weekender high waisted denim shorts/ dreamweaver bucket bag/ studded jelly sandals/ mesh bralette
My latest haul from Nastygal during this period of exams.
Semester 1 always gets me broke - never ending demand for toffee nut lattes, retail therapy to keep me sane, major arsenal of groceries and stationary to tide me through hall life, going out for good dinners as a reprieve...ouch $$$ sigh I definitely need to work over the holidays
Then again, I'd like to think that I actually do deserve all these. I've been adhering to a strict regiment of waking up early at about 7 to study all the way to about 10 at night. And I've been doing that everyday for two and a half weeks. Ain't nobody interested in this mug life. The best part is that I am only Year 2 Semester 1 jeeeeeeeeez there's a long way to go just to complete my undergraduate degree. On top of that I'm seriously considering doing a graduate degree in law / masters in acting so I foresee a long school life ahead. I'm probably at an identity moratorium - exploration of interests without any commitment, so I'm just going ahead with everything.
Yesterday I took a day-off to just chill-out and my parents brought me back to Toa Payoh. That neighbourhood is such a depository of memories for me. On my way I passed by the block of flats I used to live in Bishan and I had the Bak Kut Teh I've always had as a child at a nearby food centre and I even passed by my old kindergarten (although it is now a product of modernisation). I really had a pleasant time reminiscing in awe and indulging myself in the prevalent sense of nostalgia.
Although I had to say that it was tainted with embarrassing recollections of the film shoots I did in Toa Payoh. (And before I forget, I got praised by my tutor who told me up front that he enjoyed my acting and it was one of the highlights of the film and yes!!! I was speaking chinese!!! Global stage here I come) It was such a bittersweet feeling. In one of the isolated car parks nearby, it was also the place where I got caught by the police for making out behind a van hahahahaha. I was so red-faced I wanted to just crawl in the hole and die but fine it's actually quite funny looking back at it. Definitely one of the most crazy-teen moments in my life.
I think that during periods of stress; where you're hard-pressed to accomplish things, the mind seems to wander around a lot. I've been thinking a lot, about everything and nothing all at once.
"I was very ballsy when I was younger, it was the typical kind of stubborn that comes with being a teenager, you're just an idiot and you think 'yeah, I'm gonna be an actress and that's what's going to happen' and just have no concept of failure and now I have every kind of concept of failure. You just become more aware of your mortality as you get older like you're little and you're so brave and you jump on any wild horse and go ride on motorcycles and then you get a little bit older and you realise how fragile your job is, how fragile your life is and you get more careful"
p.s. Why is my hair always in a mess?! I'm thinking of growing it out, cutting bangs and curling it but that could spell disaster depending how it turns out
p.p.s Happy 20th Elizobird!!! You are amazing and beyond words. I love you to the moon and back and reply my whatsapp!!!