☣︎ WOUNDS - Nightingale ☣︎
CHAPTER EIGHT - MIXED POV
Summary: It was a quiet kind of torture. The kind that laced itself like thread through your ribs and pulled tighter everyday, just to remind you.
Pair: Henry Creel/Vecna/001 x Female Reader
Content/Warning Labels: dark slowburn, Henry POV, Hawkins Lab, angst, manipulative Henry, trauma, nightmares, Martin Brenner is his own warning, touch-starved, smut (via the void, sub!Henry, teasing, clothed handjob, grinding, unsatisfied ending), medical experiments
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Burdened and sick at heart, he feigned hope in his look, and inwardly contained his anguish.
- Virgil, The Aeneid
Henry knew what he was to the other staff that roamed the lab. A silent sentinel, a compliant white ghost in the halls.
That's how he preferred it.
To them, he was strange. Off-putting.
Providing the occasional entertainment only whenever Martin Brenner decided he needed reminding who held the whip.
Even so, he still had to be calculated.
As much as the fever of you drove him into corners of recklessness, he couldn’t let it overwhelm his sense of caution.
Fortunately, after so many years of servitude, he knew the look that lived on the face of a first-day staff member. One who had no idea what kind of hell she'd walked into.
He supposed she was pretty, in a way Brenner would have liked.
Dark hair, glasses. Impeccably tailored pencil skirt. White blouse opened one button too low. Enough to tease her new boss with what could be, enough to still seem respectable to such a man.
She was new, naive. And in a place as frigid as the lab, warmth was a currency.
Henry silently stalked her movements all day, unassumingly carrying out his own duties, until the moment presented itself.
He found her alone in the break room, flustered and struggling with the coffee machine. His eyes darted to her ring of keys lying on the bench. He stepped inside quietly, throwing her a soft smile as she raised her head.
“Good afternoon,” He said politely.
He stopped, turning his head toward her with a tilt of curiosity.
“Pardon me, but I don’t believe we’ve met.”
She was taken aback by his attentiveness, frustration melting into intrigue as her eyes drifted from his blue gaze to his angelic features.
His brow lifted. This was going to be easier than he'd hoped.
“Oh! No, um, no I don’t think we have.” She stuttered, straightening to smooth out her blouse. “I’m Sylvia.”
“Sylvia,” Henry repeated, thick and syrupy. “My, what a pretty name.”
“Oh, I - well thank you.”
Her cheeks flushed a delicate shade of pink as she brushed a strand of hair out of her face.
“I’m Peter.” He held out a steady hand and she took it, her own trembling in his grip. “Peter Ballard. One of the orderlies. Are you needing some help with this?”
She huffed out her nose. “Yes it - it seems I do. I think I did something wrong. It’s, well it’s sort of screaming at me.”
Henry chuckled, his white teeth flashing.
“That’s easily done. See this machine -” he leaned a fraction closer, his voice dropping. “It’s got a terrible temper I’m afraid. Fortunately for you, I'm here.”
He smiled and moved closer, deliberately winding his arm across her space as he stepped to her other side.
His ears picked up the soft way her breath caught.
“You’ve got to know how to handle it,” he said, in a tone that was far too seductive for the break room. “It’s delicate, you see.”
She watched, cheeks flushed, eyes following his long fingers as he flipped several switches and adjusted a few knobs.
“Oh, well that looks, that looks complicated -”
“Not at all my dear. You just have to be very...” he flicked one more switch loudly, “...precise.”
Her breath hitched again. He straightened up, standing awfully close, close enough to see the way her lips were trembling.
“Tell me Sylvia,” he purred, “how do you like it?”
Henry smiled the same charming, calculated smile that he could tell was reeling her in, hopeless as a fish caught on a line.
“Why your coffee, of course.” He nodded down at the mug handle clutched in her fingers, her nails tipped in gloss red.
“Oh! Well, sweet I suppose.”
“Hm, sweet,” he said softly, brushing a feather touch down her forearm. “I thought as much.”
Her breaths were shaking on the exhale, the flush of her cheeks having bloomed down her neck.
“It sounds like it might be behaving now. Shall I test it for you?” His fingers brushed down her wrist and over her hand.
She promptly dropped the mug she’d been clutching.
“Oh!” She exclaimed as it hit the floor with a loud clang, shattering between their feet. “Oh, goodness, I’m so clumsy today - sorry, I don't know what's wrong with me.”
Henry shook his head softly, the smile still playing on his face.
“Not to worry. Here, let me. I wouldn’t want you standing on any of the shards in those pretty heels.”
They bent their knees in tandem, bowing to the floor, ending up face to face above the ceramic shards.
Henry gazed into her eyes for far too long, a mask of intrigue and charm painted over his face. Sylvia stuttered at his intensity, her face flustered and flushed under her make up. He collected the shards into his hand and then lingered on her deliberately.
“I don't mean to be so forward, Sylvia,” he murmured. “But, you have beautiful eyes, if you don’t mind my saying so.”
His own voice sounded hollow in his ears.
If he hadn't been so focused on his objective he would have physically cringed into himself, so cloying and pandering.
“Th-thank you Peter, that’s, well that’s awfully kind of you.”
He leaned in a fraction. Not a lot, just enough to make the thought of kissing him flicker through her mind and unravel her further. Her eyes dropped to his pink lips.
“You’re… ever so helpful,” she mumbled, staring hopelessly.
He huffed out a coy smile before standing. “I’m afraid there’s not many friendly faces around here. Much less such pretty ones.” He said, big doe eyes fluttering.
He'd made himself feel oddly sick.
Truthfully, what sickened him the most was how easily she was falling for this. So simply, pathetically human. She was going to be swallowed whole by this place, sooner than late, and a knot of sympathy tangled in his gut at the thought.
As Sylvia leaned back against the bench, Henry's eyes flicked back to her keys sitting in a heap beside her.
He stepped into her, reaching one arm up to collect another mug from the cabinet. His other found the bench, his hand coming down silently over her keys.
“Here you are,” he smiled, handing her the mug, leaning on his arm casually. “Much better.”
She took it from him with nervous fingers, her eyes still locked to his angelic face looming above hers.
“Give it a go.” He coaxed, nodding at the coffee machine.
He slunk to the side, his pale hand still cupped over the keys, completely unnoticed by her. She tentatively made her coffee and gestured it up triumphantly.
She smiled back, gazing. “Well I should - I should go. It's my first day, and Doctor Brenner -”
“Ah, of course. He’s a very important man.” Henry said, perfectly sincerely. “You wouldn’t want to keep him waiting.”
“No, best not.” She said, her voice a tad shaky as he kept his eyes locked on her. “Lovely to meet you, Peter. Maybe I'll - hopefully I’ll see you again some time?”
“I look forward to it,” he grinned, one final nail in the coffin.
In her flustered, mesmerized haze she left the break room, coffee in hand, heels clacking over the linoleum, her keys far from her mind.
Henry’s face shed it’s pantomime immediately as she rounded the corner.
He heard the elevator doors shut down the corridor and slipped back into his usual, unreadable veneer. He bundled her keys into his pocket and strode out into the halls.
Not hurried. Not quick in the slightest.
His normal, rigid stride of obedience that no one bothered to look twice at.
Being forced to hold you down during Brenner's latest display of cruelty was a grief lodged too deep inside of Henry's mind, like a bullet that refused to let him think of anything else.
He didn't know what he wanted more. To hold you, or to be held by you.
You hadn't visited him since. You understood, how could you not? You knew where you were, who held the reins, who cracked the whip.
But still, you hadn't come.
His eyes searched every inch of the halls for your black rook, but you didn't leave it anywhere. He sat up at night, staring into the emptiness of his room as if he could manifest your presence by focusing his eyes hard enough.
You, the ghost he couldn't settle without.
He could still feel the phantom touch of you. He could still taste your mouth on his, lingering an imprint of fire on his lips. He could still feel your shape against him, your palms pressed against his chest.
His need was almost ugly. A barbed wire, twisting tighter each day of your absence, pricking him full of holes that the light refused to enter.
All he could do was silently uphold his promise, and he was nothing if not patient. He waded through the days, dutiful as ever, carrying out every single task to perfection.
He knew the moment would come.
And eventually, it did. In the form of a staff memo, plastered to the board in the break room.
**NOTICE OF MAINTENANCE**
All staff, please be advised that the surveillance system will be undergoing scheduled maintenance on Tuesday between the hours of 00:00 - 03:00.
If you are scheduled for charge over subjects, please ensure they are secured for the night between those hours.
All movements or incidents between maintenance hours must be manually recorded, monitored, and reported.
Please direct any questions or concerns to Dr. Martin Brenner.
Three hours of blank time. Three hours of blind corridors.
It was a quiet kind of torture, avoiding Henry. The kind that laced itself like thread through your ribs and pulled tighter everyday, just to remind you.
Your mind was permanently affixed with the image of his traumatized face, his grief stricken eyes.
You couldn’t eat. You couldn’t perform.
The silent hours, when the dark settled too heavy against you. When you couldn’t pretend to be doing anything other than filling every corner of your mind with his image.
The clock hands dragged and ticked pointedly, as if personally taunting you. It was just after three in the morning.
You wanted to sleep. You wanted to stop grappling with the edges of your mind and the imprint of grief that lived in your throat. You wanted nothing more than to dream, something good for once.
Something warm. Something Henry.
You found yourself in the void before you could reason with your actions. The waterlogged black ether rippled under your paces until pieces of his room materialised around you.
Henry was sprawled in his bed, long limbs everywhere, in a plain white t-shirt and boxers. The blankets were thrown off and hanging abandoned down the side of the mattress. His flushed lips were parted, tumbling out soft breaths. His hair was a mussed tangle of blonde, falling about his face in that gently divine way that made you question his humanity.
His chest rose in gentle, rhythmic waves. For once he looked something akin to peaceful.
Was he dreaming? Were they dreams of you?
You sank quietly onto the side of the bed, staring at his pale, softly curled hand that lay limply down at his side. Every knuckle looked painstakingly crafted, the silk veneer of his pale skin like some ancient artistic medium that simply didn’t exist on anyone else.
You slipped your phantom fingers into his hand, curling them into his palm. The void sapped anything close to warmth, but you could still feel the touch of him beneath you, like a soft static humming at your skin.
He whimpered here and there, tiny infantile sounds that made your heart bloom. His soft noises, the rhythmic rising of his chest, the quiet ticking of the clock…
You felt yourself drifting.
Not into sleep, somewhere else. Somewhere deeper.
The sky faded into view above you, pastel blue drifting into the honeyed gold tones of an incoming sunset. Your back was flush on the warm ground, your fingers idly brushing over lush grass beneath you. You sat up, surveying yourself, realizing you were still in your grey sweats.
Where… was this? Were you dreaming? There was a grand Victorian house standing proudly over the road, it's blue facade adorned with white trim. It wasn’t a place you’d ever seen, to your memory.
Your feet drifted you towards it, every step feeling floaty and ethereal.
A bold red, stained glass rose set in the front door drew you in like a beautiful, hypnotic image. Your fingers grazed over the glass. You tapped it with your fingernail, admiring the light clinking sound that rang out. A windchime carried gently on the breeze as the birdsong died down around you. There was a soft, warm melody spilling behind the door.
A song, one you’d heard before.
Stars shining bright above you... night breezes seem to whisper I love you... birds singing in the sycamore tree... dream a little dream of me...
It pulled through your ears like a ribbon of silk. Angelic, gentle.
Then, it stuttered, warped. Distorted and dragged through your head.
Hold me tight... Tell me… miss me…. I’m alone… as can be… dream… dream of me…
The wind picked up a sudden frigid edge and howled harsh around your ankles. The honeyed blue sky drew down into a shade, growing darker and darker until it was nothing but a pitch black oil looming ominous above you. A jagged flash of crimson struck somewhere in the distance, lighting the street in a stain of red for only a moment.
The floaty, ethereal movement you'd felt became a sick pull of dread as you turned back toward the door.
It was wide open, the entrance way dark, the distorted tunes of the song still warping out between the walls.
You stared wide eyed as you felt yourself being dragged in, as if dread itself had nested a fishhook in your gut.
Your feet crossed the threshold and hit yellowed-white linoleum, your vision suddenly blown with the cold, colorless fluorescents of the lab. The corridors stretched endlessly out in front of you, twisting and turning at odd angles.
Something moved behind you.
His voice was velvet, soft in only one direction.
“What are you doing here?”
You spun around. He was nowhere to be seen, but you could feel him, you could feel him everywhere.
“What are you doing here?” He echoed again.
Then sprinted, stumbling through the warping corridors, your head turning frantically as his voice grew louder, sharper, twisting into a demonic hiss around you.
“What are you doing here?”
“What are you doing here?”
“What are you doing here?”
You doubled over, panting, sobbing out dry cries as you called his name.
“Henry? Henry!” You screamed.
The fluorescents whirred and screeched, louder and louder until they exploded with a bang from the ceiling, cascading a rain of debris down from above, plunging the halls into darkness.
Nothing. Absolute silence. Absolute darkness.
Then, an agony ripped through your head, wrapping around every synapse, screeching into every corner of your mind.
A shadow as colossal as death itself.
You screamed soundless as a shock of pure, haunting blue pierced into your irises.
You lurched back into the ether, yanked unceremoniously to where you had been. Sitting on Henry’s bed in the blackness, your hand still curled into his, but trembling. Your breaths were ragged, catching as you scanned the dark space around you, your head pulsing with the feeling of the shadow ripping through you.
You glanced down at Henry.
He was staring at you, his eyes hazy with the wash of sleep, his eyebrows knitted down in confusion.
“What are you doing here?” He muttered sleepily, craning his head up higher to study the apparition of you.
“I, um -” You breathed, your mind still reeling from wherever you’d been. “I came to see you.”
“You’re visiting me?” He asked, his voice groggy. His eyes flicked to the clock. “Now?”
He raised his hand to rub his eyes, faltering a touch as he realized you’d been holding it.
“Oh, were you -” he stuttered as he watched you pull your own back.
You stood up, suddenly oppressed by the air settling unbearably heavy against you.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have just come, I should have asked. I thought you might be awake but you weren’t and well I just stayed and -”
“Wait,” Henry said, pushing himself up on his elbows. “You don’t have to go.”
“You should sleep. Really, I didn’t mean to wake you.”
“Please, just stay a moment.”
You sighed and sank back down on the bed. His gaze flicked to your bandaged hand, and then back up to your face, studying you closely in his sleep-dusted haze.
“Is everything alright?” He asked.
“Yes,” you said, lingering on his angelic face. “I just couldn't sleep. I - haven't been able to sleep.”
“Well, it seems we're both afflicted. I think this is the first night I've slept in a while.” He sighed.
“This is going to sound strange but I think - I think I saw what you were dreaming about.”
He stared at you blankly.
“You… went into my mind?” His expression tightened into something you couldn’t make out.
Irritated. Impressed. Somewhere in between.
“I didn’t mean to,” you said quickly. “I’m sorry, I just -”
“Just what?” His eyes narrowed.
“I only wanted to hold your hand.” It felt like such a childish confession, one that made your stomach turn with hot embarrassment.
Henry studied you in a pointed silence, his eyes trawling across your face, dipping briefly to your hand in your lap.
“Honestly I didn’t mean to,” you said again, shaking your head. “I kind of just got sucked in.”
He frowned before resting his head back against the pillow with a rough exhale.
“I wasn’t trying to pry, I swear.”
“No, it’s okay.” He said. “Sleep... makes us vulnerable. Our minds are... unguarded. They can be easily entered in such states, with powers like yours.”
“Okay, well that kind of makes it sound like I violated you.”
“No, I’m just - surprised. That's all.”
“I think you were having a nightmare.”
“What did you see?” He asked curiously, leaning up on his elbows again.
“A house. It was beautiful at first. Blue and warm and bright, and there was that song playing... That time in the rainbow room, it played over the speakers, do you remember?”
His face was suddenly caught and rigid.
“But it went dark. Everything... the sky. There was this red lightning, the house was pitch black.”
“You went inside the house?” His voice was odd, the tone flat.
“No, not really. I sort of got dragged in... but hen I was here, in the lab. I was running through the corridors, they were endless. And I was looking for -”
“You,” you admitted softly. “I could hear you, but then something ripped through my head. It hurt, I can still feel it.” You said, rubbing at your temple.
“I see. That sounds... unpleasant.” He huffed.
Your eyes fell to his perfect, flushed lips.
You brushed a finger up his wrist, and he flinched softly before tracking your hand with his gaze curiously.
“I can’t sleep,” you said quietly as your fingers moved up his forearm in a ghosted line. “Every time I close my eyes I see such horrible things. I feel them. It’s cold. You're -”
Your eyes swam against his. “You're the only thing that feels real to me, Henry.”
“Yet you are staying away from me.”
He tried to raise his hand up to your elbow, but it pulled through nothing, just drifted through the air sadly.
“I didn’t want to be a reminder. Of what happened. Of what Papa made you do.”
“I remember regardless.” Henry said, his eyes sad as he continued to watch the trail of your fingers move up his arm.
His elbow jerked when you danced over the crease of his bicep. He was tense, guarded, as if he was still trying to decide whether he was allowed to feel it.
You caught a glimpse of his wary eyes.
“No, don’t.” He pleaded, his voice tight with the kind of need that made your stomach burn. “Stay. Please. Keep… keep doing that.” His eyes flicked down to your fingers, hovering an inch above his skin.
His face flushed a shade deeper in the dim light.
You brought your fingers back to his skin and ran them up and down his bicep. He relaxed back against the pillow after a moment, his eyes fluttering closed. His breath pulled in as you whispered your touch over his shoulder, brushing up his neck and under his sculpted jaw.
“Can you feel me?” You asked, pressing your fingertips to his kicking pulse point.
“Not as much as I’d like to.”
You trailed down his neck, dipping into the hollow space above his collarbone before settling your palm down against his chest, the lean plains clothed by his t-shirt.
“And if you could really feel me?” You murmured, pressing your palm down over his heart, collecting every faint thump as if it eased the agony of your own.
Your mind reeled back to the utility closet, to his body pressed against you, his mouth hot and wet on your neck.
“Dangerous thought,” he breathed, his eyes shut, head laid against the pillow.
His brows knitted together as you dragged your palm down across his chest, drawing it up so that your fingertips could whisper figure eights over the fabric covering his torso. He was tense, the lean muscles rigid.
“Relax.” You said softly.
He huffed a short breath out of his nose, his brow furrowing a fraction more. After several breaths, his torso relaxed down, the rigid muscles becoming pliant under your fingers.
“See,” you said gently. “It feels nice, doesn’t it?”
“Not as nice as it could.” He murmured.
Your stomach flipped a hammering up into your heart at the thought. Your eyes fell down his body before you could stop them, landing on the soft mound beneath his boxers. You slid a single finger past the dip of his belly button and dragged it down the skin of his navel that was peeking out from beneath his t-shirt.
“You’re cold.” He protested.
You trailed your finger over the band of his boxers, watching his face intently as his eyebrows pulled together, as the crook of his lip twitched upward.
His breath drew in, soft and sharp as your finger wandered over his hip, followed the hard muscle of his pelvis inward.
His face contorted into a sort of softly pained grimace.
“Do you want me to stop?” You asked, halting.
“No.” He said abruptly. “Don’t... don’t stop.”
“You look like you’re in pain.”
“The only thing that is paining me is that I can’t touch you in return.” He said with a breath of frustration. “I wish I could feel you properly. All of you.”
You settled your hand on his upper thigh, pressing your fingertips in, and drew the pad of your thumb up over the tightening mound in his boxers. He gasped softly as you dragged over his length, back and forth, feeling him swell beneath your touch.
His face contorted softly, his lips parting as he grew harder beneath your thumb.
You moved your hand over the strained fabric, pressing your palm over his length. You kneaded him, palming and squeezing his cock gently. You watched intensely as his breaths began to quicken, a hot pull of desire snaking through you.
“Is it frustrating?” You purred as you tightened your grip, your fingers lashing around his clothed hardness.
“Yes,” he breathed, his eyes open now, watching your hand tightly as it stroked over him.
Something inside you twisted with the thrill of having this control over him, denying him the full friction of your touch, making him ache for you.
“I suppose this is good enough revenge, then.” You mused as your hand pressed and drew harder over him.
“Revenge?” He murmured, his hips trying to push against your hand as he sought the kind of friction he’d never get through the void.
“You left me such a mess in that utility room, Henry. Do you know how badly I needed you? And you denied me, didn’t you?”
“You can’t get revenge for repentance.” He said, his voice an oddly strained groan as you pressed harder against him.
You tightened your grip, drawing a whine from his mouth as you pulled roughly over the shape of his tip, your palm tight over his hidden shaft, so swollen and rigid in your hand.
He groaned softly, trying to buck up into you. The thrill shot through you once again, electric and alive.
“Please…” he breathed. “This is maddening.”
“You don’t get to ask for more, Henry.” You smirked. “Not when you left me aching like that.”
You worked him harder, faster, knowing he couldn’t feel it fully, knowing it was as much of a punishment as it was a blessing.
“I’m sorry,” he whined. “I’m sorry - I shouldn’t have - I should have -”
“You should have what?” You demanded.
“Should have given you what you wanted… what I wanted.” He mumbled.
“What did you want Henry?” You asked. “Look at me.”
He opened his eyes, the deep blue swimming against your intense gaze as you watched every frown of frustration, every flicker of ache, every twitch of delicate pleasure play across his angelic features.
“I wanted you. All of you.” He breathed.
You felt your cunt surge with wetness as you watched him writhe helplessly under your grip, watched him desperately chase the pleasure that was barely there.
“But you wanted to play games with me more, didn’t you?”
You pulled your hand away and he groaned in frustration, rutting his hips up into nothing.
“Okay, fine, yes, I did.” He said, his voice cracking and flustered.
“That’s better.” You purred. “But I’m afraid touching you like this just isn’t revenge enough.”
“What?” He frowned, pushing himself up on his elbows.
“You need to ache for it as badly as I did.”
His face was caught in confusion. You smirked, and then moved, standing up and dragging your leg over his hips to straddle him.
“Oh -” he gasped as you lowered yourself onto him, pressing the phantom of your core over his hidden, swollen cock.
It was more pressure than your hand could give him, but still not nearly enough, and you could see it driving him mad behind his eyes. His head fell back as you rolled your hips, your hands digging down into his to anchor yourself.
“Much better,” you purred as you writhed over him, firmer and faster with every movement.
Dreamy, breathy sounds were tumbling from his open mouth, his brow set in a permanent crease. His hands came up uselessly at your sides, grabbing nothing but the air around him.
“Are you aching for me yet Henry? To touch me, to hold me here? To feel yourself inside me?”
“Yes…” he whined as his hands stayed helplessly lifted at his sides.
“It’s just not enough, is it?” You smirked, jerking your hips faster, feeling your own desire twisting and hot within you.
Your gaze fell to his swollen peak beneath you, to the dampness that was soaking through his boxers.
“Oh,” you mused. “Or is it? Is it just enough?”
“I want -” he whined, his hips bucking up helplessly into every one of your movements, chasing every atom of feeling that he could, seeking the friction that wouldn't come.
“You want to what?” You asked on a breath, digging your fingers harder into his hips as you moved. “You want to cum, Henry?”
He nodded frantically, tufts of his messy hair moving over his forehead. You hummed and let all of your weight press into him, ground your hips furiously as he moaned, his face contorted with frustration.
“You can't, can you? It’s just not enough, is it?” You breathed as you writhed down onto him.
“No, but - please, please I need to -” he whimpered helplessly.
“Then do it. Show me. Make yourself cum for me, Henry.”
You scooted back over his thighs and his hand flew desperately into his boxers. He gripped his cock and whined, pulling only three tight strokes over himself before he came with a broken grunt, spilling a thick milky pool over his stomach and hand.
He breathed raggedly against the bed, his other hand brushing up through his messy hair, palm resting against his forehead. You watched him throb and continue to leak slow drops into his hand, your stomach curling with a dark satisfaction.
“That didn’t look like it was very satisfying,” you smirked as you left his thighs and sank back down onto the edge of the bed.
“No,” he groaned flatly. “It wasn’t.”
He looked at you, all tired eyes and frustration. A quiet longing sat deep under his features, as if it was terrified to be acknowledged.
“Well, then you’ll remember this the next time you want to play games with me, won’t you?” You asked.
He huffed and thumped his head back against the pillow, studying your face like you were brought here to personally drive him into corners of madness.
“Next time,” he said, “I won’t be playing games with you.”
“Neither will I,” you said, voice dripping with promise. “Now I’m really going to leave, before I give myself a brain hemorrhage, or you.”
“Fair.” He chuckled, shaking his head.
You gazed into the haunting depths of his eyes for a moment, wanting nothing more than to stay in the cold, black void with him.
“Goodnight.” He offered softly.
“Goodnight, Henry.” You sighed.
It was another quiet torture pulling yourself back into your body, leaving him there.
Leaving yourself with nothing but the emptiness of your dark room, the endless questions you'd forced down underneath your desire, and the bitter taste of your own blood seeping through your lips.
Tuesday night arrived rough and dragging.
He move purposefully. Dutifully. Pacing the corridors as he always did, like he belonged to them.
It was almost silent at this time of night. His favorite kind, just the whirr of the fluorescents as a backdrop to his paces.
His eyes dragged into the open door of the surveillance room as he passed. He didn’t linger, just looked long enough to take note of the multitude of black screens, the huddle of maintenance workers casually conversing over exposed wiring.
He took the stairs instead of the elevator. He knew they were mostly avoided, staff usually preferring to take the elevators after long shifts of traversing the ever-expanding halls. His steps echoed metallic, each one making his breaths tighten a fraction as he rose higher into the serpent's nest.
Finally he arrived outside the door in the dark, empty hallway, the window shaded with a small blind, the plaque gloss black and foreboding.
He drew the keys from his pocket, trying a few before finally driving in the right one. It gave way obediently with a soft click.
Brenner’s office was exactly what you’d expect from such a man.
Meticulously, impeccably organized, every inch of flat surface dusted and pristine. The high backed desk chair was spun forward, the back ramrod straight, everything arranged on the desk in straight lines and coordinated groupings of colour.
The filing cabinet stood like a silent metal turret in the corner.
Henry rounded the desk and sank into the chair, swiveling around as he tried the smallest key on the ring. The drawer gave way obediently.
His fingers rifled through it hurriedly until he found what he was looking for.
How long had it been since you arrived? He tried counting back the months, but he couldn’t pinpoint it exactly, and he didn’t have the time to rifle through weeks and weeks of single-day schedules. He’d have to go by name.
His fingers flicked through tabs until he found the nurses section.
He slid the file out. Weeks after weeks of her monotonous, routine schedule. He trawled back through the papers detailing her rosters and rounds. Morning shifts, afternoon shifts, night shifts. All seemingly on a loop.
About three weeks before he’d seen you for the first time, looking utterly lost in the rainbow room.
There was only a small, typed title in the square.
Henry’s chest tightened in that odd, familiar way that always preempted the arrival of dread.
His mind reeled over the code. It sank inside him like an anchor, pulling down.
He slipped the schedule back and found another. Then another. The doctors, the orderlies, even the janitors. One by one, until he discovered saw the pattern.
Doctor Wilson, Robert: NGHTGL - AM
Doctor Jennings, William: NGHTGL - AM
Nurse Anderson, Susan: NGHTGL - AM
Nurse Salter, Brenda: NGHTGL - AM
The anchor sank further into his depths with each name he found bearing the code. What kind of programme would require such a small, specific team? A surgical one?
He clicked his tongue. None of the children had required any type of special medical intervention for years.
He slid the files meticulously back into their places. He tapped his fingers against his thigh as he opened the other drawers, eyes scanning every inch, every file name, every label. There was nothing else out of place. He sighed, swiveling around in the chair.
He was contemplating leaving when his gaze drew down to the desk drawer. He yanked at the handle.
None of the keys he tried breached it.
He scanned the room, teeth softly imprinting into his bottom lip, until he spotted Brenner’s briefcase. Polished leather, perched up against the side of the desk between it and the wall.
He unbuckled it and slid his pale fingers through each fold.
Then stopped. His fingers had grazed over a small metal clasp inside one of the dividers.
A tiny pocket, so small he could barely fit two fingertips inside it.
At the bottom, a silver key.
He eyed the odd shape of it for a moment before sinking it into the keyhole. It breached like a knife through butter, the drawer opening with a click and a smooth glide.
More files. Arranged of course by colour, date, subject. He flipped them all up, until one caught his eye. At the very bottom.
Ominously red, thick with papers. He peeled open the cover.
Nausea crept up through his chest, hot and threatening.
----Hawkins National Laboratory----
OPERATION NIGHTINGALE - Beta Stage 1 - May 1979
Head: Dr. Martin Brenner
Clearance Level: TOP SECRET / SPECIAL ACCESS REQUIRED
ID Code: NGHTGL‑79
Beta Study for the Induction of Adult Psychokinesis via Hematologic Transfusion
Objective: To determine whether telekinetic and psychokinetic abilities can be manufactured in adult subjects through hematologic transfusion.
Recipients:
10 - 15 adult subjects
Ages 18 to 55
Acquisition:
Entice participation for generic Drug Study from low socio-economic status individuals via monetary compensation. Use of scientific jargon encouraged. Use of subterfuge not disallowed.
Thaw 40-60mL of donor blood per recipient
Sedate recipient, monitor vitals
Monitor neurological, physiological, behavioral response
If recipient normalized, commence psychokinetic testing
Donor Information:
Primary Donor: HCr-001
Henry's stomach lurched violently into his throat. It burned with the taste of bile as he stared at the words, the typeface warping beneath his vision as his head began to spin.
He should’ve known that Brenner wouldn't be content forever with creating his perfect army of weapons in utero, molding the minds of the resulting children. He wanted to go further. Always further. He wanted to know if a fully-developed brain could be reset, rewired, remade into something remarkable with his hands.
The hands of a perverted, narcissistic devil who fancied himself a god.
Recipient 1 - Male, 46
Outcome: Acute negative response. Subject incompatible.
Status: DECEASED
Observations:
- Acute anaphylaxis
Henry's heart hammered against his ribs as his fingers flipped through the pages of subjects, each concluded with a grim status.
Recipient 2 - Male, 37
Outcome: Acute negative response. Subject incompatible.
Status: DECEASED
Observations:
- Acute hemolytic transfusion reaction
Recipient 3 - Female, 28
Outcome: Acute negative response. Subject incompatible.
Status: DECEASED
Observations:
- Acute hemolytic transfusion reaction
Recipient 4 - Male, 22
Outcome: Acute negative response. Subject incompatible.
Status: DECEASED
Observations:
- Transfusion-associated circulatory overload
Recipient 5 - Male, 39
Outcome: Acute negative response. Subject incompatible.
Status: DECEASED
Observations:
- Acute anaphylaxis
Recipient 6 - Female, 52
Outcome: Acute negative response. Subject incompatible.
Status: DECEASED
Observations:
- Transfusion-associated circulatory overload
His fingers were numb, bloodless as he studied each page. There were four more, all with the same outcome.
He almost didn't bother turning the page. What good would it do to see another lifeless, nameless number, another fatal consequence of Brenner's sick game?
Recipient 11 - Female, 19
Outcome: Positive response. Subject compatible.
Status: LIVING - INDUCTED.
Observations:
- Acute tachycardia
- Respiratory distress
- Brief seizure activity
- Eventual stabilization into comatose state.
Henry felt as if his lungs had solidified.
His finger ran across the page, his fingerprint tracing the typeface of each letter.
His eyes fell to the bottom of the page.
Belongings:
- Blue jeans
- Grey sweater
- Brown hunting jacket, men’s size L
- Pair Converse, black
His gaze sharpened over the words.
There it was, plain as day in front of him, and he still didn't believe it. It couldn't be possible.
You weren't just made. You were lured with honeyed promises. Led like a lamb to the slaughter. Snatched and held and pumped full of the blood of Brenner’s prized darling. The first, the cornerstone, the anomaly. The one Brenner failed to control and thus strived to replicate.
You were a weapon. He'd been sure of that much from the moment he'd seen what you could do.
You were manufactured, engineered. A bespoke beast, a sick imitation Brenner hoped to get right this time.
Manufactured to unhinge him? To break him? To lure him somehow, to destroy him entirely?
Henry slammed the file closed, his mind reeling painfully, convinced for a moment that he might vomit right through the pages. He took a deep, steadying breath and tilted his watch face.
He re-locked the desk, replaced the key, settled the briefcase exactly where it had been, and swiveled the chair to its original, impeccably straight position behind the desk. He stuffed the file under his arm and craned his head out the door, making sure the dark halls were clear.
His head spun as he descended the stairs, lower and lower into the bowels of hell itself it felt, until he ended up at the very bottom. A service door, set in the dark and dank.
He needed something more. Something tangible.
The laundry room always made him somewhat thankful for the white-walled maze he inhabited.
It was dim, thick with a feeling of musky condensation that held in the air like an invisible fog. It smelled of damp and the faint, antiseptic detergent that lived permanently on every single one of his shirts.
The machines were groaning and thumping in the low light, spinning loads of laundry.
He didn't know what he was looking for, exactly.
He was only certain of the water-tight facade that Brenner would have manufactured for every one of the subjects he'd lured to their deaths.
That many missing would have turned too many heads. He'd have had their bodies returned to town, propped up in alleys, needles jammed into their veins. Floating face down in the river. Set up in crashed vehicles. Behind a dumpster with empty bottles clutched within their rigored fingers.
Staged, accidental. Scenes that brought no questions, and better yet the ones that brought no sympathy.
He couldn't have sold the lies without their belongings. If that was you in that file, and every synapse in his brain was screaming that it was, then your things had to be here somewhere.
Nothing stood out. It was all white and grey, bags of linens, cupboards full of cleaning supplies, sinks of dripping taps.
Then, his gaze drew toward the darkened corner at the end of the room. The basement door.
The real pits of the lab, where no one ever ventured unless absolutely necessary.
He had to shove a shoulder against the warped, ancient metal door to get it to open all the way. It scraped across the rough concrete flooring. The darkness stretched down a flight of stairs, the tight confines of the walls foreboding as he paced down them.
The only light was the deep glow of the furnaces, until his fingers fondled a loose chain against the brick and pulled.
Dim yellow light flooded the space, dark and dank. Cobwebs adorned the corners, while the floor was covered in an inexplicable layer of dusty silt, as if the room was slowly giving up on itself.
He paced it slowly, scanning every inch, stopping every few minutes to warm his frigid hands in front of the furnaces.
A row of metal lockers adorned the back wall. Half open, with rusted latches and warped doors that wouldn't properly shut. His hands pulled open the dusty metal.
Discarded equipment stared back at him. A random assortment of old broken machinery parts, outdated uniforms, spare hazmat suits.
Until one of the doors shifted back, bumped by his elbow.
The light filtered into the locker. It illuminated a large, brown hunting jacket, hanging on a hook.
He scanned it for a moment, fingers grazing over the fabric, rough and worn through too many years.
The light fell over an old, weathered pair of shoes.
Converse. Scuffed, torn, the soles peeling at the sides. The black canvas faded. Then, he saw them.
The rigid line of mismatched thread sewn into them.
The cold thrum of dread made a forceful return, vibrating against the back of his neck as he stared at them. He reached down and ran a shaky finger across the jagged lines of fraying thread.
You’d tried to mend them.
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