Karoline didnât mean to be quiet; there were so many words in her mind, so many that never made it past her throat. Once, sheâd been a chatterbox; always asking, always curious. But that was long ago, when there was a kind face to smile and answer her every question, or keep her talking. Henrik Johansen, her father, was long gone anyway and there was no point dwelling in the past. Except thatâs all her mother did; thatâs all she ever got to hear: how she had been the one at fault for such a great manâs demise, how terrible it was that she was the one to end up on board instead of him. Sheâd learned to silence every protest against that, to let the pain lodge at her chest and endure it as much as she could. If everyone believed she was at fault, how could she not?
She was slower than Callie in her actions. While the brunette was graceful with a knife in her hand, Karoline sliced through the veggies in slow motions, careful not to end up with a cut on her finger. She had to wonder, for a second, if she was actually helping or just slowing Callie down. Either way, she watched the way Callie cut them before following the same steps; slower, of course.
âItâs⊠something,â She shrugged. It wasnât pleasant, that was for sure, but this is the place sheâd ended up instead of literally anything else she couldâve done. People were the hardest to deal with, whether they had something nice to say or not. Sheâd still end up drained physically and mentally when her shift ended. Then sheâd have to deal with her mother; or not at all if she didnât go home. âI try to do things quietly so they donât really see me, but⊠All people really care about is their food, I guess.â She added, instead of finishing her initial thought. Something nagged at her to try and carry on the conversation, but it took her a good chunk of a moment before she finally said: âYou⊠look like you enjoy cookingâŠ?â Her tone made it sound like a question, though it wasnât meant to be that.
Karolâs tense air around her didnât seem to dissipate at all, rather it seemed to grow. Glancing to the side with a reassuring smile, Caliie nodded slightly. âYouâre a natural.â She had certainly seen much worse, some people around the ship just... Shouldnât ever have a knife in their hand. Callie wasnât the person to compare yourself to when it came to cooking; she could do all of it in a deep sleep, certainly.
Polite nodding followed each soft spoken word. âItâs true that some of them can feel pretty entitled. But donât let them treat you badly,â her voice became gently stern, the kind a mother would use when telling their child to stick up for themselves. âThe more they think they can, the more they will. Be polite, but cut into them.â It was probably odd coming from her, the girl who loves everyone. But she was never one to allow kindness to rule over her pride and well-being. Her smile had shifted to something being laced with mischief.
A half chuckle came out at Karolâs unintentional questioning statement. âI do. Itâs something I picked up not too long after we got aboard. Mom said I needed âlife skills,â and I happened to enjoy it, I guess.â Cooking was a skill that could help people, and thatâs probably where most of her joy came from. The happy faces of those she could feed, be it her family or the entirety of the Eclipse. âWhat about you? What do you enjoy doing?â There was a twinkle in her eye--excitement building up on having a real conversation with the resident door mouse.