Unbetitelt

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hi!! i just had an episode and was scrolling through the skin picking tag, and i wanted to say thank you for your post about picking, with the photos. i feel like i usually don’t see people talking about picking areas other than the face or hands, and it made me feel less alone.

clearly i’m still working on this, but a couple things that have helped me is wearing socks, putting on lots of lotion, and using tweezers to trim dead skin instead of picking with my fingers. (the last one i’ve been doing recently and it has helped so much. it’s a lot harder to accidentally go overboard/get carried away because i’m paying attention to what i’m doing).

anyway, i get it and my feet hurt too.

Thank you so much! We got this

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When you realise escaping your life and travelling to the other side of the world won‘t make the depression go away

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TW// skin picking images

Does anyone have an advice on how to redirect the picking urge? Cause my feet hurt like hell ngl

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Welcome to another episode of ✨do I want to be with them or do I want to be them✨

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Like I’m sorry but what am I supposed to say when you come home and the first thing you say to me is how I never do something in this household? But yk what I kinda got used to that by now you know what really makes my stomach tighten up and what really gets my mind to tell me I am a horrible person? You telling me that you’ve been awake since 4am because you don’t agree with where I see myself in the future. And how you don’t agree with my plans like that would make me reconsider anything besides the way I see MYSELF. The only thing you made me think about is how terrible of a child I must be to do this to you and how I can dare to dream my own dreams and plan to live my own life if you the person that allegedly gave me everything doesn’t agree with those dreams, with those plans. I know you say you only want the best for me but trust me. I know what is best for me or at least I know what I can do to feel less miserable. I know you want me to get a good job and be able to afford everything I might want but mum... I do want to go to university.. I do want to pursue the career that I was always passionate about and that I’ve been talking to you about since I was 8 years old. Please! I know you want the best for me. But what seems best to you is not the best for me. mum. please. just listen to me this once! please.

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I'm so sick of myself rather be rather be anyone anyone else jealousy JEALOUSY

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Why do I have such a hard time setting boundaries with people I barely know? It hurts so much to have someone tell me that but I didn’t even notice. Why can’t I just understand it?

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Found this diary entry from September 2021  TW://sh, parent issues, $uicidal ideation, mental struggles, topics connected to those above

How the fuck are you as a human being able to look your child in the eyes and tell them that something they did at 10 years old betrayed you and that their mental health problems are the result of their own actions?! How can you do this to your own child. I seriously just can’t understand. Our relationship was getting so much better lately and you just said this to me. Why do you always do this? I really can’t figure out your motivation behind it. Instead of showing me you support me and want to help me fight my struggles. I really think you don’t understand the difference between doing something for your mental health and doing something against mental illness. What you just did is DISGUSTING and I just wish you would be ashamed of yourself for doing this to me. You told me the meds are a bad decision swell and that I’m gonna regret starting to take them. You just fucking told me I am NOT SICK ENOUGH. You know what the first thought was that came to mind when you said this? To try and fucking kill myself. I imagined you finding me with slit wrists and thinking to yourself ‘why would she do something like that?’ I did it because you didn’t think I was fucking sick enough. If I was sicker then I am now I would quite literally be dead by now. I wish I was by now. I really do. 

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literally all i did throughout the last few weeks as a reaction to not feeling great was either shaving my head or getting piercings like why can I pls just get another hyperfixation episode? Cause most of the time they fucking suck but the last time I had one I got an A in my history class and finished the homework of the two weeks before that

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🐜Am I trans core 🐜

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Okay okay okay so.. real question: how does one know if they are trans? Bc I felt felt like I might be for some time. Lately I had a lot of problems thinking about the facts that I‘ll never be able to just lay in bed topless and have a flat chest. I know it sound kinda weird but anyways. But then there r days where I feel comfortable with the way my body is and where I feel okay about tight tops and dresses. But then again there are days where I put a skirt on and have a literal meltdown. So how does one know? How can I know? How can I be sure? Like I just need some answers pls

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I actually feel like I might actually be getting better this time. At least that’s how it feels. I just really hope so

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Well… guess what. I didn’t get better. Surprise 🤠

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I actually feel like I might actually be getting better this time. At least that’s how it feels. I just really hope so

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TW//sh

One of the worst parts of sh for me is when the wounds heal too fast. It has always been this way for me with every kind of injury but how can i have blood dripping down my arm one day and then not being able to see the wound on my arm the next?

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I’m just a little tired you know