Okay, so, I don’t even know why I’m writing this, but I gotta get it out, cuz it made me feel like no matter what I’m facing, or how rough a patch I’m going through. If I have a slightly — if not a lot — optimistic approach toward life, maybe, just maybe I’ll survive all the shit life has in store to throw at me. Which is not to say it isn’t right now (more on this later). And this thought isn’t just confined to me. It is for all of you out there going through some sort of or dealing with life’s lame ass bullshit. Anyway, here’s a lil cute— fluffy —however you wanna view it as — event of my life.
So, I was sitting in my room hating on my life. Going on out loud about how crappy my life had turned out to be — I was in my early twenties here — all the while my little NINE year old cousin — who’s sitting right beside me playing a game on his phone —quietly listens to me cursing up a storm at my life. At one point I say, “I’m nothing. I’m this years old and I have nothing to show for it, meanwhile kids younger than me are more successful than me.”
My cousin — still listening — lets me complain about everything down to a T, and only after I’ve finished ranting goes (with his eyes still fixed on the mobile screen), “who said you’ve got nothing? You’re the owner of your website.” And although a mere website isn’t something to feel proud of, I was still floored by the implication— at least I’m trying, that I have something I’m working on. I was here thinking about how my life isn’t going anywhere and this little nine-year-old kid pushes shit into perspective like, wow! As long as I’ve got even a grain’s worth of good going on in my life, I should be hopeful of the future and happy.
P.S. I won’t say I’m doing great in life - life has its highs and lows, that’s a given and you can’t do shit about it. But I’m in a much better place now than I was at 23. You’ll figure it out one moment at a time. I think we’ll be okay;)
