i love her, but...

not like i love you. heated rivalry sideblog. (main blog @virginbylorde2025) LFG i guess

[butnotlike-iloveyou]

“You said this was your favorite place on Earth.” Ilya’s voice is so sexy sometimes that Shane has to actively concentrate.  “Yeah.” He squeezes Ilya’s hand. “Can it be mine too?” Shane inhales sharply, emotion piercing his chest, managing to say “Yes,” before succumbing to several things. Mostly, a bright balloon of joy, a more base satisfaction of pleasing Ilya, a thin shard of pain knowing how fucking long it took them to get here.

i thought about sunlight putting highlights in blonde hair, freckles getting darker in the sun, and how much i love summer, for like 2 seconds too long and blinked and now i have 3k of cottage fluff. please enjoy 💛

[i-fear-gritty]

crucially to me hollanova is top jane bottom lily. bc a major part of shane’s story is him not only accepting his masculinity as a gay man but also as a bottom. and in my little pea brain jane’s femininity is challenged by not only being gay but also by being a muscle butch top. Do you understand me

[deedala]

ilya + 🚬

[spicyvampire]

#Svetlana is always right

HEATED RIVALRY (2025−) 1.05 "I'll Believe in Anything"

[fuckrozanov]

ouuuughhhh shane slowly becoming more confident in his communication and flirtation with ilya…..he stops backspacing his texts a hundred times…..the way he says ilya’s first name in tampa…..smiling at and touching him at the all star game…..letting ilya fuck him with the curtains up at the cottage and play w him outside….he is so guy who realized he doesn’t have to die wondering :))))

[hollandery]

HUDSON WILLIAMS APPRECIATION WEEK | Day 6: Favorite Trait

Art Lover

It’s really fun to write. There’s this writer I love, Joan Didion, and she once said she journals so that when she gets really old, she can pick up her books and find her way back to herself again. That inspired me. It also helps with gratitude. I can look back and go, ‘Wow, that really blew me away.’ — Wonderland

[tummywilliams]

shane fixing his hair at the hotel before he goes to ilya and ilya fixing his hair before he opens the door to let shane in and both of them wanting to look good for each other and being a bit nervous about it all because they both have a big huge crush on each other even if they can't or won't fully admit it to themselves yet let alone put it out there in the open but they still fix their hair like of course i'm crying over it

[tummywilliams]

just thought about how we're probably going to see them nervously fix their hair again in the future but this time the nerves and the slightly sweaty palms and the hearts beating fast will be because they're about to get married and spend the rest of their lives together :)))))

[mutinsfromthemoon]

shane coming up with a question “do you think we would be together in high school?” and ilya looked at shane’s direction and replied “we kinda did” and shane’s like “oh my god we are high school sweethearts” and ilya looked right into shane’s eyes and asked “what the fuck is high school sweethearts?”

[gaynehollander]

Ilya, every day from July 10th 2021, until the end of forever:

[butnotlike-iloveyou]

every gay couple has club boyfriend and normie boyfriend and ilya very deliberately dresses shane every time they go out together bc his normie boyfriend is allowed to be a normie but he is NOT allowed to not look hot to his fullest potential

[hudkarma]

what a great day to remember that ilya rozanov and shane hollander are equally down bad for one person and one person only and that's all we'll ever see play out on our screens

[shanesleftskate]

I KNOW that the head ilya got post meeting shane’s parents and proving that he’s a certified™ good guy and suitable partner for their son was crazyyy, and ilya’s definitely all sweet and happy after successfully being shane’s boyfriend where other people could see and maybe he wants more of that cute domesticity he’s never been able to have but shane’s just looking at him, like a wild animal, before going ‘ilya take your pants off right now’ and then he uno reverses the rozanov tornado blowjob

[smokingrozanov]

Shane lying in bed with his little glasses on reading his before-bed two chapters of his book. When he finishes he turns to Ilya & goes “I would like to kiss now.” & Ilya who has been watching tiktoks out loud this entire time throws his phone to flop onto his husband. A nightly routine

[corvus-nox]

[mymansmoon]

don't understand why anyone would gloss over shane's other hookups or claim ilya never really enjoyed sleeping around. isn't it more delicious to think about how they had other people, went into those experiences with the full intent of deriving pleasure from them, did derive pleasure from them, and knew it still paled in comparison to having each other? everything is relative! I find it far less compelling to imagine them, from the beginning, cosmically engineered to have super unsatisfying sex with other people just because they're going to end up with each other in the end. like yes the very point is that no one does it for them like each other. but I'm only going to know to find that hot if other people did do it for them, to a DEGREE....... that is far lesser than their very special soulmate-level degree.

[pookieshane]

favorite hollanov kisses 13/??

[aslongasitsblack]

shane hollander giggling and blushing and squirming while his big boyfriend talks russian in his deep low voice directly into his ear, mouth moving across the side of his neck