Embrace yourself or erase yourself

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Fuck her, fuck you all

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Curse you

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These people make me feel extremely agitated. Perhaps it's best to stay away from triggers. But can I really do it? This one needs to learn some self restraint 😮‍💨

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I think I can understand why villains become villains.

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I wonder if I'll ever create a positive space I occupy 🌌

They say it's always better where I am not. Or am I just hopelessly delusional/hopeless to the point of delusion?

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My biggest wish is to make everyone who hurt me suffer the same way. But due to distance I am helpless to do anything 😮‍💨❤️‍🩹

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Some people bang their by head f***ing senseless, some people by drinking senseless, and me - by going to work💀

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Internet is an unhealthy obsession of a homestuck nobody 💀

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Seems like by avoiding friends as an act of rebellion you're shooting yourself in the leg missy. The sentiment will be lost on them either way. But I swear being around (some of) them makes me increasingly frustrated/miserable. 😵😮‍💨 Better be alone and miserable.

[fymerry]

SWEET MEMORIES: 39 GOODBYE

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My dream art model

[fymerry]

SWEET MEMORIES: 39 GOODBYE

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He's beautiful

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Normalcy is ambiguous. Sometimes you run from it, because society does not understand your psyche, seeking out those who would make you feel ok to be mental, but quickly the 'madness' becomes overbearing and then you realize that you aren't fitting into this bunch where 'normal' norms seem foreign. So you wonder where are you fitting and do you really want to/can/should you be?

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Trust is a thing to be earned.

But you needy for company

Spread your secrets like a whore

Amongst all who wish to listen

And then they'll leave once there is nothing left to bare

Devaluing communication

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I (finally) realized that it's okay not to be perfect. And I mean constantly trying to please and meet the expectations others and we ourselves have of us. I can't go on feeling guilt and shame because I failed to. That's just a recepy for misery and fucked up health.

#mentalhealth #selfworth #loveyourself