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“Then now is the perfect time for you to figure out who you are without it, or figure out a way to have it in some way. I guess now is the time to figure out who Carter Andrews really is in addition to a dad and a guy that likes football.” Roni chuckled. “Hey I’m just trying to be a friend and conversational. I didn’t know that question was off limits between friends.” Roni was silent as he spoke about love, the fun loving demeanor she had slipped away. “I’ve actually been on both sides of that. Both sets of parents I had loved each other. My parents love each other they’ve been married forever. And my bio parents they loved each other just…my mom was murdered. I see love all around me, but I’ve been that person not romantically but even platonically where something changes and people just stop loving you. And I’ve also been the person that someone loved and you try so fucking hard to love them back, but you feel nothing…just…emptiness. Love is never a guarantee and it’s why it freaks me out so much because love and I have never been good friends. It’s always a risk. I don’t know Hale is…different. I can be me with him. I don’t think about the future. I used to live day to day, but now I find myself planning and thinking days to weeks in advance. I want him to know my kid, my life. I showed him my scars and he showed me his. But I’m terrified to let people in because they leave me. I mean I guess if I’m thinking about it in terms of is being with him worth the risk then yes. My life has been all risk lately and I don’t know if I like it.”
“Yeah but... honestly I got no idea how to even begin to do that,” Carter shrugged, he rolled his eyes at her reply but it didn’t have any real bite to it, and he raised a teasing eyebrow when she declared them friends. “Yeah, I don’t think we’re going to be locker room talk kind of friends,” he chuckled, he just didn't want to admit the last time was when they were both under his stupid wish. “Unless you are an adrenaline junkie, not many people like risks but you just answered both questions so,” he shrugged. “All that it leaves is to... you know... be brave and take the leap or something like that... You know when I'm not sure what to do, I try to imagine what I would do or say if TB was the one with the predicament and came to me for answers because you know? Lead by example and all that, so imagine it was TB in a similar situation hopefully thousands of years into the future, and she felt a similar way to you about love and come to you being confused about what to do, what would you say?”














