Carmen

Figuring out life, one day at a time!

[carmella28]

So I haven’t wrote on here for such a long time but I just felt the need to today. Life is good! I normally come here when it’s bad but today is different.

Life is so good right now that I just needed to write it down. This week especially has been amazing! I hit my 2 stone marker in my weight loss journey. I’m raising money for charity by walking 50 miles for charity over the month of March which has helped me get out of the house more and I never thought I would enjoy walking so much. I got a bonus from work and a pay rise. Cementing it in even more that I done the right thing leaving my previous job and I’ve got a date tomorrow with a really nice guy.

I’m currently out walking and so far I’ve done about 5 miles. I’ve just stopped by this little lake. Whilst it’s not the prettiest of lakes it’s given me a minute to just stop and reflect on how much happier and healthier I feel. It’s reminded me that we may not be perfect but we all have a certain beauty in our own way.

Signing of for now a happier and healthier me 💜

[carmella28]

So here we are at the start of 2022! Where did 2021 go?? It went by so fast!

2021 was the year I really began focusing on my career and I’m finally working for a business that is allowing me to do that.

I’m excited to see what 2022 has in store for me!

Some goals I’m setting for this new year:

. Loose weight to become a healthier, happier me

. Saving more money with the goal of getting my own place ASAP

. Progressing further in my new career

. Making plans and start living life again now that we are hopefully coming out the other side of this pandemic

When I think back to the best year I’ve had it was 2019. There was so many memories made that year and since the pandemic started I feel like I’ve stopped living.

This year I not only want to start living life again and making memories but I want to finally start living for the future and not just the present. I want to start building foundations for my future and stop thinking of others all the time and putting myself at the bottom of the list.

I need to put myself first because the only person that will be living my future is me.

Wishing myself the most successful year yet! Bring it on 2022!!

[carmella28]

So 5 weeks into my new job and they called a meeting this morning asking me to take on my own account. This is huge after only being with the business for just over a month. I couldn’t be any more happier. Life really is getting better.

[carmella28]

It’s been 4 months since I last posted here and a lots changed in that time. Last time I came here to write my thoughts I wasn’t in a very good place, I was struggling at work and I was feeling even more lonely than usual due to the pandemic. But in between the posts I made on my off days I also spoke about my goals and ambitions and what I was trying to create of my life.

4 months have passed. I left my shitty job that was dragging me down. They were not valuing me or harnessing my skills/potential so I went to work somewhere that does. I’m a month into my new job and I honestly have not been this happy for the last 4 & half years. The world has opened back up, plans are being made, friends and family are being celebrated and cherished and trips are being booked & planned.

My life is not as I want it to be, not by any means but I am a couple steps closer and I cannot wait to see where i am this time next year. I can’t wait to see the person I become and read back on the person I used to be.

💜

[carmella28]

So it’s been a while since I posted on here. I find myself coming here mainly when life isn’t going to plan. I suppose it’s not necessarily a bad thing, it’s good to have some sort of outlet even if it is just writing down my thoughts on the internet.

I’ve been struggling to just function recently, I feel constantly tired and deflated and no matter what I do I just don’t seem to be able to change it.

Its not the best time for this all to be happening either if I’m honest. I’m going up for a promotion at work, needing to sell the best version of myself when to be honest I feel like the worst at the moment.

I’m trying to take each day as it comes, waiting for things to get better, trying to make things better. Maybe I’m just sick of constantly having to try. Life for others appears so easy, yet I feel as though mine has always been a sort of battle. Battling to be like others, battling to have all the things that I want that others have.

Wondering if/when things will work out for me for once....

[thoughtkick]

“I am afraid I will be like this forever.”

— Sierra DeMulder, “Today Means Amen”

[carmella28]

I’ve just finished After Ever Happy and I am a mess!! What an incredible set of story’s! It could not of ended more perfectly, it gave me everything and more that I could of wanted for an ending. This story has had so many ups and downs I felt almost as though I needed closure and I’m so happy that Anna Todd gave the readers exactly that.

Such a beautiful story.

Life and love isn’t perfect and sometimes it’s better to be perfectly imperfect.

“Whatever our souls are made off, his and mine are the same”

💜

[thehopefulquotes]

“It will suddenly work out for you. You’re going to come out on top. Be ready for incredible changes to happen in your life.”

— Unknown (via theperfeqtquotes)

[carmella28]

Constantly growing and bettering myself all whilst fulfilling my dreams 💜

[carmella28]

So some guy just tried scamming me on here and I realised that the internet really is a shitty place to be, even more so as a woman. Scammers are disgusting at the best of times but to try do that in times like these when people are going through hard times as it is, is sooo wrong. Not only did I block and report him I also went through and messaged every single person he was following to give them a heads up. He messed with the wrong girl 🤣

I was lucky enough to notice what he was doing but others may not be so please people be careful about who you are speaking to on here and some advice, if something sounds too good to be true that’s normally because it is!

[carmella28]

Spent the weekend watching the whole twilight saga! I’d say that was a perfect use of my time right? 🤣 in all seriousness I feel like a 14 year old girl again, absolutely obsessed with Robert Pattinson and completely game for becoming a vampire!

[bumblebeetights]

me before you | jojo moyes 

“So I held him, Will Traynor, ex-City whiz kid, ex-stunt diver, sportsman, traveller, lover. I held him close and said nothing, all the while telling him silently that he was loved. Oh, but he was loved”

(insp.)

[carmella28]

My favourite book 💜

“You only get one life. It’s actually your duty to live it as fully as possible”

[carmella28]

Is it weird that I have library’s on my bucket list 🤣 The first picture is of The New York Public Library, it’s pretty impressive and straight out of the movies but the piece de resistance is the George Peabody Library at John Hopkins University, Maryland. Not only is it stunning but imagine the books it holds! 📚

[carmella28]

So I’m really into my horoscopes! I know some people think it’s a load of shit but at the moment I’m up for any kind of guidance I can get.

Today’s horoscope told me that there would developments in my career life and that my financial situation would improve.

This afternoon I received a free lottery ticket and was headhunted for a new job! Just randomly out of the blue.

I didn’t take the job as it was less money than I’m currently earning but it helped me have some confidence that things are on the right track and are going the way that they should be.

Sometimes when other people’s lives around you are changing for the better and yours is a little stuck in one place it can feel like your falling behind the rest of the pack. But I think I’m starting to realise that we are all writing our own story’s and if every book was the same then that would be pretty boring 📚

[carmella28]

A sunny day with blue skys!! It feels like such a long time since we’ve had any sun. I love the fact that just by the clouds moving and the sun shining a little brighter it almost makes you forget about all the bad that’s happening ☀️

[delicateanthropologyforpoetry]

[purenoiserecords]

Classic

[carmella28]

All the 2K8 emo’s know that when this absolute banger comes on, times are hard!