it was too late for azarath

Independent selective RP blog for Arella from the animated Teen Titans series

[beyondthetemples]

“This isn’t your home…”

She’d called it home again.

Truthfully, Dove had never gotten out of the habit of thinking about Azarath as her home, even when she was so utterly convinced every bit of it was lain to rest in the past. Even when she’d found her life on Earth. Even when she’d adopted just enough of that life to defend the planet like it was her own. Her heart was still with her childhood home, and her spirit longed to be there so achingly, so insistently, that she couldn’t resist visiting this reflection, this parallel world that so closely resembled the world she was raised in.

But Arella was right. This wasn’t her home. This wasn’t her Azarath.

“Sorry,” she admitted, her brow furrowing over eyes downcast with the weight of these thoughts that she didn’t know how to voice. “It just... slipped out.”

[bxrdmom]

You poor child. It wasn’t pity that she felt, just... sadness. Whoever this girl was, Arella got the feeling her version of Azarath had suffered - but unlike her own, that one most likely hadn’t recovered.  There was a power she could sense as well, a familiar one. “It’s alright.” Arella’s smile was soft. Kindness felt like something this girl needed. “Would you mind telling me your name?”

[bxrdmom]

y’all still alive

[bxrdmom]

me: finally starts working on the multimuse blog tumblr: collectively sets itself on fire

[bxrdmom]

h

holy hell it’s been a while.

hi

it’s been [checks watch] literal months since i’ve been on here and i am really sorry for that. school has kicked my ass and i just haven’t felt like being on here. add that to the fact i got absorbed into a new fandom entirely and well. yea. i’ve also started rping on discord and that’s been fun as hell.

i’ve gotten myself into a dilemma bc i dont want this blog or arella to die, but at the same time i just have. so many blogs and even more muses that i wanna rp. so i’ve decided the best course of action is to combine all my muses into a multimuse blog

this is probably gonna turn a lot of ya’ll away already and i completely understand, but personally i think this is the best thing to do rn. everything’s getting a lil crowded and chaotic so with this it’ll be easier to track everything. i’ll start archiving all my current blogs in the coming days and moving necessary information for each muse over to the multimuse blog. once that’s mostly done i’ll post the blog here and on all my other blogs.

bad news is i won’t be importing every post i’ve ever made. this means as of now all threads on all my blogs are currently dropped. BUT if you wish to continue them please let me know because there are some threads i’d hate to let go. if you do i’ll make my next reply to said thread on the new blog. if you don’t i will assume our thread is dropped until otherwise stated.

any posts imported/copied/linked to the blog will be strictly informational (for example, on this blog that includes the post concerning arella’s scars that’s mandatory to read when following)

with that in mind, i really do want to get back to rping on here! i love birbmom too much to let her go. and i love all my muses. imo it’s just best if i smack em all together. 

with that being said, have a good day ya’ll, and i’ll see u again once the blog is ready

[bxrdmom]

k i know i said i wouldn’t be posting again aside from reblogging the Thing but the dumbass that made arella‘s last name in titans fucking azarath is catching some fuckin hands

[bxrdmom]

h

holy hell it’s been a while.

hi

it’s been [checks watch] literal months since i’ve been on here and i am really sorry for that. school has kicked my ass and i just haven’t felt like being on here. add that to the fact i got absorbed into a new fandom entirely and well. yea. i’ve also started rping on discord and that’s been fun as hell.

i’ve gotten myself into a dilemma bc i dont want this blog or arella to die, but at the same time i just have. so many blogs and even more muses that i wanna rp. so i’ve decided the best course of action is to combine all my muses into a multimuse blog

this is probably gonna turn a lot of ya’ll away already and i completely understand, but personally i think this is the best thing to do rn. everything’s getting a lil crowded and chaotic so with this it’ll be easier to track everything. i’ll start archiving all my current blogs in the coming days and moving necessary information for each muse over to the multimuse blog. once that’s mostly done i’ll post the blog here and on all my other blogs.

bad news is i won’t be importing every post i’ve ever made. this means as of now all threads on all my blogs are currently dropped. BUT if you wish to continue them please let me know because there are some threads i’d hate to let go. if you do i’ll make my next reply to said thread on the new blog. if you don’t i will assume our thread is dropped until otherwise stated.

any posts imported/copied/linked to the blog will be strictly informational (for example, on this blog that includes the post concerning arella’s scars that’s mandatory to read when following)

with that in mind, i really do want to get back to rping on here! i love birbmom too much to let her go. and i love all my muses. imo it’s just best if i smack em all together. 

with that being said, have a good day ya’ll, and i’ll see u again once the blog is ready

[bxrdmom]

h

holy hell it’s been a while.

hi

it’s been [checks watch] literal months since i’ve been on here and i am really sorry for that. school has kicked my ass and i just haven’t felt like being on here. add that to the fact i got absorbed into a new fandom entirely and well. yea. i’ve also started rping on discord and that’s been fun as hell.

i’ve gotten myself into a dilemma bc i dont want this blog or arella to die, but at the same time i just have. so many blogs and even more muses that i wanna rp. so i’ve decided the best course of action is to combine all my muses into a multimuse blog

this is probably gonna turn a lot of ya’ll away already and i completely understand, but personally i think this is the best thing to do rn. everything’s getting a lil crowded and chaotic so with this it’ll be easier to track everything. i’ll start archiving all my current blogs in the coming days and moving necessary information for each muse over to the multimuse blog. once that’s mostly done i’ll post the blog here and on all my other blogs.

bad news is i won’t be importing every post i’ve ever made. this means as of now all threads on all my blogs are currently dropped. BUT if you wish to continue them please let me know because there are some threads i’d hate to let go. if you do i’ll make my next reply to said thread on the new blog. if you don’t i will assume our thread is dropped until otherwise stated.

any posts imported/copied/linked to the blog will be strictly informational (for example, on this blog that includes the post concerning arella’s scars that’s mandatory to read when following)

with that in mind, i really do want to get back to rping on here! i love birbmom too much to let her go. and i love all my muses. imo it’s just best if i smack em all together. 

with that being said, have a good day ya’ll, and i’ll see u again once the blog is ready

[bxrdmom]

h

holy hell it’s been a while.

hi

it’s been [checks watch] literal months since i’ve been on here and i am really sorry for that. school has kicked my ass and i just haven’t felt like being on here. add that to the fact i got absorbed into a new fandom entirely and well. yea. i’ve also started rping on discord and that’s been fun as hell.

i’ve gotten myself into a dilemma bc i dont want this blog or arella to die, but at the same time i just have. so many blogs and even more muses that i wanna rp. so i’ve decided the best course of action is to combine all my muses into a multimuse blog

this is probably gonna turn a lot of ya’ll away already and i completely understand, but personally i think this is the best thing to do rn. everything’s getting a lil crowded and chaotic so with this it’ll be easier to track everything. i’ll start archiving all my current blogs in the coming days and moving necessary information for each muse over to the multimuse blog. once that’s mostly done i’ll post the blog here and on all my other blogs.

bad news is i won’t be importing every post i’ve ever made. this means as of now all threads on all my blogs are currently dropped. BUT if you wish to continue them please let me know because there are some threads i’d hate to let go. if you do i’ll make my next reply to said thread on the new blog. if you don’t i will assume our thread is dropped until otherwise stated.

any posts imported/copied/linked to the blog will be strictly informational (for example, on this blog that includes the post concerning arella’s scars that’s mandatory to read when following)

with that in mind, i really do want to get back to rping on here! i love birbmom too much to let her go. and i love all my muses. imo it’s just best if i smack em all together. 

with that being said, have a good day ya’ll, and i’ll see u again once the blog is ready

[bxrdmom]

crownerofkings‌:

@bxrdmom

“I trust my help will be richly bought. While we share an enemy in the cult of blood, I have no real interest in helping anyone for free.” 

     Gotham always brought back bad memories. It was worse when, once again, she’d somehow managed to land in it. Standing at the entrance of an alleyway, the steeple of an old church loomed over the dimly lit streets. When she’d arrived and realized just how close to it she was, her heart nearly stopped. But Arella was braver than she was back then, choosing instead to glare hotly at the place that ruined her life.

     She jumped and wheeled around at the sudden voice behind her, mentally chiding herself for not being more careful. If there was anything she’d learned from living in Gotham’s streets, it was to never be caught off-guard. Just the sight of this man intimidated her, but she hid it with irritation, her glare still present. And yet, his implication that the cult was indeed alive and well made her blood boil further.

     “I’m shocked they’re still around.” Arella shook her head, staring at the ground. “As much as I... appreciate your offer, I don’t exactly have any money on me. Even if I did, I’m certain I would get myself killed going anywhere near that old thing.” Crossing her arms, she leaned against the wall, facing the strange man.

[bxrdmom]

Are poros! Poros have missed! Want snuggles. And love! Have missed greatly.

snuggle all the poros

[bxrdmom]

royalcaretaker‌:

[[ @bxrdmom liked my starter call!]]

“Ah. It is good to see a familiar -” Galfore had approached the other because of recognizing the style of a long cloak with a hood, but when he talked to her and now saw more than the hood, it was quickly obvious that it wasn’t Starfire’s friend that he had spoken here too. For maybe a second he just stared, confused how similar she seemed to Raven and yet not the same person - cloaks like that didn’t seem too common on earth, but seems like there were others with such cloaks as well -  but then he quickly took a step back in order to not… scare, or perhaps surprise, the other more than he might already have. “I apologize. I mistook you for a friend of the girl I am here to visit.”

He wasn’t quite sure if it was more proper to leave her be again now or to keep up a talk after already having approached her, but for the sake of the similarities to Raven he could see in the woman, he decided to not abort the talk. “You are knowing of Raven, perhaps? Of the Teen Titans? Your clothing much resembles what she is wearing often. I am Galfore of Tamaran, and I want to visit Koriand’r, or Starfire.”

     Arella nearly shot up into the air at the sudden loud voice behind her, and turning around made her heart race even more. This was a... very tall man, who could probably easily snap her in half if he wanted to. And yet, something about his disposition put her at ease. As intimidating as he looked, it was almost like he was trying to be exactly the opposite, and hearing that he knew Raven of all people was enough to dissipate the rest of her fear. Slipping off her hood, Arella looked up at him, head tilting curiously.

     “It’s alright. That’s been happening a lot recently.” A quiet laugh left her as she clasped her hands together. “I do know her, yes. My name is Arella. It seems we have the same goal in mind.”

[ahlaway]

Man I really hate doing this.

Anyone who’s talked to me over the last…two years since I graduated(?) knows that I’ve had to take time off of going to grad school, or getting a job, or really doing anything because I’ve been living as my mother’s full time care giver. 

Long story short, the front third of her foot had to get an emergency amputation because of a diabetic wound, and for nearly a year after it wouldn’t heal fully, because we were going to a super corrupt wound clinic that just wanted to get money from us by doing weekly ‘cleanings’ where they were supposed to be scraping out dead skin, but were in fact just scraping out enough to keep the wound from ever closing. 

Anyways, we’ve come to find out that she’s got both heart and kidney failure from (a history of medical problems that were aggravated by) complications during her amputation surgery. She’s currently weak, confused, and on oxygen constantly. Needless to say, she still desperately needs me here to tend to her, clean the house, tend to her pets, and cook, which puts me in a not so great place because roughly four months ago I got a fever and stomach pain that just wouldn’t go away. 

I had the fever for two months, with the stomach pain getting worse and worse, before I finally broke down and went to the doctor. Once there I got antibiotics and told that I had every sign of gallbladder failure. However, the way my insurance works is that it won’t pay for anything that it doesn’t have proof I need, so I’ve gone to three tests that it’s only partially paid for because they haven’t shown what’s wrong. 

I’ll be going to a specialist soon, which will hopefully figure out the pain thing, but this throwing darts at the wall approach has left me nearly $500 dollars in debt at a point where I just don’t have the ability to go out and get the money. 

I have a diploma in English, so I can do editing work if you need it. I also make icons over at @limicons. 

Otherwise, if you have a few dollars you could throw my way, I would appreciate it beyond words. My paypal email is [email protected] .

[hacker-boi-blog]

     hello my fellow rpers! sorry this promo isn’t too pretty ^^; my dumb ass doesn’t know how to edit pics n stuff aesthetically enough. but! my name is owl, and there’s a new 9S on the block

     ya like Good Bois who are also terrifyingly clever? lit. ya like androids? lit. ya like a guy that would literally murder an entire race of machines for ya? lit.

     owl’s got u covered. the hacker boi is here.

[bxrdmom]

i picked these entirely based on looks bc i don’t know jack shit about pokemon. but ye as u can see there are Many Birbs.

ofc i put a pigeon pokemon in there

tagged by: @raveniings (thanks! uwu)

tagging: idk. u c:

[bxrdmom]

— basics .

▸ is your muse tall/short/average? fucking tall as hell. at most she’s 5′10″ bc i haven’t settled on a height yet hahahhhaahha

▸ are they okay with their height? birbmom could not give two flying fucks

▸ what’s their hair like?   purple. it actually isn’t that long tho. just a lil past her shoulders. it smooth and soft af tho

▸ do they spend a lot of time on their hair/with their grooming?

yes surprisingly. she’s not overly meticulous but she cares about what she looks like/how she presents herself

▸ does your muse care about their appearance? 

again. surprisingly yes. she has a surprising amount of cosmetics. arella doesn’t like how her body looks. at all. so if her face at least looks nice it takes some of the sting away.

▸ does your muse care about what others think about them? depends. if she doesn’t like/know them, she’ll probably be super confused unless they hit a sore spot. if it is someone she knows, she’ll do whatever she can to correct whatever she thinks she did wrong. even if birbmom didn’t do anything wrong

— preferences

▸ indoors or outdoors? ||>> outdoors ▸ rain or sunshine?  ||>> sun ▸ forest or beach? ||>> she would like a beach more but swimsuits are a no no so. forest ▸ precious metals or gems?  ||>> gems. they shiny ▸ flowers or perfumes?  ||>> flowers. she hates perfume ▸ personality or appearance?  ||>> personality ▸ being alone or being in a crowd?  ||>> alone. fuck crowds ▸ order or anarchy? ||>> order but not like. super controlling ▸ painful truths or white lies?  ||>> painful truths ;w ; ▸ science or magic? ||>> both ▸ peace or conflict?  ||>> peace ▸ night or day?  ||>> day ▸ dusk or dawn? ||>> dawn ▸ warmth or cold? ||>> warmth ▸ many acquaintances or a few close friends?  ||>> few close friends ▸ reading or playing a game? ||>> readin

— questionnaire

▸ what are some of your muse’s bad habits? 

from least to most serious: not being able to sit in a chair correctly at all, fidgeting (which isn’t a bad habit fight me but ig other ppl could see it as annoying depending on what she’s doing), not fantastic cleaning habits (her room is organized but only to her. good luck finding anything), procrastinating, mistrusting p much anyone new, bottling everything up, not reaching out to ppl

▸ has your muse lost anyone close to them? how has it affected them?

azar’s death hit her hard. she never forgave her for taking raven away even if she did come to understand why. but she was still the first real mother figure arella really had. and then she was shouldered with her responsibilities. and while raven hasn’t died she’s still lost her in a way bc they’re so distant. and she hasn’t made much of an effort to contact raven. :(

▸ what are some fond memories your muse has? her first few nights on azarath. the feeling of being free nearly overwhelmed her. holding smol raven for the first time. and holding her again when she finally got to watch over her again. every single time she’s been with her birbs

▸ is it easy for your muse to kill? hell no. she’s literally a pacifist lol. she has the capacity for it (juris) but she hasn’t and would never want to. the knowledge that she could kill for raven and not feel regret for it scares her to no end

▸ what’s it like when your muse breaks down? depends. if she’s super angery? rest in fucking pieces. there’s only been one time where arella was enraged and she nearly killed someone. case in point don’t hurt the ppl she loves. birbmom will kick ur ass. if she’s just angry? she’ll isolate herself so she doesn’t yell at anyone on accident. pray she has birbs or she’ll probably break down. speaking of breaking down. it tires her tf out. chances are she won’t be able to talk but she’ll also want to be alone. preferably with birbs. arella will be crying her heart out, hiding herself from everyone. she doesn’t know that kinda makes it worse.

▸ is your muse capable of trusting someone with their life? ye c: good luck getting that to happen if she doesn’t know you, but she’s still capable of trusting someone. just. might take a while

▸ what’s your muse like when they’re in love? a fucking dork. she has no idea what she’s doing bc she doesn’t really. know what being in love is. what do you do? do you treat them differently? idk!!!!!!! so inwardly she’s freaking the fuck out bc yea she likes it but that’s what scares her. arella doesn’t wanna think she’s tricking herself into it. so. she’ll never be the first to confess. but she will be more thoughtful. doing things like taking them to places they’ll like and getting them stuff. she might even be more touchy. and by touchy she might consider holding hands in public.

Tagged by: @smolgreenboi (thanks c:)

Tagging: whoever wants this lol

[lukas-musings]

     Eᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ I’ve done                    for the past 5 or so years 

             Has been out of sᴘɪᴛᴇ

[circuitbroken-blog1]

“It’s not in the circuitry, is it? It’s not the machine that resists you; it’s me, my spirit! That’s the part you can’t break! I don’t need you to make me a man! I already am one!”     ©