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(( IC vent blog. to be seen OOC unless my muse gives yours the URL ))

[buzziingiinten2iifiie2]

me: *is faced with a distressing situation*

brain: *shuts down*

me: no maybe we should actually deal with this

brain: ✔️read 7:26pm

[screenshotsofdespair]

[akllljoy]

bpd is wild because usually, you understand when and why you’re being Ridiculous. but does this stop you from being ridiculous? Absolutely Fucking Not

[buzziingiinten2iifiie2]

[suddenly has an attack of self-loathing]

me: wtf it's christmas

mental illness : this is my gift

[wnq-writers]

“Life is but a paradox between my worst nightmare and my sweetest daydream”

penqwen

[thelovejournals]

I am terrified I will break his heart just because I feel restless; because it is between me and what I hunger for.

Clementine von Radics, Mouthful of Forevers  (via thelovejournals)

[wrathpuppet-blog]

[bpdconcept]

concept: something mildly inconvenient happens, i do not have a breakdown or immediately think of how to end my life.

[thoughts-memories]

[buzziingiinten2iifiie2]

me: I should be worshipped like a god

me 5 minutes later: I'm an actual pile of garbage

[weirdbuzzfeed]

[neurofish]

it’d be cool if i could…………………function

[bigspender]

someone: *sends kinda short replies* me: that’s it. the friendship is over. they hate me. we can never speak again. the end is here

[bpd-entity]

it’s not a real party until you sneak away to the bathroom to question your existence as you stare at yourself in the mirror haha

[lez-bruh]

do u ever feel so unwanted and alone and u just sorta want to cry

[whole-lotta-loser]

I’m so sick of like all of a sudden u just get hit with this overwhelming sense of tiredness and u just wanna smash your face against the wall or sleep for a year and cry your heart out but u just sit there and sigh

[buzziingiinten2iifiie2]

bpd issue #34

Me: *texts friend during emotional breakdown*

Friend: *takes 2 hours to respond*

Friend: are you okay? what happened?

Me, whose mood swing has already passed and is back to business as usual: do I tell them I'm better already or do I fake still being upset. Which is more believable