number one rosa klebb stan and simp

27, F

[butchaholic]

had a normal reaction to this btw

[butch-bara]

[butchaholic]

saw the biggest ass of my life. like a couple gallon jugs walking down the street

[butchaholic]

i think about my time spent working in hell, they're like flashcubes, so painful and stark, intensities nothing else will ever reach. long stretches of delirium punctuated by terror. i have peace now, but a part of me still reaches for the grim satisfaction and guilty affirmation that would crash over me after of surviving another wake nightmare. the adrenaline would briefly shake me awake from the perpetual exhaustion, but not to reality, instead to the glass-sharp edge past that, a hyperreality.

i am still that person, i am that strong, and i never have to go back to hell.

i still wear the uniform every single day.

[butchaholic]

Another sleepless night, another opportunity to watch the sun rise

[asteroidtroglodyte]

Me when I need to rotate 720 degrees to return to my original state

[butchaholic]

camolots models are on something else man

edit: what the fuck am i even talking about

[butchaholic]

i should do drag again but good this time

[degree-in-yapology]

The recipe for success:

[butchaholic]

its not even so much that i despise showering, more that it feels unnecessary, even redundant, if i'm going to be wearing the same dirty clothes, and sleeping in the same dirty bed. it feels pointless.

normally i would get a head shave to banish this feeling but its almost june and i want to be able to gel it for that

[jove999]

Her!

[butchaholic]

Have they invented an embarrasment worse than being unable to find the lube at the discount store or am i on the cutting edge here

[butchaholic]

showered for the first time in like ten days

[butchaholic]

i must actually be fucking retarded. how did i never consider using lube before. no fucking wonder my shits chafed as fuck ive been rubbing it RAWER than raw like a goddamn ape this whole time

[sunkenbeast]

butch taking shirt off 🙏

[butchaholic]

I got a D- on my english paper, and i have another one overdue that I haven't even started. slammed into a locked turnstyle, the bladed kind, after accidentally swiping my student id instead of my credit card. hadn't made that mistake since before leaving hell. i wish there hadn't been a spring break at all. i fucked myself completely by not doing any assignments during it. its my own fault, i know that, but i still hate it. theres nice things about living alone with no one to say shit to you, but there's danger in it too, if you're an idiot about it, the way i've been. maybe i should try to find some help. i don't know.

[butchaholic]

i would have liked to go for an angle from higher in at least one, but i was balancing my phone against soup cans and its physically impossible to get a downward pointing angle like that