I’m Back at an all time low (or high i suppose)
Hey, It’s been a minute. So lots of things have happened in the past 5 years and i quite frankly forgot about this page, Quite frankly the progress I made 5 years ago has been wiped and then some.
I weighed myself yesterday and found myself at 365 pounds. Nearly triple what I should weigh. More pounds than there are degrees in a circle, which is sobering. It’s time to draw my line in the sand. I’m 27, no longer in college and only have myself to hold me accountable.
So here’s what we’re gonna do.
Week 1-2
- only eat when I’m hungry. End of discussion. [My hunger cues are shot. I’m well aware of this. Snacking is constant, leading to my next point.]
- Make snack a nuisance to get too. [I like connivence, and honestly who doesn’t, so let’s make the snack harder to reach. I can’t stop buying them, that won’t improve my self control and may just lead to me gorging myself on them later. So the are going on the highest shelf at the back of the pantry.]
- make walking a habit. [I’ll introduce exercise later, if I do everything at once I’ll burn myself out. I work a desk job. And probably leave only leave my desk 4-6 times a day. My phone says i average 1,500 steps a day. My 1st goal is to simply double this average. I plan to achieve this with 3 small changes. using the upstairs restroom during the workday so I can take the stairs. Take a few minutes of my lunch hour to walk around the building and some time after I get off work to do it again at the end of the day.]
- write down what I eat and how many calories it is. [I’ll probably use my fitness pal at the end of the day to calculate everything because I need to know my base line but I’m looking into other apps cuz my fitness pals interface doesn’t really jive with my brain. After about a week or two I’ll start adjusting meals and snacks for healthier decisions. Then after about a month I’ll start making calorie goals.]
-find my gym clothes.
Why do I want to do this?
This isn’t solely about losing weight. I want to be healthy. I want to be able to say sure let’s walk to the convenience store when my friend asks even tho it’s hot. I want to be able to zip around my apartment because I’m so excited about whatever craft I’m doing. I don’t wanna worry about squeezing into the backseat of a small car with two other people. I don’t want to feel embarrassed when I put on a loaner lab coat and jacket when I’m visiting my jobs production line and the biggest one is too small. I don’t want to feel relieved when I’m not the biggest person in the room. I don’t want to time my finishing a meal so I’m not the first or last on done when out to dinner with friend. I want to just be with our worrying about how much space I take up. I remember the last time I got up off the floor with no hands, Halloween 3 years ago. I used to be able to put my foot on my knee while sitting in a chairs to tie my shoes. Little things I didn’t even think about. I’m 27 darn it and I want to be move freely. To dance and not tire in one minute. To hold really long notes while signing. I want live man.
Long term Goals (May update later)
have to buy new clothes
Work up to 10,000 steps a day
follow the USDA nutritional guidelines
Be able to cross my legs at my knees
Weigh 135lbs smack dab in the middle of a health BMI for my height.
Well, it’s Wednesday June 11th 2025 and I think I’ve ranted long enough. Time to get cracking
~stay bright bitches.
