jing

she/they/any, '02, (bi)acespec // mostly aftg, anime & bl // writes & arts sometimes ﾟ･*⭒ caelysium.carrd.co ⭒*･゜

[caelysiiium]

hi hello I'm jing!

at a glance: queer chinese diaspora in canada struggling through med school, obsessed with way too many things

I read a lot! you'll find me yapping about queer novels across genres

book fandoms I frequent here: all for the game, captive prince, heated rivalry + misc bl manga/danmei

I occasionally watch shows/series, most of which are east & southeast asian; I tend to reblog and ramble about whatever I'm currently in the middle of!

forever obsessions: seventeen, haikyuu, aouboom, mdzs, misc sports and bl anime

I also write and draw, tagged appropriately under #jing.writes and #jing.draws [CURRENTLY RETAGGING]

my carrd

[sebyun]

I'm not God's favorite son.

[noadih]

[sebyun]

Just now... you felt what I felt too, didn't you?

[namtan]

TICKET TO HEAVEN | EP 3

[namtan]

TICKET TO HEAVEN | EP 3

[tanrak]

I’m not God’s favorite son. I like guys. Tanrak, I like you. I’m not God’s favorite son either.

[caelysiiium]

going insane because the bible teaches us that love is surrender and that is exactly how barth and tanrak fall into one another

[melonalemonade]

carry your cross

[khaotunq]

Favs in Favs: Tinn Tinnaphob, My School President

[maybe-boys-do-love]

BL’s general emphasis that queer love is a rebirth, a second life, will always be important to me, but Aof Noppharnach’s particular articulation of living beyond grief goes extra hard for me. Ghosts and graveyards and heart attacks and prison sentences and shipwrecks. And there’s still hope, still love, still life waiting for you to live it out when you’re ready, when you can let go of the fear that you’ll be condemned and impoverished for embracing it, when you can accept that even if it could all come to an end at any moment, there’s nothing more precious than living however briefly for what you love.

[tanrak]

You have to ask yourself: do you want to spend your life with that love or with Him.

TICKET TO HEAVEN premiers on May, 30th

[gingerpolyglot]

Give me Shane awkwardly trying "queer culture" things that Ilya and Harris try to introduce him to and hating it.

Give me Shane "hates clubbing and bars" Hollander not minding Kingfisher in the afternoon but refusing to go at night. Give me Shane never understanding the slang (he's never online) and being overstimulated by drag brunch (it's so LOUD and nothing fits his diet even once he loosens it a little and brunch as a concept throws off his entire routine) and utterly bored by any TV show that isn't the latest game replay (is this reality TV? Is it a drama? He can't remember and he can't tell the difference but honestly he'd rather be watching hockey) and unable to remember the difference between Lady Gaga and Cher (he never listens to music anyway) and completely disinterested in changing his wardrobe (for fancy events he wears whatever his stylist tells him to but not anything adventurous, because he just wants to look acceptable not make a statement).

Give me Shane feeling alienated from gay culture the way he sometimes feels alienated from Japanese culture and being so frustrated that being himself, exactly as he is, still isn't good enough for anyone.

Give me a Shane Hollander who doesn't want to be "the gay hockey player" the same way he doesn't want to be "the Asian hockey player" but he'll suck it up because he's such an inspiration, don't you know how many kids look up to you? Don't you know how much it matters to them to see you out there loud and proud?

Give me Shane finally snapping at Ilya that clearly he's not "super gay" if he's so bad at it, because he's sick and tired of everyone being disappointed that he's not up on whatever the latest queer culture trend is and he does not want to be a "gay icon," he just wants to play hockey and love his husband, and he's not magically a different person now that everyone knows he's gay.

Give me Ilya reckoning with how coming out has only put more expectations on Shane's shoulders and noticing the roles Shane is always forced into - the Asian player, the gay player - and understanding a bit more why privacy seemed like a better guarantee of freedom to Shane than openness.

Give me Ilya promising Shane that he loves him exactly as he is, jocky and offline and dedicated to hockey, that he never has to change anything about himself to seem more palatable to anyone, and fuck anyone who thinks Shane isn't *anything* enough, because he's always been perfect for Ilya.

[medrawawi]

baby centaur!

ilya's words mean something like "my heart is so full"

[hollanovcat]

happy pride month !!

[handsywoman]

strangers to colleagues to friends to soulmates <3

[russianblush]

Best Lead Performer, Drama Series is....Hudson Williams!