I’m gonna get attacked lol
fiOfficially sacrificing my dignity for this.
Also this check this out because it’s basically everything I say here lol and no, I’m not after credit—but I want to state some of my opinions/thoughts where I’ll use that tweet as my reference.
Let’s get this done with.
So I was actually rereading the manga all over again, especially the arcs where season 4 that consists of 16? episodes won’t be able to cover.
Will be talking about 122, 137 and 138 (since I’ll be setting them as my reference points for the manga panels)
I love to ask myself questions, but I came upon myself asking;
Yes I know that she does want freedom, but thing is;
“What does she really want?”
So imma do a take on this.
(I’m not as big brain as anyone lol srsly I’m already failing at school—but here I am)
In my POV, what I think she wants is what life is.
Like what does life bring? Why is living life important?
“What do they mean when they say, “Live your life to the fullest?”
In her timeline, growing up in a nature with cruelty and selfishness becoming a norm for people, she starts to slowly see that life is cheap and it could easily be thrown away as long as someone with enough power could do so.
Loving was impossible in such nature.
But one thing seemed to have an impact on her.
A couple kissing, showing their love for each other.
This quite changed her perspective about life, regarding love or feelings for someone.
That no matter how cruel this world is, love will show the beauty of itself.
Because of course, when reading love stories or watching romantic movies we’d see it as beautiful (not all of us, I mean I, myself, find them cringy lol jkjk)
For her, even if it’s just a plain couple kissing, it was big enough to let her know that such thing exists no matter the nature of the world—whether cruel or not.
But let’s take a look at her backstory where she had quite the opposite of what she wants where she waited 2000 years for someone or some people to show her.
1. Freedom (What is its value?)
They said she was “free”, but it turns out it wasn’t freedom at all. She was only used as a tool for people to practice hunting. She was still a slave, a tool to be used for something.
2. Purpose/Meaning of life (Why were we all born?)
In this one, in her times after she got her titan powers, used as a tool for war to crush Marley, she became pregnant and bore the king’s child.
This is why when Maria (assuming it is because it looks like it) was born, she didn’t smile.
She’s probably wondering, “Whats the purpose of being born? To grow up and multiply? To have something to keep living for? Then die?”
Where this was also said by Zeke to Armin:
But I also wonder what Kenny meant by here:
The “something” he said must be what purpose is.
Maybe for Ymir, the reason why she kept going must be because she kept following King Fritz’ orders in order to try to live.
Even when King Fritz was gone, she continued following orders from descendants that were from the bloodline of royal blood (Fritz/Reiss is basically the same thing)
(Ok I just love Kenny lol)
3. Love (What is unconditional love?)
Something King Fritz never showed to her.
She was only a concubine, a low-class for him.
Not his wife—not even a queen to rule by his side.
(Pic also connected to no. 2 lol)
For him, she was still a slave.
Not someone to share mutual feelings with.
Also connecting this no. 2, the king said, “Rise. Work. That is why you were born.” which is clearly her PURPOSE for him and which became her mindset.
(Gurl even she got that titan power, she could never defy him)
For 2000 years, she must’ve been seeking for the true meaning behind the 3 I have mentioned, why she longed for someone to show them.
For her to see or even experience it herself.
Even watching and knowing what it is will do for her.
Which now brings me to EMA, what they’ve done to show her the meaning of the three.
My favorite guy, Eren Freedom Yeager—
Anyway, of course the one to show the meaning of freedom will be Eren (too obvious man)
Looking back to 122, he clearly said these which made Ymir finally make her first ever choice out of free will.
No she doesn’t want to end this world nor does Eren want to (don’t take their words and actions literally)
She wasn’t a slave out of her choice, it was their system from before that brought her to being one.
When she got her titan powers, it’s as if she was a walking goddess who had a choice to crush Marley out of the Eldian king’s prayers or something.
Basically if you prayed and prayed (depends on any religion if you do this, BUT for me, this is what I do lol) you’ll get your wish.
And his wish was to crush Marley using her power.
Which she clearly did making her look like a goddess or something in the range.
This is when Ymir finally got what she also longed for, someone to treat her as a human, not a tool to win wars, not to be a tool to use to bear the king’s children.
What was something Eren gave her to have be described as “showing her what freedom is”?
Eren gave her the right to choose whether to stay or end it all.
Knowing Ymir would still need an order to do so (idk I assume it again lol), Eren decided to order her to have her own free will and decide for herself. (Violet Evergarden intensifies)
And of course, since she was asked and given the right to choose, she picked the one where she feels like a better choice—end it all.
“You must have been waiting all this time. Waiting 2000 years just for someone.”
Yes, Eren. She’s been waiting 2000 years for you to show her what the value of freedom is and what it is like to decide on your own instead of following orders.
It was a reaction of being glad that finally, after years of waiting, someone finally understood her and treated her as a human—someone who doesn’t see her as a tool to do something—not a fodder.
She finally understood the value of freedom, what it’s importance to life is.
So she could choose things she’ll regret the least or what she thinks is the right call in a situation.
2. Purpose/Meaning of life, what makes it beautiful?
In this one, let’s recall 137.
Armin and Zeke’s conversation.
So while Armin and Zeke while talking to each other about what is life’s purpose and all those stuff—I’m assuming Ymir was listening to their conversation.
And maybe it wasn’t only Zeke who realized this, but Ymir as well.
That even if times could be cruel and you’d rather be doing the same thing, as long as it makes you happy, you’d still find yourself smiling despite being hurt by the world.
Since I assumed Ymir was listening to this, she finally understood that even something as simple and meaningless to others, as long as it meant something for you, it deserves to be cherished even if it were simple and boring to the eyes of others.
She finally understood another thing that makes life beautiful.
It’s the memories you made and cherished that could be your strength to move on and how life deserves to be seen all throughout—even if the world despises you.
That you set the purpose of your life, not others, because you have the freedom to do so.
She might’ve not experienced this, but at least she heard it from someone who did and what their thoughts about it were.
Something that she also wanted to see for herself.
She wanted to know if it was indeed possible to love in this cruel world.
If you can still love someone who decided to let you go to become a monster for others.
And with a simple act such as “kissing” (ignore the fact it’s a severed head gfdi), it made her believe that through life, you could find someone to share mutual feelings with, to love someone.
And how it’s not easy to live life without someone to love.
Because a loved one is your source of strength.
Your motivation to anything.
And this exactly made her smile.
She saw it herself, unconditional love.
Even if they became a monster—or is a monster—as long as you love them, you’d be able to forgive them and show them that for you, they’re a human.
Let’s see what Ymir did after getting things she have longed for.
So since Eren showed her what it’s like to decide for your own, she helped him by lending her power to him.
For Armin, he showed/told her that life itself has a meaning and purpose and that is yours to decide what it would be, and the beauty of the memories you cherished.
Therefore, she helped him by letting past titan shifters fight with them in order to stop the rumbling.
But what would she do for Mikasa? Since she’s smiling, I assume it was because she finally completed the puzzle she’s been trying to solve ever since.
And it was about what life truly is and why people were born in the first place.
Manifesting my answer would be on ch.139 of what she’d do for Mikasa.
Goodbye my dignity I did something so dumb I’m embarrassed.
