x-faded boy

" do you wanna die? " asked the girl on the hotline.

[ccruelgods]

" and yes, i took my meds. "

› traumagenic HC-DID system.

› 16.

› collective name is dialtone/rust system.

› resident bpd, hpd and ppd haver.

› current host(s): c, sayaka.

• • •

[ tags simplified ]

proxy.txt - talking tag, or text posts that remind them of themself.

proxy.png - pictures that remind them of themself.

proxy.sav (or proxy.save ) - saved posts for each person.

proxy.vent / proxy.rant - vent & rant posts.

proxy.jpg / proxy.mp4 - sys art and animations.

• • • [freq posters] • • •

"C" | Charles | Eyler • he/it • persecutor + trauma holder • multifictive • ( * )

Flores | Riliane • she/star • memory holder + soother • flores (sacredhyacinth) fictive • ( 🌟 )

GR3Y | Serial • he/they/she • trauma holder + persecutor • multifictive [sources private] • (❔/ aubrey.tag* )

Sayaka | Nero • she/her • trauma + memory holder • sayaka miki ( pmmm) fictive • ( 🌊 )

( *i.e: aubrey.txt, aubrey.png. )

• • • [ dni ] • • •

❌: do not follow nor message us if you associate with christmasgrave/autobluephobia/originalred/mikiappreciation/pokepastaparty and whatever the fuck their other blogs are. they were abusive in multiple ways and toxic towards us and a close friend of ours for roughly 2+ years, we want nothing to do with them.

❌: do not follow not message us if you are radqueer, "pro-endo", engage in needless syscourse, proshipper/ship problematic shit, etc.

• • • [ interests ] • • •

chonny jash/HMS/GWTLNH

Portal/Portal 2

alter ego/alter ego complex

VTSOM/TWDAK

Hello Charlotte

Dead Plate

Greek Mythology/The Oddessy

Yume Nikki/YNFGs

PMMM

Weevildoing

• • • [ shit im working on ] • • •

Yume Nikki: Big Dreams(!) au: an au where i make lore where there is not much lore, aka, a YNFG lore rewrite.

• • • [ other shit ] • • •

partner sys is @group-call

icon is by weevildoing

[ im getting worse all over again. ♪ ]

[gatoburr0]

Hehe hiii samurai shiver Hii um!!

Also yes I designed the tattoos from scratch and I still gotta do the one on her back 😪

[splatoonusna]

Two days to go until the Splatoon 3 Grand Festival!

Team Present, will you seize the moment?

[tothepointofinsanity]

Washing machine.

[awnrii]

I agree with the last persons ask. Could we get more of your Hermes please

took his hat off

[gigizetz]

Look at how he's smilling

It's the first real one in weeks

[gigizetz]

mutiny sketches I sent Jay on the brainstorming process for the livestream animatic ;0

[coi-arts]

family jewels - moral orel animatic ⛪✝️

[amvipod]

last year i binged moral orel on a whim and then became ridiculously ill about it. fork found in kitchen

nature redraw / orel charm i never finished / s1e1 redraw as a 50s illust / clay age timeline

[dasnercaret]

day 40: just accept that you'll always be alone!

[eaudecrow]

My new year resolution is to start posting again, and I’m kicking it off with my piece from @destinationunownzine! I’m so proud to be featured alongside so many other talented artists, one last thanks to the mods for putting it all together

[satanhaus-deactivated20220217]

yo does anyone else feel CONSTANTLY guilty? like you’ve always done something wrong but you don’t know what it is?

[why-am-i-even-on-here]

Yes, and I’ve spoken to my therapist about it, who offered an explanation:

She says that people who from a young age were made to feel like they kept doing things wrong - people who’s parents had impossibly high standards for them, people who were bullied, people who have special needs, people who didn’t develop crushes on the “right” people, people who didn’t act like the “right” gender - basically ended up being made to feel guilty so much that guilt became their default response to everything. Guilt became the emotional response to anything which the person didn’t already have a set emotion for.

People for whom guilt is the default emotional response are also more likely to have low self-esteem, doubt their own experiences, and experience impostor syndrome. So, watch out for that too guys

[josphitia]

Unlearning this is a bitch

[tigergirltail]

It is indeed a bitch, but it CAN be done and it is SO worth it.

[the-haiku-bot]

It is indeed a

bitch, but it CAN be done and

it is SO worth it.

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[puppydeathfarts]

Isolation on autopilot?

Oh damn, this is super interesting. Relatable, too. From the Coping book:

[racheldrawsthis]

Collection of Rody sketches I don't think I've posted on tumblr yet

[part 1]

[gigizetz]

scylla before the transformation (entirely based on the book Circe btw)

[backpackingspace]

okay so post epic odyssey where odysseus and Penelope have surfaced from their room finally and he and diomedes are catching up I'm imagining the conversation going something like this

Odysseus: so then I gave up being merciful and became the monster.

Diomedes:....you tried being merciful?

Odysseus: Yes?

Diomedes: you did? You tried being a good merciful person? You?

Odysseus: Yah okay fuck off it was polties dying wish. I had to try.

Diomedes:.....90% of the war crimes in the Trojan war were suggested, planned out, and carried out by you. We literally stoned to death the guy you had a personal grudge against. We framed him for treason and stoned him to death. 70% of why Athena liked you was because she thought she knew all the ways to kill someone and then you'd suggest something insane and I'd see her taking notes. You literally gave Ajex a psyoctic break just being yourself.

Odysseus: shut up

Diomedes: I'm not wrong. Did you tell Penelope about your attempt to be a good person?

Odysseus: What? Of course I did. I told her everything.

Diomedes: did she laugh?

Odysseus:...shut up that's not the point

Diomedes: she did didn't she!!!

Odysseus: ANYWAY eurylochus wasn't appreciative of my return to monsterhood and he started causing problems so I

Diomedes: killed him? Yah saw that coming. No shit. I'm so shocked.

[backpackingspace]

okay so post epic odyssey where odysseus and Penelope have surfaced from their room finally and he and diomedes are catching up I'm imagining the conversation going something like this

Odysseus: so then I gave up being merciful and became the monster.

Diomedes:....you tried being merciful?

Odysseus: Yes?

Diomedes: you did? You tried being a good merciful person? You?

Odysseus: Yah okay fuck off it was polties dying wish. I had to try.

Diomedes:.....90% of the war crimes in the Trojan war were suggested, planned out, and carried out by you. We literally stoned to death the guy you had a personal grudge against. We framed him for treason and stoned him to death. 70% of why Athena liked you was because she thought she knew all the ways to kill someone and then you'd suggest something insane and I'd see her taking notes. You literally gave Ajex a psyoctic break just being yourself.

Odysseus: shut up

Diomedes: I'm not wrong. Did you tell Penelope about your attempt to be a good person?

Odysseus: What? Of course I did. I told her everything.

Diomedes: did she laugh?

Odysseus:...shut up that's not the point

Diomedes: she did didn't she!!!

Odysseus: ANYWAY eurylochus wasn't appreciative of my return to monsterhood and he started causing problems so I

Diomedes: killed him? Yah saw that coming. No shit. I'm so shocked.