i've been here and saying this same shit for over a decade but neal caffrey's internal conflict continues to be so immensely compelling to me. a life of crime or reform. the thrill of the con or the security of a peaceful life. this conflict propels the entire show and it would completely fall apart and lose traction if he were able to pick a side.
mozzie and peter are obviously their own character's but they also represent the two warring sides of him really well — a rebellious criminal vs the more typical american dream life that neal talks about wanting with kate: a permanent home, a happy marriage, a kid, a secure and peaceful life — this ideal he probably barely even remembers living when he was two, three years old before things fell apart.
the thing is that he so so badly wants both of these lives at the same time. at one peter tells him "you can either be a con or a man, you can't be both" and even though it's just a passing line, it ups the stakes on this internal conflict by almost framing it as a life or death thing — you can be one of these things. if you choose to be a con you cannot have a life as a man.
that kind of pressure? especially in the context we see in the show — a corrupt system that repeatedly abuses neal's circumstances? and like, i love peter desperately, don't get me wrong, but he frequently "allows" and sometimes even encourages neal to bend the rules, and takes advantage of the fact that neal is a conman in order to get what they need to close cases and put other people away.
and on the flip-side, his longest friend and confidant and partner in crime, is always trying to pull him back in, telling him the peaceful picket fence life isn't for him, that he's not built for it. that they're criminals and its what they're good at and the life they've dreamed of is at their fingertips, that he's lying to himself if he tries to leave it behind. to him, the con is the idealized life, and being a criminal isn't a shameful thing in any way like it is to peter or any one else in the show. to him, neal is betraying himself and everything they've done together if he abandons the con.
so he's posed with this unspoken problem: you can either be a con or a man, but not both, but your worth is implicitly tied to your criminal abilities, and you're constantly reminded by everyone around you that you are and always will be a criminal. so how can he be anything else? its a brutal situation to be in.
that's not even touching on the issues of justice and freedom which. oh boy. i could write another essay on each of those — he is such a valuable asset to the fbi and the way they keep treating him as a criminal to keep him on that leash to serve them...
anyway. that's my short essay on neal's internal conflict. i could probably write another 10k words on it but i will restrain myself