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[caffeineandlilac]

Knowing that you love each other so much but you can't be together. Haaaa. Ang sakit sakit na. This is what I get from watching another Korean drama. Another two episodes tonight and I feel so shattered.

[gentle-reminder]

gentle reminder

what you say is important - please try your best to not be afraid to talk about your day, your ideas, your troubles, your interests, they are all valid and important; at the same time, remember that you don’t have to force yourself to reveal these things if you don’t want to, it’s okay to do things at your own pace

[gentle-reminder]

a longer gentle reminder

traditionally we think that the first days of year, month or week are supposed to be new beginnings, and if you had some resolutions or decided to start something new but didn’t have time, or anything else stopped you, that’s completely okay - please try your best to not be hard on yourself and to not feel pressured by these first days; you can try again, start anything anytime no matter what day it is: please take care of yourself and listen to your body and soul, try to do things or set goals that make you excited and inspired, but feel free to leave them if you feel like they don’t make you feel good anymore

[caffeineandlilac]

Buti pa 'yong NDRRMC may care sa akin. Haaaaa.

[infinite-sadboihours]

They say it’s new year but, feels like the same. Nothing new about it.

[gentle-reminder]

gentle reminder

bad days are okay, they’re going to happen; please try your best to take your time, and to not let them stop you

[just-shower-thoughts]

Today is the last day of 2017. Everyone born in the 1990’s are now adults, there are no more 90’s kids.

[caffeineandlilac]

It's 2018 already?

I was too tired yesterday to stay up late last night. Haaa. It's another year and I get to rest the whole day. That is if it happens. Oh, well. At least I have one day. Tomorrow is a start of another battle.

[gentle-reminder]

gentle reminder

it’s okay to feel anxious even if you don’t have an anxiety disorder, it’s okay to feel depressed even if you don’t have depression - it’s okay to feel, and to reach out for help, whenever you need, no matter what; please try your best to continue on

[caffeineandlilac]

Is it really okay? 😞

[books-n-quotes]

I would like you to stay and talk with me but I don’t want you to feel that you have to just because I’m here.

W.S. Merwin, Yesterday (via books-n-quotes)

[gentle-reminder]

gentle reminder

just because one person didn’t appreciate you, it doesn’t mean no one can - you deserve better and in time you will receive it, i promise

[medyopogiperobastos]

So all of my friends are busy in their lives, and here I am, stuck in the past, lonely in the present and anxious about the future.

[caffeineandlilac]

This night was a first. We tried eating dinner outside our house and it went well. My Mama cooked one of my favorite dishes that I was so excited to start munching every part of the chicken that I can get. We were so engrossed with eating and chatting that we forgot about taking pictures. Isn't that much better? Haaaaah. I feel so happy... and full! Hahaha

[gentle-reminder]

gentle reminder

its going to be okay, i promise

[shareaquote]

Before I fall in love again 1. I want us to be friends. Which means, I want to be able to eat my favourite cheese crust pizza with you, while having cheese all over my face and even in my hair, without feeling embarrassed or concerned about it. I want to be comfortable with you, I want to be okay about being messy, irritating, embarrassing, disgusting, petty while with you. Because I will be petty when I see my ex best friend post a happy picture and I will be messy during my finals and I will be embarrassing when I meet your parents for I suck at meeting parents. I want to be okay with being the way I am and the only way to be okay is to know that you’re okay with me being things other than beautiful, graceful and composed at all times. 2. I want to be able to have long and passionate conversations with you not just about existential things but also about what went wrong in the ending of that book and how kids are affected by media and how tomato basil combination always works. I want to have conversations where we may not always have the same views but our fundamental values always fall in place. I want to talk to you about the beauty of the stars but I also want to talk to you about the disgusting mentality behind certain societal norms. 3. I want to see how consistent your actions are with your words. I don’t want to fall for love letters or poems, for sweet Instagram captions or long birthday texts, I want to fall in love with you showing up on time and keeping your promises. 4. I want to take it slow. I want our story to work out in years, not months. I want to respect time and space this time. 5. I want to make sure I am not seeking love from you for the lack of love I have for myself. I want to make sure you aren’t a void I am filling in, you are not an alternative to the things I can’t give myself. I want to make sure you are not doing the same. 6. I want to work out with my insecurities and fears from the past. I don’t want to project them on you, I don’t want to subject you to the doubts, suspicion and anger I carry from the people I have known in the past. 7. Before I fall in love again, I want to make a mattress with you. Of understanding and respect and trust. So when we fall, it doesn’t hurt.

creatingnikki  (via idk-anymoreeee)

This. This.

[caffeineandlilac]

Sometimes it's okay to be not okay. Let loose. Vent out your anger if that helps. Just don't try to hurt yourself or others and end everything. Don't forget that your love ones would still be there for you once you get over with your piled up emotions. Or you can even tell them your sorrows. They may not understand you the way you expect them to but just bear with them. They will help you... because they're family.

[caffeineandlilac]

Kana bitawng naghuot akong dughan nga daghan pa diay mga natrap sa NCCC Mall sa Davao City. Luoy kaayo. 😭 Naay update nga buhi pa daw sila. Natrap sa CR pero di sila marescue kay gun-ob na kaayo ang entrance sa mall unya init pa jud kaayo kay dili pa napalong ang kalayo. 😭