i light a match, and i wish it all away

[catnipcrime]

hello.

you can call me nix/nyx or something else entirely if you want. (and if you know me by a different name, feel free to keep calling me that.) i'm also 29, white, TME, and go by they/them or any pronouns.

some descriptors i use for myself are queer, neurodivergent, and disabled. i'm also engaged to @woofelss, but they don't use this website much. i spend too much time playing video games but i'm still not any good at them. some other more general interests include music (i take voice lessons on and off and am learning bass), alt fashion, writing, streaming (i'm a vtuber), reading, and more. due to my anhedonia, it's pretty hard for me to get into anything, so i often don't have many (or any) current and specific interests, but i'm trying to work on that.

notes: reblogs are okay if they're turned on! i’m also very bad at responding to messages for multiple reasons, but i do appreciate any messages sent to me. i’d also like to thank everyone who has sent me a message for their patience! please only follow if you’re 18+, and i’ll probably only follow back if you’re 20+.

links

about page

other blogs:

@spirallibrary (studyblr/journalblr / inactive)

@nixcrossing (ac blog / mostly active?)

@doggonedifficultquest (okami blog / mostly active?)

i'm also a vtuber and have a blog for that! feel free to ask for the url.

other sites:

twitter | instagram | bluesky | the storygraph | my anime list | anilist | serializd | rate your music | letterboxd | backloggd | infinite backlog | retro achievements

credits:

icon: jiuzhuario / dividers: @ianrkives / okami gif: NatalyaTheRieten73 on da

[liones-s]

one of the most boring lessons I’ve learned is that when a task feels overwhelming, you just have to start doing it. Even if you’re not sure how to do 90% of it, look for one small component that seems close and start there. Sometimes it’s reading one article on the topic, or searching one related term, or literally just googling how to do the task. Do anything other than thinking about it. The process of working on a thing inherently makes it less scary.

[catnipcrime]

my therapist wants me to try art therapy because i keep blanking out in the middle of trying to explain things in therapy. she suggested a few, and one sounds pretty cool. i've done a little art therapy in my IOP and liked it but still don't really know what to expect from going to one-on-one art therapy.

[catnipcrime]

ty all for the happy birthday comments!!

[catnipcrime]

happy birthday, me. i guess.

[alchemillas]

promo for jane?

[catnipcrime]

i've been playing a lot of poe and poe 2. i wish i had something to say about them so i could post something, but nope, i don't.

[catnipcrime]

i will take a shower. i will take a shower.

[rottencore]

hey everyone, idk what to do right now. I'm overdrafted by $17 and I need to get meds again so I can eat ($35), sorry to ask again but can anyone help out with these? if anything, the overdraft I really don't want to get a fee :( thank you all as always

0/$52

pp: EWilliams990

ca: $halloweed

[holoshift]

lol, so I got kicked off the wifi and I need 40 dollars to pay my phone bill in the next few days; I wont. e able to post or do art or contact anyone at all unless I get this sorted asap.

I have commissions open if youd like to help otherwise please boost.

$shinybynature

ppl: [email protected]

[holoshift]

https://ko-fi.com/holoshift/commissions I got comms open w/ a 10% discount as well

[holoshift]

making this a general dono post bc I need help w a lot of things lol, in a v toxic living situation rn that is wearing on my patner and i's mental health a lot and growing progressively more hostile.

Please donate or commission me so I can get my life sorted so I can move out please.

[darkin]

I need 50 to cover transportation to sign for some documents, I know I just had a post but as I'm still trying to get out of my living situation, places of support or etc keep requiring in-person meetings for stuff like this

I can provide Lyft receipts as needed

5/50

[catnipcrime]

with how bad my sleep has been lately, it feels like i spend 1/3 of my time exhausted, miserable, and waiting to fall asleep at night.

[sammiesweetheart]

[achillesinhighheels]

sorry i never replied. everyday is blending together and i'm losing sense of time

[catnipcrime]

it's hard to function when it seems like no matter what i do, i keep going in and out of sleep. i can't even talk to my partner without often falling asleep in the middle of it.

[02void]

they are cutting down my favorite tree. im really upset

[snototter]

A luna moth (Actias luna) in New York, USA

by Alex Roukis