I was thinking about writing about why our alters don't talk about ourselves or refer to ourselves in particular. Obviously alters are a big part of this disorder, but as a collective, the conditioning of silence, is so extreme, and the discomfort, so immense, that the only people that hear who is fronting or about us, ect, are extremely close friends. Not even family - our close family members know we have this disorder, but even with them, we don't say who is fronting, or when we switch, or talk about the differences between us. If they ask who is fronting we'll often say but the question is very uncomfortable for us. It's even uncomfortable to respond as individual alters with the psychologist who diagnosed us - working on it, but, not comfortable at all. I envy those whose systems are more willing or able to talk to others and about themselves as parts.
We work a lot on inner communication, passive influence, and trying to help sort out gaps in memory between us, and system dynamics. We track fronting - completely, and it's probably not always accurate, it's just our best guess. But I couldn't imagine us signing off with who is fronting or doing introductions. It's terrifying to even imagine being "out" about having this disorder. The only times I've switched to publically using we instead of I is when our mental state is too unstable for us to moderate our behavior or how overt we are.
I think it's great when people's alters are comfortable sharing online and it's probably cathartic or therapeutic for most people, but for us it's just not something we're interested in doing right now. This blog is probably going to be about stuff other than our alters specifically, and will likely just address the things we struggle with. This is just a tangent if anyone does follow me and wants to know why we don't like "coming out" about ourselves or sharing about ourselves as specific alters/parts.