Do you want to be interesting or happy?
Each one has its price because to be interesting, you need to understand that happiness is boring
People are diagnosing themselves with mental disorders to seem more appealing
People only ask how you doing just to hear you say you’re fine because if you told them the truth they would grow comfortable
Your anxiety is a blanket that feels comforting while it suffocates you
The school tells you to tell the bullies to stop but how do you stop yourself from thinking?
If you’re unlucky enough to fall in love the only thing you’ll be able to think about is if they’ll leave
People say self harm and think sad girls and cuts on their arm not about the isolation you put yourself through to avoid uncertainty
God forbid you speak your mind because some people might be afraid of the dark
Do you want to be interesting or happy?
Because to be both, people accuse you of being fake
Like the dolls on the shelf we’re meant to sit down and shut up
We live in a box society that lets us see nothing but the walls it’s confined us in
The drawings on the left are art and pure
But the scribbles on the right wall of graffiti and unclean
Are they both not expressions of oneself, so to say I don’t one is superior is to say that only one individual is allowed to show how they feel
While the other is shunned for being dirty, ugly and unknown
They romanticise mental illness as something that can be fixed by the love of a good man
But they don’t tell you the difference between love and codependence
Do you want to be interesting or happy?
You don’t view happiness as an emotion, more like an abstract concept you have no way of grasping
Your depression is not a feeling, more of a result of feeling nothing
I wish on a star feels about as hopeful as wishing on a star and you could go on a road that took you to nowhere
Don’t say that mental illness can be cured if you just smiled more
That “faking it till you make it” actually works because if it did, you’d be better by now
A whole life spent playing pretend but only being interesting if you fit into the box labelled ‘misfits’
The same box that shapes society
The same box that dictates what you can and cannot do
The very same box that said you are unlovable because you aren’t interesting
Do you want to be interesting or happy?
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