Read this or don't -- it truly is your prerogative.
Most people know that its been a few odd days since I've let Cassie be around and even longer since she's been truly active. And really, that is my own doing. There wasn't any underlying factors of drama that I wanted to be away from, things getting too busy or hard in my own personal life, or anything of the sort that happens with unmentioned hiatus'. It's basically just me being bored with how things have been around here lately.
Not the people or whatever, but just things. Because with the people that Cassie has in her life, she's content. She needs nothing more, nothing less (I mean, really, I've had more than sufficient writing and detail within her life and I loved it), but at some point, things become tedious and not a priority for you any longer. I, as a writer, love everything about this character and the life/people she has and I wouldn't trade that in for the world, but it has gotten to the point where I just constantly ask myself "Is it worth it?"
And honestly? Yes, it is.
I love the people I've met and whom have interwoven their characters life into Cassie's like it was nothing and I generally believe that something special was created within the time period that activity has been happening around it. It's something I'm truly and deeply proud of and will cherish.
But some things come to a stand-still. Not an end, but a stand-still.
I'm not getting rid of Cassie, anything but. But in all honesty, before I can truly commit to this place or character or anything involving this again, I need the inspiration to do so.
And to find inspiration, one must do something inspiring.
So I'm taking a small leave. A bit longer than one would hope, but small nonetheless. I just want to find the thing that makes me want to log on Cassie again and go, "Wow, this is truly something and I love it like no other." I just want that back like I used to have.
So I'm giving myself a deadline. By Thanksgiving, not a day before or after, I want my inspiration. If it comes, it comes. If not, then I might have to take my leave. Hopefully it doesn't come to that, though.
I rambled a lot and if you're honestly still reading this, you deserve a goddamn award (I'm not giving you the award because that sounds like work, so...).
Seriously, though, you're all some truly amazing people and I really do hope my inspiration comes back because I would hate to lose some of you.
Fingers crossed, yeah? Keep being badass bitches while I'm gone, though.
