Miss_R

\\Miss R's headspace!// ← Yaps a lot //

[butler-ae]

For this special day, I am now opening Questionnaires for my ocs!

There are some that I haven't introduced here yet but you can still ask about them! ^^)

🐈‍⬛ Cynthia Mariam

📽️ Noel/Claude Lumíere

✝️ Ezekiel Kreiss

⛓️‍💥 " Reider "

📻 Hertha Lebret

🧵 Eudelle Reyes

🕷️ Maria Rosalia

[ 🕵️‍♀️🧸 Ethan Sanchez, Aliza and Benjamin thomas are unavailable for questioning. ]

[butler-ae]

Do you wanna know how long I've been crying and holding my breath to halt the screams of self loathing pain? I'm holding on just a few more minutes to write just before I drown in my thoughts and feelings

I'm supposed to tell you this LONG when I was kicked from the server and accept that I'm at the wrong,

Told myself that day that I deserve that punishment, that I don't deserve the same vibe of communication that was Well structured as y'all got and that I shall heal despite knowing that I'll be haunted to remember that day and think of all the things that couldn't be remembered

I let you criticise me, my ocs, story writing, Ships that I like, and things I couldn't accept nor comprehend,

Yet this...

Tell me what evidence can you provide to prove that I hate the game and a women alike,

If I truly said that or if my interpretations have been misunderstood then I'll apologise if needed.

I listened to every opinion possible and tried to blend in by vibing the same influence, it's true that i tried to blend in by pleasing people, Acknowledging that I'll be ignored because of how cringe and annoying can I be. I admit that I am cringe, Stubbornly stupid with my wordings and opinions and becoming Very emotional for caring to people but myself,

However this cannot excuse the twisted truth and lies you're trying to express.

I just exist, Y'all bend the truth and I foolishly followed, You hurt those who are in contact with me, I agree to some opinions from y'all and now you're twisting the same words against me? The very thing you use to tear someone apart just because My existence and stupidity create hate in your heart that didn't fit the appeal?

If you truly joke and belittle me like how you told me not to fold under someone else's opinions,

Then hate me.

Hate me at my best or worst, Hate me until I hate myself even more, Hate me until I am nothing but a forgotten name.

hate me forevermore, if that's what your heart desired.

I am listening to your advice. That I won't be talking to you nor any of your best friends, I'll be taking that seriously even if I'm so weak hearted not to hate you despite hurting me deeply.

Leave me. Don't you EVER pick on those who I cherish. And ERASE me from any form of your thoughts and grudges and turn me into a forgotten memory.

[butler-ae]

My inconsistent ahh

[butler-ae]

My feed is currently infested with VERITY MODS IN MINECRAFT

[butler-ae]

By any probability

Has anyone tried to make an idv oc pv of their oc ?

[butler-ae]

Luca and Tracy are like the best duo from experience.

You either be silly together or lock in,

And if one of them gets banned in rank

The other avenge their pookie whether be

Platonic, romantic or mutual wise

[butler-ae]

Idv ocs...

[butler-ae]

What I understood so far with the 6th letter,

Aside from the Explosion incident that we know well, This one takes a look into Luca's warmth life before the tragedy told through the vision of Alice Deross and the servant of the balsa family named Mrs. Stojanović ( who's apparently the last as the others were dismissed long ago )

• His mother's name is Gordana Balsa

And half of His traits are rooted to her

• Herman's absence caused an effect on Luca which made him yearn for the alternative

That being, Luca is pretty closer to his mother than his dad

• In the past lore at a wiki ( if I remember correctly ), That Alva's wife demands the house after blaming Luca for the accident?

Here, She's the last to manage the old home which was surprisingly not sold

• Somewhere in Ili ( possibly in Europe )

• What Luca doesn't know is that " Pain shapes people ", I think this is where Luca changed and became the worse version of himself ( the one we know today )

• This part is an untold story in both Alva's pov and Luca's first arrival as from there we are left with vague clues such as:

- Alva NOT knowing what Herman's been doing and questions about this Perpetual motion ( Not knowing he has a family and was neglecting, Arguing, left them )

- Luca's pov unable to show more of his life aside from the day he was attending and the incident ( Due to brain damage )

• Some of the paragraphs describes Mrs. Stojanović 's traits and gestures as well as her manners

• At the latter part as Alice leaves, The last servant ask Alice to tell her if Luca Balsa is still out there ( from what I think happens here is that, She's waiting for him to come home. Luca doesn't know that his home is still intact and someone is waiting for him to return ).

Wherever the next story tells,

Let's see more information about our brilliant genius ( also a bit of a dumbahh ) soon

Edit: Luca's pfp seems to be Him and his mother ( known to wear a bright red ) in the warm moments of his life as a kid

[butler-ae]

Not the Luca balsa plushie I'm planning to buy got called as an " Emo boy with bangs " by my auntie

-wheezing-

[butler-ae]

blues'

Colourful ver.

[butler-ae]

I haven't changed a skin quite a bit

[butler-ae]

In search of a soul that vividly exist,

How can you prove to someone that they are seen without words that repeat the same overused phrases? How can they see the real and genuine self that's trying to reach for the abyss to rescue them?

[butler-ae]

In her dream

[butler-ae]

Recently having a dream of Joseph teaching Luca french

[butler-ae]

Getting jumped with Doomed Yaoi/Yuri/straight ships today

[butler-ae]

Is anyone from the Idv oc side joining art fight?

I'll just leave this here...

[butler-ae]

I should definitely post some lore about my idv ocs, Though the complexity of my poetic wordings are simply questionable.