Where I am today...
I haven’t been active on this for a few years now. I wanted to share my experiences with you since then, if anyone was wondering where I went or what happened to me.
1. This blog was a huge help to me, for a very long time. It was something that enabled me and helped me recover. It was also a hurt to me, a crutch, an excuse, something to use to keep me in a place where I had been for so long.
2. I am not fully recovered. I still go a few days without eating here and there, and I frequently skip meals; however, I am better. The voices are mostly gone. I no longer cut. I haven’t cut in many years, although I frequently think about doing it.
3. I am in my final year of college, and I am almost an adult.
4. My mother died. Over a year ago now. I have a lot of resentment towards her, but I also regret many of the things that I said on this blog about her because she wasn’t as terrible as my manic depressive, anorexic self made her out to be. I miss her everyday, and her death has truly changed me.
5. I fell in love, with a man that my mother told me didn’t treat me right, and he crushed me. I should have listened to her. He was extremely emotionally abusive, and now, after almost a year, he still tries.
6. I am still only sought out for sex; however, I am trying to manipulate and take control over that.
And... that’s all. The short version at least. Ask questions if you wish xx
