Crying in bed like I said I would bc I know imma fuck this up!! Bc I didn't take care of myself like I was supposed to, bc I always think of the past, bc I still get excited when I see people bleeding down their thighs on this site and wanna play a game of match with them!! In my soul I am still this young girl who got fucked over at every turn and had to pretend to be nice to girls I could never be and I'm so so so so so scared every day and if we could just be tangible i
I closed my eyes and focused on your breathing. I imagined that we were cheek to shoulder, my cheek and that spot which holds heads so nicely but grows so uncomfortable that it is inevitably pulled away, rolled away, etc. You turned away in this instance, left me with my thoughts. Thoughts of pressing my face into your back, my arms tucked between you and my chest, the safest place for a while. I miss you now more than ever. How can I say that. You grew and I didn't. I hope you don't realize.
