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It's back and I'm completely and utterly sad. Certain people bring it back and I guess it's my own fault for letting them get to me. I just cry for no reason and sometimes I cry for a reason. My friends mostly make me cry. I cry because they don't care or they don't care on the level that I want them to. I cry because I'm angry, or I cry because I'm confused. I mostly cry because I'm never going to have anybody, and like I don't like codependency but it's nice to have someone, but I'm scared of having someone. I'm scared of intimacy and sex, mostly sex and I know I'm only 15 going on 16 but it's going to happen at some point and I'm dreading it. I hate when people touch me and a lot of intimacy and touching goes into sex and it scares the shit out of me. I cry because I'm self-conscious and I don't seem self conscious because I have the attitude sometimes where I don't care what others think but in reality I do care, everyone cares. I could lose the weight but I'm too lazy and my motivation level is at an all time low. I know I should lose the weight for myself, but I don't need to impress myself and I know that if you find someone they will like you for you, but I need to like me for me. And I'm just not there yet and I don't know when I will be. But right now I'm numb, numb to everything and I just want to curl up into a ball and never get up. I don't think I will post this, it's just a mental note for myself to reflect back on. And I'm getting help but I don't know if it will be enough I hate talking to people about my issues and talking to someone isn't going to be enough.

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“My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to find peace with exactly who and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws and to stop this incessant worrying that I can’t be loved as I am.”

— Anaïs Nin

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Book: The Pain of Healing by Samantha Camargo on amazon 💛

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Poems for the Signs by Michaela Angemeer

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“We see this process play out when an individual is impacted by trauma or grief; often their family, friends, and coworkers begin to orbit a little further out, afraid of the powerful gravitational pull of traumatic pain. As the ‘check-ins’ get fewer, conversations get more superficial, interactions get briefer, and other people 'move on’ with their lives, the grieving or traumatized person feels increasingly isolated and alone.”

— What Happened To You? by Bruce D. Perry and Oprah Winfrey