes when you are feeling it, when you have a good idea, you just need to go with it, people will follow.
Sure, there's a risk MC Hammer will confront you in the bathroom and force you to sign away the rights to your idea, but that's a risk you have to take.
But my problem still remains, my psychic vampire that is, that deep down, I think I'm mediocre, and that my ideas can't possibly be that good, and even if they were, I won't be good enough at persuading people to follow me.
Maybe I should try though, put on my best outfit, including a fox tail, and show people the freshest moves they've ever seen.
$$$$$ $$$$$ $$$$
Progress since last week...
3. Increase marketability
Part one of the CMA exam looms large over all else right now, I'm one month out. I'm about to shift from getting through the material/taking notes to studying and doing practice problems. Not an excuse for shortcomings in #1 and #2 below, but it's dominating my creative energy at the moment.
1. Practice storytelling
Currently focusing on the work that will create stories to tell about. I regret not making more progress on something because I could have had a presentation spot in my boss's boss's staff meeting this week, but I really didn't have anything to talk about.
2. Expand network
Falling short here. I need to write down a list of names and start an action plan. I will do that by the end of the week.
179.2 lb
Down 0.7 from last week, down 17 overall, 1.2 behind goal after 12 weeks…
OK, I don't know what happened with my weigh-ins at the end of the week. If I was going with individual days and not 7-day rolling averages I'd actually be up week over week.
I thought I'd really done it...last week I thought I'd rallied far enough back and this week would be the culmination of all that rallying back to goal. I was 0.4 away last Monday, 0.2 on Tuesday, 0.1 on Wednesday and Thursday, 0.3 on Friday and Saturday though my weigh-ins were strong.
However, my Sunday weigh-in was waaaaay up from the day before, Monday only came down slightly, not sure what happened, and here I am, 1.2 lb behind goal.
Not going to obsess over it. Zooming out, my weight is in a good spot. I am making progress, just don't think 175 on the dot is possible by Memorial Day, 2 weeks from now. 1.5 per week is gets me to 176.2, losing 20 lb in 14 weeks. 1.6 per week would be even better, would get me to 176 on the dot, only a pound away from goal.
Regardless I am moving into the lifestyle phase from the challenge phase, I want to be 165 by my birthday in March 2025, 9.5 months away. I already calculated the goal, that's like 0.25 pounds per week from 175 on Memorial Day to mid-March.
So if I get to 176 in 2 weeks, then stay after it--admittedly allowing myself a few beers by the pool--I should have no problem be on goal from a larger perspective at some point over the summer.
OK, I should quickly run through some of the typical beats for a Wednesday post for the sake of consistency...
Only ran 4 times, 14 miles, this week, recovering from being sick, needing to miss a day, should be back to 5 times this week
I ate the same way I've been eating over the course of this project, but maybe too much cheese this past week
EGPA 3.43: Mon/Wed/Fri B+, Tue/Thu/Sat A-, Sun B, but based on my end of week weigh-ins, it would seem I graded myself too leniently
No alcohol for 12 week, 84 days, 84 for 99, so close to my goal, pretty amazing
Losing 1.6, getting down to 177.6, 1.1 behind goal, that's what I'd like to accomplish this week.