Wild Beast ♛ @callmepatriciajulia - Tumblr Blog

Let’s be strangers again. Like we never knew each other, as if we’ve never been lovers. Think of me as someone who doesn’t know you personally. Spilled out everything that hurts you. Tell me about your heartbreaks and all the things that suffocating you. I’ll listen to all of the things you’ve done in the past not caring if it will change my perspective or not. Tell me, how it hurts. And how much it pains you. As if you’re talking to someone you thought you’ll never see again. As if you knew your secrets will still be safe. Let us go back to our beginnings. Let us walk towards the start. Let us be unknown to each other once more. Maybe we will fall in love with each other after it all.

ma.c.a // I love to believe that “Maybe” (via vomitingwords)

Reality

Reality. A word I sought to live in. I wish I could manifest this word. It is hard to live in reality especially when dealing with pain and loss. I became an expert at pretending that everything is all right. I excel in school - good grades, top 1, straight A's, a sports enthusiast and now a sports journalist. I am socially active - I serve my community through community service, I serve my Household, Active member of YFC for 4 consecutive years. With this, people always thought that I have it all, that I am well. People often look at the cover and shell of something and forgot to look on the important details - the inside and insights. I am crying for help. I am still devastated by the loss of my beloved father. I am still lost in the dark waiting to be found. The sad truth is I am getting comfortable in the dark, I am getting comfortable with the pain forgetting that I deserve happiness. I am still grieving. H E L P.

Dark

Every single day living without the presence of my dad is really hard. Living with the absence of hope is difficult to face every day. I have no choice yet to deal with life's misfortunes. My heart is really heavy today ☹️