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[byeeve]

           this is a private writing blog for the 𝐉𝐑. 𝐃𝐄𝐏𝐔𝐓𝐘 of 𝐔𝐁𝐈𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓’𝐒 𝐅𝐀𝐑 𝐂𝐑𝐘 𝟓.   any and all writing draws inspiration from the game elements / storytelling, as well as inspiration from real examples of doomsday cults throughout history.  low activity, plot oriented, 𝐔𝐍𝐀𝐏𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 𝐅𝐄𝐌𝐀𝐋𝐄.  all content available on this blog runs the chance of containing adult content, therefore: 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗳𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄 𝗼𝗿 𝗲𝗻𝗴𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗲𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗻.

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[byeeve]

for the time being, i am retiring eve to become a fandomless oc. i think ive told her story enough here that it seems repetitive to touch base on it again. that being said, i am shifting my deputy focus to @corderas .

[boykeats]

“Eve whispers, I just wanted to be more than someone else’s bones, & God weeps for all that he did not do.”

— Exile by Keaton St. James

[byeeve]

just adding this to the list of shitty people defending lani. imagine replying like that and blocking me after. stay off my blog if you’re going to be a coward ✌️

[byeeve]

but since we are going to talk shit and double down and excuse incest. lani’s friends are @/mtnsedge / @/hellweep & @/sunbentsky / @/sherez & @/rotmother ✨

[byeeve]

i love the response to someone getting called out for incest being: hey clean house before you call someone out. i’m sorry???? i don’t write incest???? 💀 you guys are grasping at straws to excuse something that is legitimately not ok to write. this isn’t ao3. there is no one but you degenerates that like that shit 💀

but go digging and post screenshots. you are the one that can’t stand being held accountable for the shit you’re doing wrong. you guys are nasty, vile human beings for even defending writing that shit by saying it was listed in the rules. no one gives two fucks. i even said it in my post. just because you write a rule into place doesn’t make it ok to write it.

[byeeve]

horror isn’t incest and it isn’t ok. you deserve an angry mob because what you’re doing is insane dude.

[byeeve]

anyways, i'm not going to be vague anymore. the fc5 rpc is a cesspool of really gross people who think that saying: i don't participate in callout culture, gives them the ok to write really gross shit!! so don't interact with me, don't even look at me, if you interact with / associate with lani ( @/shellcrack ) on the basis of thinking if you have a rule like: there's going to be really weird family dynamics here!! in her rules, excuses her to write weird incestous family dynamics with her character's canonical uncle :) !!!

the fact that so many mutuals we have were writing with her while this was being actively blasted on the dash is disgusting but it's the fc5 fandom sooooo. i don't what i expected.

anyways! @/lani and her gross ass friends who have a history of ... idk. making up shit about people to bully them out of the rpc? don't even come @ me to defend yourself because you can't really defend tagging your character's uncle in shit like this. whether or not this is a sexual relationship, it is not ok to write this shit. this is not a safe space for you to write weird shit!!

[mine-loves]

We grew up together.

[edenmemes]

resident evil: 4 remake starters

❝ man, that stinks. ❞ ❝ this just keeps getting worse. ❞ ❝ you’re still a kid holding onto fantasies of what’s right and wrong. ❞ ❝ i’m gonna let you in on a little secret. just between us. ❞ ❝ the hell is going on? ❞ ❝ hey, we’re a team, right? ❞ ❝ where’s everyone going? bingo? ❞ ❝ you and me are two sides of the same coin. ❞ ❝ that’s just like you. you always had poor judgement. ❞ ❝ ah, so you aren’t heartless after all. ❞ ❝ like i told you, i’m gonna get you home safe. ❞ ❝ i’m not falling for your mind games. ❞ ❝ you proved you can handle yourself. ❞ ❝ you haven’t changed a damn bit. ❞ ❝ you look like you’ve got something to say. ❞ ❝ gotta fix everything myself. ❞ ❝ you can’t run. you got to keep moving forward. ❞ ❝ you’re nothing but an extra in my script. ❞ ❝ i thought you were gonna die. ❞ ❝ i don’t pay you to ask questions. ❞ ❝ there’s no time for resting. ❞ ❝ revenge? you think i’m doing all this…for revenge? ❞ ❝ i need you to trust me, and do exactly as i say. ❞ ❝ you’re too soft to do what’s necessary. ❞ ❝ i know your potential better than anyone. ❞ ❝ you’ve made it all this way, but you haven’t learned a thing. ❞ ❝ maybe you’ll live to meet me again. ❞ ❝ the most important thing in this world is pure, unadulterated power. ❞ ❝ i’ve something to ask you…but i don’t think i’ll get a straight answer. ❞ ❝ you didn’t answer my question. what’re you after? ❞ ❝ you know, you were always an asshole. ❞ ❝ you have a strange sense of humor. ❞ ❝ you are nothing if not unyielding. ❞ ❝ i just wanna feel good about myself. make amends. or something like that. ❞ ❝ just give me a heads-up before you stab me next time, okay? ❞ ❝ it’s okay to be afraid, you know. ❞ ❝ what do you think? people can change, right? ❞ ❝ not looking good, eh, my friend? ❞ ❝ you try to save one person; a hundred others die. ❞ ❝ was that an act of defiance? against me? ❞ ❝ a well-tuned weapon can make up for a lack of skill. ❞ ❝ i’ll let myself out. ❞ ❝ you won’t get away with this. ❞ ❝ be a shame to live the rest of your life wondering ‘what if’ - am i right? ❞ ❝ you have the stench of battle on you. ❞ ❝ so, tell me, why did you come to this horrible place? ❞ ❝ you wanna help? cause i could use it. ❞ ❝ if i could just forget what happened that night, the pain - even for a second… ❞ ❝ i knew i could count on you. ❞ ❝ i think you’d be pretty dashing in it. ❞ ❝ i’m not used to having such good company. ❞ ❝ hey. it’s dangerous outside. ❞ ❝ god damn…i was almost a pancake. ❞ ❝ a lot of people have gone missing around here. and it’s been like that for a while now. ❞ ❝ sorry. i, uh, screwed up. ❞ ❝ i’m so scared. when that happened…i wasn’t myself any more. ❞ ❝ well done. you’ve proven yourself reliable. ❞ ❝ won’t be going anywhere in this thing. ❞ ❝ sorry, didn’t realize that was yours. ❞ ❝ this time, it can be different. it has to. ❞ ❝ everything will work out just fine. ❞ ❝ you missed. that’s not like you. ❞ ❝ come to my rescue, prince charming! ❞ ❝ sometimes it’s more fun not knowing. ❞ ❝ if you do well, i’ll make it worth your while. ❞ ❝ that hurts, you know. ❞ ❝ this is one hell of a gloomy place. ❞ ❝ why help me, though? what’s in it for you? ❞ ❝ oh, well, maybe just untie me then? ❞ ❝ knowledge is power. remember that. ❞ ❝ i can’t tell if that’s meant to be a compliment. ❞ ❝ i’m sure you’ll do your best to help me. ❞ ❝ bill me for the repairs later. ❞ ❝ it seemed like you really wanted to talk. ❞ ❝ you know, those things will kill you. ❞ ❝ you haven’t changed. you just think you have. ❞ ❝ don’t let the smallfry distract you from the big fish. ❞ ❝ quiet type, eh? ❞ ❝ guess you picked the wrong spot to vacation. ❞ ❝ a most warm welcome to my castle. ❞ ❝ bet you’ve been in spots like this before. ❞ ❝ to think you could be this foolish. ❞ ❝ give me a break already. ❞ ❝ i’m sorry. i wish i could do more to help. ❞ ❝ i don’t want to recall what happened down there. ❞ ❝ years haven’t been kind to us, i suppose. ❞ ❝ finally, some peace and quiet. ❞ ❝ who are you? and what are you doing here? ❞ ❝ i’m just an average guy who happens to be quite the ladies’ man. ❞ ❝ you should really be telling me what a good job i did. ❞ ❝ is this the first time you coughed up blood like this? ❞ ❝ so much for helping me. ❞ ❝ so, who are you working for this time? ❞ ❝ you think i’m gonna give up that easily? ❞ ❝ hey, are you sure you’re good? ❞ ❝ i’m gonna get you home safe. ❞ ❝ i have a plan. but you’re going to have to trust me. ❞ ❝ gimme some space. ❞ ❝ i don’t get you. why risk your life like this? ❞ ❝ it’s a little over-the-top, don’t you think? ❞ ❝ they’re coming! get behind me. ❞ ❝ does that hurt? are you in pain? distressed? ❞ ❝ you are really starting to become a giant pain in my ass. ❞ ❝ you know i don’t work and tell. ❞ ❝ you’ve done well to make it this far. ❞ ❝ tell someone who gives a shit. ❞ ❝ happy to help. now you owe me. ❞ ❝ are you just trying to use me again? ❞ ❝ what’re you, my mother? ❞ ❝ i’m definitely gonna catch a cold. ❞ ❝ this artwork…doesn’t it look like it’s telling some kind of story? ❞ ❝ what do we do? there’s no way out. ❞ ❝ what’s wrong with wanting the same for myself? ❞ ❝ it’s a little old fashioned for my taste. ❞ ❝ you’re losing your cool. making mistakes. ❞ ❝ don’t scare me like that. ❞ ❝ you’re slow. and so goddamn weak. ❞ ❝ wow, you’ve really gone all out for me! you shouldn’t have. ❞ ❝ i will send you back to the hell you came from. ❞ ❝ heheh, having a rough day? ❞ ❝ the reaper comes for cowards and the careless alike. which are you? ❞ ❝ i’ve got to think. need to get my head straight. ❞ ❝ i shall leave tomorrow. go far away. ❞ ❝ here’s my question…have you changed? ❞ ❝ we will beat this. together. ❞ ❝ what’s wrong? show no mercy! ❞ ❝ i admit - you’ve done well to stay alive this long. ❞ ❝ this means death. a slow, miserable death. ❞

[seidkonaz]

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Wolves || Down Like Silver

When I die, let the wolves enjoy my bones– When I die, let me go.  When I die, you can push me out to sea– When I die, set me free. 

[randall-park]

Kawennáhere Devery Jacobs as Elora Danan in Reservation Dogs (2021 - )

[byeeve]

there is an odd level of guilt that settles across his features. if it hadn't succeeded in making her feel weird, eve may have laughed about it. after all, those puppy dog eyes were mastered with a skill she could not rival. instead, she is fairly quick to turn her back towards him, and tend to cleaning up their makeshift campsite. staying in the woods overnight had been the plan, but sharing the night together was something spontaneous. when her belongings are gathered and moved to her saddle, she eventually casts her eyes to him, smile pulling at the corners of her parted lips. he wasn't going to let this go, was he?

she heaves a sigh before finding a place to sit. what was there to talk about? they slept together. it was all in good fun, wasn't it? ever since they met, eve couldn't deny a certain level of attraction towards him. a man who could carry himself, a man with a dark past, a man carrying a name that people feared. every aspect of him played into the night unraveling the way it did, and there was hardly any regret settling in her chest.

❝ what is there to talk about, kayce? ❞ a legitimate question. ❝ we had ... fun. together. and one might argue that it was a smart decision because it kept us warm. but, i don't think it needs to be talked about ... it's not anything serious. you don't ... do stuff like this? often? ❞ of course he didn't. that's why they were having this talk in the first place, right? @untamedson

[bankaizen-deactivated20250613]

far cry 5 — the henbane river

[prodigalls]

FROM THE MOMENT HE'D discovered her secret to now, he knew little more than the fire raging inside his brain, a blaze of emotion that threatened to consume. From anger, to hurt, to grief, to betrayal, he had cycled through his emotions over and over again in a constant loop until she walked through the door of his home and everything came to a head. They had been fighting Eden's Gate for over a year now, with few small victories to claim and even fewer people whom they could trust. Jude had thought he could count Eve among those people, hell, he had even invited her to live in his home. Only to discover he'd been housing a traitor this entire time. Pictures of her consorting with the enemy, waltzing right into his home and having a pleasant conversation with John Seed were scattered along his coffee table. As if the man hadn't been responsible for the current chaos which was unfolding around them. Now, he wasn't quite sure which was worse, the evidence placed before him, or a knife to the back.

" So I'm supposed to just sit here and feel sorry for the man because he has a shitty brother? He still had a choice. Even if Joseph manipulated him, hell even if he held a gun to John's head and told him what to do, that doesn't change what he did. Either you're blind or you're just choosing not to see it, at this point I'm not sure which is worse. He's destroyed so many people's homes, wiped out entire families, he's killed children, Eve, and I'm just supposed to forget about all that and make peace? " He barely conceals the rage boiling within him, a quiet seething thing that is reflected in his eyes as he attempts to meet her gaze, but she wouldn't even do him the courtesy of looking him in the eye.

" Killing him won't bring back my family, I know that damn well better than anyone else considering I was the one that buried them, but I wouldn't have had to bury them if it weren't for him. This isn't about revenge, this is about survival. Can't you see? There's no option here other than to kill or be killed. I know you're not a killer, and this entire fucked up situation forced you to become something you're not, but it's all that we've got right now. Who's coming to save us? The National Guard? The Army? Look around, Eve. We're all on our own. Don't be so naïve to think that we can all just sit around the campfire and sing kumbaya after all this is said and done. "

[byeeve]

                   IT ISN'T SHAME THAT KEEPS HER FROM MEETING HIS GAZE, BUT RATHER AN IMMENSE FEAR OF REJECTION.   their values, their opinions, their everything differed so vastly.   this was no secret.   but she often chose silence over confrontation these days, opting to ignore his goals and desires for the end of this war.   maybe it was naive to want something different,  to want change in the middle of this story, rather than the bitter end.

her eyes focus on the pictures scattered across his tabletop, all displaying her in compromising positions.   WHO WAS WATCHING HER?   jude didn't have the time, nor the doubts in her to do so.   her first and only accusation was directed at adam decker.   he had something against her, a burning hate that she'd never seen before now.   even her enemies, even jacob seed himself, didn't look at her like that.   much like the way jude was surely looking at her now.   

    ❝   YOU KNOW, I'M SURE SOMEONE OUT THERE HAS A SIMILAR OPINION ABOUT YOU.   there's someone out there that doesn't think you're worth saving, that you deserve anything other than death.  you think you're different?   you think just because something horrible happened to you, to your family   ...   gives you a pass to shed blood?   when do two wrongs make a right?   do you wanna take his family from him?   do you want to make him feel like you?   what happens at the end of that?   do you think it's all going to go away?   ❞

          her voice doesn't shake, even in the face of his anger.   though the feelings between them have become more and more apparent, neither of them have made it real.   their relationship is a giant question mark on a blank piece of paper, and yet there's something inside of her that aches at the idea of him expressing this anger, this betrayal, whatever this is towards her.   eve chews at the bottom of her lip for a moment, anxiety becomes a looming threat in her chest.

    ❝   i killed jacob seed.   i got my revenge.   it broke me more than i've ever been broken before   -   it's a tidal wave i can't catch my breath from.   i can't sleep, i can't eat, i can't breath without thinking about it.   without thinking about him.   without wanting to go back and change my mind.   i can't live with myself.   even if he was the worst person, it wasn't my place to take a life.   it wasn't my choice to make.   killing john isn't going to solve anything but soothe a temporary wound while the real problem is festering inside of you.   ❞

         she looks him in the eye now.          ❝   i don't know what you want me to say, jude.   i'm not going to apologize for feeling the way i do about this whole thing, for wanting to make a difference, for wanting to change the tides.   i didn't tell you i was doing any of this because i knew you'd react the way you're reacting now.   but if you're going to sit there and believe whatever story adam spun, there's no changing your mind.   condemn me, everyone else has.   ❞

[byeeve]

              WHEN DO THEY DRAW THE LINE BETWEEN THEMSELVES AND THOSE THEY CALL ENEMIES?   perhaps the reaping was a means of shining a light upon the monsters they all have within themselves, another intricate detail weaved into the chaos by the father himself.   she wonders if this was part of the plan, this realization that they're not much different from the people they killed in the name of retribution.   even now, eve stands upon a hill of death, sinking and sinking into the abyss.   who is she to tell him what is right and what is wrong?   they've both lost so much.   but she can't avoid the hesitation before pulling that trigger, before signing away another life in this endless war.   there's a part of her that wonders if there will ever be an end to this, even if they killed the seeds and restored a sense of order to hope county.   will they ever be free of the death they inflicted upon this land?   will they ever recover from all they had lost?   will killing john seed bring back his family?   there's an ever looming response, one that she's too afraid to face now.

    ❝     what happens when you kill him, jude?   you think that's going to fix everything for you?   for everything we're going through now?   at the end of the day, it's another life lost.   the war still goes on, nothing changed.   killing him isn't going to heal those wounds, revenge isn't going to make your family come back.     ❞          she heaves a deep sigh, turns her attention to something moving outside the window.   anything but facing the consequences of her words.   anything but looking him in the eyes.

   ❝     when do you draw the line, when do we say enough is enough?   killing everyone who thinks differently than us   ....    it's not going to solve our problems.   but,  i don't know.   maybe it's foolish of me to think that, maybe   ---   maybe i can make a difference another way.   maybe i can change their minds, make them see differently.   i'm not foolish enough to think that he's going to turn his back on his family, but he was manipulated by joseph seed too.   he had a life before all of this, he was his own person.   he wouldn't have made these choices, taken these things from you, if it wasn't for him.   maybe, at the end of this, he goes to jail.   he answers for everything he's ever done.   but i just don't see how killing him is the right answer.   death and more death.   if we kill our way through all of this, nothing will be left.   just us and this graveyard we've built together.   ❞ @deputyzed

[gnawgag]

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