And The Void Called Back

A Vent/Aesthetic Blog. I am very gay, very nonbinary, and very tired. 25. They/Them pronouns.

[vexheart]

[massivex]

Devour me with your eyes.

[andallshallbewell]

[rosavelle]

I will stay up all night with you if it’ll make you feel any better.

[fourofdaggers]

Feelings tonight

[snakeautistic]

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

[status-quo-hater]

I think some of you forgot that autistic people sometimes act strange and say things that are poorly worded and speak with incorrect tone and misunderstand or miss social cues because they are autistic

[pigeon-cave]

Diagrams are helpful to me

[called-into-the-void]

Hey besties. Not to ruin the silly goofy vibe but how does one unpanic the attack? I’d rather be filled with rage

[guerrillatech]

[called-into-the-void]

Do I even make an impact on anything around me

Any mark I’ve ever made could be destroyed, deleted, lost, and there’s not a damn thing I could do to stop it

[ryan-sometimes]

“Fatherless behavior” stop giving my DAD credit for all the work my MOM put into making me a terrible person!! Stop erasing women in history!!

[pussiesaregod]

once i beat the depression and the burnout and the anxiety and the loneliness and the exhaustion and the guilt and the awkwardness and the apathy and the low income and the chronic illness and the impatience and the vulnerability and the creative block and the capitalism and the cruelty THEN you'll see

[junglejim4322]

Amazing how I’m a grown adult and I still cannot shake the exact same childhood feeling of thinking im going to “get in trouble”

[what-am-i-doing-in-this-fandom]

hey, I was just at "things got better" island and everyone there is talking about how excited they are to meet you

[russiawave]

[isa-ah]

it should be illegal to take a nap and still have a headache when you wake up. like no i shut it off and back on again why are you still here