Big Heart, Bigger Butt, Biggest Mess.

Both gay and cool but also neither. Always hungry. Ridden with anxiety and trauma. Playing the role of therapist in my work life and patient in my personal life. Would probably rather be sleeping or making friends with your cat(s).

[buttcannibal]

I think my relationship of 11 years is over. I am completely lost and so devastated.

[katofthehill-deactivated2024021]

stevie

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[grrrlswhorock-deactivated202409]

girls who rock: ann and nancy wilson from heart

[cannibalchicken]

[doggosource]

[politijohn]

Source

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I’ve been seeing the same therapist for 5+ years. After the first few months with her she recommended EMDR. I declined because I wanted to keep seeing her. I just concluded a session with her and she recommended it to me again. I am considering it more this time because I am curious to see if I will make any progress. Not saying I haven’t made progress but I don’t know if talk therapy will provide me with what I need to continue making progress. I can’t seem to just fucking talk about my feelings or memories because I always forget what I am going to say and turn into a bumbling, frantic, tangential idiot. I am kind of freaking out because I really want to keep seeing her but I also want to keep making progress :/

[cannibalchicken]

[honeypleasejustkillme]

therapists saying you're surprisingly self aware is like being called a pleasure to have in class for adults

[captainamericanidi0t]

[captainamericanidi0t]

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[buttcannibal]

I read a book from cover to cover in a few days. I’m usually not able to do this because my head is too loud and I can’t focus. The book also allowed me to feel joy, even if it was only for a few minutes. That’s also a pretty foreign concept for me and has been for quite some time. But yay! Little victories are still victories. Now, if only I could cry lol

[grrrlswhorock-deactivated202409]

girls who rock: alice glass from crystal castles

[buttcannibal]

Here’s to trying Lexapro again. Was hoping for Prozac or Zoloft and Ativan but at least it’s something.

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