Camthinks

navigating the mess of our universe 23 - art - books - thoughts tw: ed recovery, depression

[silkangelkisses]

[littya06]

i’m seriously spiraling

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fucked up coping mechanisms >>>>>>>

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all I wish for is someone to cuddle with

[holdines-deactivated20250630]

no more repeated cycles. it’s time to grow.

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how do you explain an eat1ng d1s0rder to someone who is mentally healthy???? like what do you mean you don’t roam around supermarkets for fun??? no of course I don’t buy anything!! im just window shopping

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I didn't think I was gender questioning but then I dreamt about being mistaken for a boy and I felt euphoric so uhmmmmmmmm

THAT'S INTERESTING

also the fact that I've always wanted a flat chest???

[icaruspendragon]

like yeah looking androgynous would be cool but so would looking feminine but in the way masculine people look feminine and it’d also be neato to look masculine but in the way feminine people look masculine

[icaruspendragon]

some might call this a “gender crisis” but i’m calling it “none of my business” :)

[novacm-deactivated20260406]

(person who learned from childhood to make themself as small and unimportant as possible to avoid being a burden) yeah its okay we dont have to do my thing if you dont want i dont mind

[valtsv]

calling out for my mom in a moment of extreme pain and terror, but taking an aside to explain to the audience that i mean i want the concept of a mother as caregiver and protector to defend and rescue me rather than my literal mom, whose presence would neither bring me comfort nor improve the situation

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a quiet day of sunshine 🌞

currently reading Maksim Gorkj as part of my efforts to discover more Russian literature this year

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I just found out that passive suicidal ideation is a thing and oh boy, never have I ever found a term that best suits me

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trying to recover from an ed is so hard because how am I supposed to force myself into doing something that makes me miserable just so that I eventually might feel better?

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currently on holiday w/the fam in Abruzzo (IT) and today we visited Atri, which is known both for being a really cute medieval town and for these particular mountain rock formations ⛰️

definitely worth a visit :)

[kosmogrl]

“is it weird to do this alone?” “is it pathetic to do that alone?” every day I pray you guys realize that sometimes doing things alone is the best way to do them

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I love doing things alone tbh

[serenades-of-slumber]

It’s kinda fucked how women are still expected to weigh less than men despite the fact the female body naturally has a slower metabolism and needs a higher body fat percentage to stay healthy, really, the world is against us

[somerabbitholes]

some essays to fill your time

Just a bunch of things I've read recently.

The Authoritarian Roots of India's Democracy by Tripurdaman Singh

Why is Everything So Ugly?

Casual Viewing by Will Tavlin

“You are Next”: Unmarried Urban Women in India and the “Marriage Talk” by Shilpa Phadke

Crossing Days by Thomas Dai

Inside the Indian Manosphere by Lhendup Bhatia

Optimism and Desperation by Camilla Grudova

Everyone is Cheating Their Way Through College by James Walsh

Blunt-Force Ethnic Credibility by Som-Mai Nguyen

When My Authentic is Your Exotic by Soniah Kamal

The discontent of Russia by Joy Neumeyer

On anti-political projects by Kat Rosenfield

'Correcting' historical wrongs is a slippery slope by Manu Pillai

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some more:

Social media and the collapse of ritual

Where are Lucy's friends in Materialists?

Sociologism Literature by Harry Schiller

Passion and Palestine by Derek Penslar

New TV Novels by Lisa Borst

From Progress to Catastrophe by Perry Anderson

The Crane Wife by CJ Hauser

The Trouble with Friends by Weike Wang

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coming back to tumblr after years feels weird but also where else could I do such good brain dumps? like that is literally what this site is for and I am HERE FOR IT

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my safe place 🐱