[retaltyp]

1 hr studies of London Spy screencaps in ps, with a very poorly chosen brush.

[nothngbelow]

Just when you thought it can’t get worse, always it does

[wembleyfragglesarchive]

i’m losing my mind

[friendlyfrankenstein]

bert was always my favorite muppet as a kid and TBH I stand by this as an adult. 

[friendlyfrankenstein]

anyways its been like four days and I have yet to stop laughing even slightly less at ‘OH GROOVE WITH ME BABY’ (THUNK THUNK THUNK) so 

im starting to suspect bert and ernie sketches were just the basis of my sense of humor

[critic-corner]

50/50 (2011)

[awhiteshirt]

[rohie-deactivated20191102]

“Years ago a friend of mine had a dream about a strange invention; a staircase you could descend deep underground, in which you heard recordings of all the things anyone had ever said about you, both good and bad. The catch was, you had to pass through all the worst things people had said before you could get to the highest compliments at the very bottom. There is no way I would ever make it more than two and a half steps down such a staircase, but I understand its terrible logic: if we want the rewards of being loved we have to submit to the mortifying ordeal of being known.”

— I Know What You Think of Me, Tim Kreider for the New York Times

[owlmylove]

after YEARS of seeing this quote online and finding it to be the most deeply and resoundingly profound writing i finally found the source article and absolutely nothing could prepare me for this opening paragraph

[ladyofthefanart]

Find your REAL Angel name

• First two letters of your last name • First vowel of your first name • Third letter of your middle name (or parent’s first name if you don’t have a middle name • Last consonant of your last name • Add IEL or EL to the end!

[cisphobicspock]

I’m fucking Flargel

[clint-ftm-barton]

Huesriel

[kaijuno]

PEENKEL I HATE EVERYTHING

[strangedarkage]

[gondwana]

IM AT A WORK MEETIBNG AND THIS ABSOLUTE BASTARD OF A MAN IS EATING AN APPLE BOTTOM-DOWN CORE AND ALL. JUST FUCKING CRUNCHING AWAY LIKE THATS HOW HUMANS EAT APPLES.

[gondwana]

FUCKER

[suburbanjustice]

[bzz-knzz]

Rose and Carnation for the ask thing! :)

CARNATION: If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer?

wow this is such a good question frk. definitely my chemical romance 2011 era, i would literally sell my soul to see them perform live. other performers i would choose would be arctic monkeys and the strokes.

ROSE: Are you currently in love with someone?

yes. maybe love is the word replacing a word that means me caring so much about him that the oxygen supply in my lungs feels particularly acute. i worry about him so much that it distracts me from all things rational.  and i know he doesn't reciprocate feelings and i don't think he ever will, but i'm okay with that, i just always want to be there to support him. i want him to rant to me in his car, and to give me hugs whenever he needs them, or lean on my shoulder when his arms get too tired from holding the heavy hands of depression on his back. so yes, i love him.

[eva-noora-isak-sana]

what skam did for me and what i learnt from it.

SEASON ONE: EVA

- you have to figure out who you are as a person before you can offer yourself to others

- learn to trust the people you love

- earn the trust of the people you love

- never turn down the chance/the idea of meeting new people (vilde and sana)

- lisa’s laugh is the purest thing in this world and i love her

- MARLON’S EYEBROWS COULD PROVIDE SHADE FOR A SMALL SUBURBAN TOWN

SEASON TWO: NOORA (my favourite season)

- everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. be kind. always.

- if you believe you have been sexually assaulted go to the police straight away

- confide in those you love

- THAT NOORA IS MY FUCKING STYLE ICON

- thomas’ smile. need i say more?

- about halfway through this season, i knew i wanted to learn the language and that i wanted to go to norway, and possibly live there one day.

- that “nei, vilde.” would be part of my everyday vocab (and quite the conversation starter for people who haven’t seen the show!)

- mennesker trenger mennesker. i live by this now. it’s brought me so much closer to the people in my life. 

SEASON THREE: ISAK 

- okay. first. TARJEI. SANDVIK. MOE. 

- never be closed minded towards learning about different mental illnesses

- not being sure of your sexuality is 100% okay

- eskild’s entire speech completely changed my life.  

- all the parallels to romeo + juliet re-sparked my love for filmmaking

-  livet er nå

- MAGNUS. MY SON.

- alt er love

SEASON FOUR: SANA

- jealousy is the most toxic human emotion and it sucks

- made me realise how important faith is to those who have it. before this i was such an asshole towards people who subscribed to a religion, and it makes me sick to look back on it. i’m not religious for many reasons, but i believe those who are are better off than me. 

- MARLON’S ENTIRE CLOSING MONOLOGUE  IS GOING TO BE PERFORMED AT MY FUNERAL I STG.  

- it made me realise that i cannot take my friends and family for granted and i love them all with every fibre of my being.

[retro2mod]

Arctic Monkeys, Oct 11th 2011, @ the Tabernacle , Atlanta GA

[bzz-knzz]

matt is a mood

[handcrafted-in-germany]

Flower Ask

[cozyfarm-deactivated20210123]

DAISY:How old were you when you had your first kiss?

CARNATION:If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer?

JASMINE:What color looks best on you?

FOXGLOVE:Name three facts about your family?

ALLIUM:What’s the best thing you can cook?

ORANGE BLOSSOM:If you could pick the gender and appearance of your child, would you?

CALLA LILY:If you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral?

POINSETTIA:Favorite holiday dish?

OXLIP:Would you ever get into a long distance relationship?

PRIMROSE:Favorite kind of soup?

DAFFODIL:What’s the most thoughtful present you’ve ever received?

ROSE:Are you currently in love with someone?

AMSONIA:Would you ever become a vegan?

PEONY:What’s your favorite hot beverage?

TULIP:For your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for?

MYRTLE:Do you like going on airplanes?

HIBISCUS:Did you ever play an instrument? If so what?

ZINNIA:Who was your best friend when you were six years old?

POPPY:What color was your childhood home?

HYDRANGEA:Starbucks order?

VIOLET:Do you like where you’re from?

LOCUST:What was your favorite book as a child?

RHODODENDRON:What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had?

QUEEN ANNE’S LACE:Would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents?

MAGNOLIA:Favorite kind of candy?

ASTER:Would you rather be cold or hot?

MARIGOLD:Do you listen to what’s on the radio?

HELICONIA:Do you like when it rains?

AZALEA:What’s a movie you cried while watching?

DANDELION:Do you think you’re important?

[acutelesbian]

A lot of people ask me what my biggest fear is, or what scares me most. And I know they expect an answer like heights, or closed spaces, or people dressed like animals, but how do I tell them that when I was 17 I took a class called Relationships For Life and I learned that most people fall out of love for the same reasons they fell in it. That their lover’s once endearing stubbornness has now become refusal to compromise and their one track mind is now immaturity and their bad habits that you once adored is now money down the drain. Their spontaneity becomes reckless and irresponsible and their feet up on your dash is no longer sexy, just another distraction in your busy life. Nothing saddens and scares me like the thought that I can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes.

[fat-thin-skinny]

this fucks me up every single time

[acutelesbian]

I never expected this to be my most popular poem out of the hundreds I’ve written. I was extremely bitter and sad when I wrote this and I left out the most beautiful part of that class.

After my teacher introduced us to this theory, she asked us, “is love a feeling? Or is it a choice?” We were all a bunch of teenagers. Naturally we said it was a feeling. She said that if we clung to that belief, we’d never have a lasting relationship of any sort.

She made us interview a dozen adults who were or had been married and we asked them about their marriages and why it lasted or why it failed. At the end, I asked every single person if love was an emotion or a choice.

Everybody said that it was a choice. It was a conscious commitment. It was something you choose to make work every day with a person who has chosen the same thing. They all said that at one point in their marriage, the “feeling of love” had vanished or faded and they weren’t happy. They said feelings are always changing and you cannot build something that will last on such a shaky foundation.

The married ones said that when things were bad, they chose to open the communication, chose to identify what broke and how to fix it, and chose to recreate something worth falling in love with.

The divorced ones said they chose to walk away.

Ever since that class, since that project, I never looked at relationships the same way. I understood why arranged marriages were successful. I discovered the difference in feelings and commitments. I’ve never gone for the person who makes my heart flutter or my head spin. I’ve chosen the people who were committed to choosing me, dedicated to finding something to adore even on the ugliest days.

I no longer fear the day someone who swore I was their universe can no longer see the stars in my eyes as long as they still choose to look until they find them again.

[conceitedtrash]

This is so fucking important and I think it’s something I needed right now

[charmed]

MIDSOMMAR (2019) dir. Ari Aster

[sheabutterbitch]

Sakura Endo for OVE MAGAZINE

[soggy-emo-socks]

the mood for today: gee’s little ‘psh-ahh’ sound at the beginning of Kill All Your Friends