remade.

i have good news and bad news. the bad news: i'm placing this blog on permanent hiatus. the good news: as of the time of writing this, i'm in the process of remaking. i love this blog, and it'll always have a special place in my heart. the memories i made are irreplaceable. but i think it's time that i moved away from this portrayal onto the new one that formed while i was on hiatus. est and i have both changed. a lot. and when i come back to rping, if i come back to rping, i want to have a fresh slate, away from any reputation this blog may or may not have had. i won't delete this blog. some of the stuff on here is too precious to throw away. but, after the time of this update (9-19-15), i will rarely (if ever) log back on. so goodbye, c-ornflowerblue. we spent a good year together. if you want my new url, just shoot me a message here. and if you don't, then that's fine. i understand. i did some really shitty things on this blog, and to all of you that i've hurt or offended: i'm sorry. i apologize, truly and deeply, from the bottom of my heart. thank you for reading. i hope we can meet again someday. ❝Estonia is like a wild strawberry: small, pristine, difficult to find… and those who don’t know how to fail to recognize and value it. But once we possess it, once it’s ours, then it’s one of the best things of all.❞

[c-ornflowerblue]

remade

ask for the url if you want it idk

[c-ornflowerblue]

remade

ask for the url if you want it idk

[wordsnquotes]

I will prove myself strong       when they think I am sick. I will prove myself brave       when they think I am weak.

E. Lockhart, We Were Liars (via wordsnquotes)

[c-ornflowerblue]

putting this blog on hiatus.

i’ve been thinking about it for a couple of weeks now but i haven’t actually decided on it until today. pft. talk about overdue.

so yeah. i’m putting this blog on hiatus because i. i really haven’t been feeling ed as much as i used to. and for some reason it’s. not as fun to rp him as before. every few weeks or so i get this inspiration to rp him (and watch it’s going to happen right after i post this) but they’re very, very fleeting. when i come back to rping on here, if i come back to rping on here, i want to make sure i have a full grasp on him... which will probably never happen. who knows.

but if i never come back (which is a very likely scenario) i just want you all to know that i’ll never really forget the time i spent rping here. call this gushy and sentimental, but really. i had a hell of a time. i learned some things, i made memories, i spent a lot of nights awake until four. it was grand, it really was. so thank you. thank you all, from the people who are still on my dash to the people who went inactive months ago.

(fuck i’m getting sentimental now)

but anyways. i guess this is goodbye, for now. 

-mary

[c-ornflowerblue]

Independence day. Can you believe it? Independence day. Huh. I'll never get used to that.

Here's to hoping that there's a next year, hm?

[There's a blanket around his shoulders, coffee in his hands, and food on the table. Life is good.]

[niekonepadarysi]

[he can’t keep it up much longer either tbh and breaks out in a grin] [claps him on the shoulder too.]

Eduard, I will be the one to drown you in food. You deserve every bit of it.

[c-ornflowerblue]

And beer, too- there's no party without beer.

...Actually, on second thought, don't bring beer. I'm obligated to attend all of the events tomorrow, and showing up to the formal reception while drunk would be interesting, to say the least. Any other non-alcoholic drinks are welcome.

[niekonepadarysi]

…Tuesday?

Tuesday, the twenty fourth of February, two thousand and fifteen.

[c-ornflowerblue]

Independence Day, Arūnas. My birthday. Just a regular, every day occasion.

[he sounds weary and slightly annoyed and- he totally isn't smiling a little bit nope] [okay dang it he's too excited to even pretend to be angry]

I expect to be drowning in food tomorrow.

[niekonepadarysi]

…the twenty third?

[c-ornflowerblue]

Yes, yes. And tomorrow is the 24th, and the 24th is...

[islenzk-blog-blog]

*amused smile* I’d support that.

Jæja, I haven’t used one regularly in some time, but I can.

[c-ornflowerblue]

Ah. Finally, someone who appreciates fine art.

Good. I might require your assistance later on, since there's some extra nails in this thing- not that I can't use a hammer, but. It would make the work go by faster.

[lovesicksilence]

Don’t worry my dear, you have the forest running through your veins.

A lovely pagan women who gave me a tarot card reading. (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)

[islenzk-blog-blog]

Okay, I can see that, I guess. Does it need to be fixed?

[c-ornflowerblue]

Yes. Or I could just sell it to an abstract art museum, entitle it Chair. Talk about how the crookedness represents the strength of the human spirit in the description.

Anyways. Are you somewhat good with a hammer? If not, I don't mind.

[c-ornflowerblue]

niekonepadarysi

Guess what day it is.

[islenzk-blog-blog]

Ehh.. Maybe, what do you think is off?

[c-ornflowerblue]

It's the position. Somehow, something tells me that chairs aren't supposed to lean that far right.

[c-ornflowerblue]

islenzk

[squints]

Does this look off to you, or am I just imagining things?

[bookmania]

Music brings a warm glow to my vision, thawing mind and muscle from their endless wintering.

Haruki Murakami, Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World (via bookmania)

[arabellesicardi]

i feel personally victimized by winter 

[c-ornflowerblue]

it's been eighty seven years