If heaven had a height I would be that tall

Celeste 34 Germany, tailor & stylist.

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it's good for me to process the moments I have with JJ. I saw him a few days go while I was in NYC. he caught me some hours before my flight back to germany. I took the train (the 4 downtown to 125th street, gasp, one stop away) and met him on 125th coming out of a random store with 4 plastic bags of random things. there are a couple of things that happened while I was with him that made my heart clench.

him taking the handle of my suitcase and wheeling it (2 blocks) the whole way back to his apartment

making sure to walk on the outside of the sidewalk

grabbing my face in this rough commanding way (a split second moment that he changed his mind about but it was significant enough that I took notice immediately because it was a quick shot of his true self?)

giving me a beef patty that he'd bought for himself

kissing him was really dreamy, but I think it's because I'm ovulating and I kept glancing at his hands and neck. last year when we kissed he was sort of pissing me off omggg he's so layered. I hate him

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as an emotional masochist, I love to hold on to certain feelings. unrequited love is one that comes to mind quickly. the feeling of pining for someone is so guttural and true. I feel so alive when that yearn is coursing through my veins. sometimes I text JJ to see what new way I can feel rejected by him. ugh. I always come back for more, because he is so fucking fine.

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Let me tell ya’ll how I had the most amazing Harry Potter lover moment in my communications class tonight ya’ll I was sitting across from this white nigga his name is Nick Foote or Jason Foote or something, just know it was a “white boy name” + Foote I remember his last name is Foote because we had to go around the class and tell some of our long term goals and that nigga was like “I’m gonna get a foot tattooed on me somewhere because everyone in my family has a foot tattooed on them somewhere IT’S OUR THANG” and so basically I’m never gonna forget his last name but anyway I was sitting across from that nigga and he goes “hey do you watch Harry Potter?” and I did this thing with my body where I twitched, made an excited face, and pretended to be having a seizure all simultaneously and I practically yelled “YES” because I haven’t had a Harry Potter fan conversation in quite some time so he makes a surprised face because of course I’M BLACK and I HAVE A FRO and he goes “so I’m riding down the street and this tow truck rode past me and it said McGonagall Towing and I tripped out” and I’m like “no wayyyyyyyyyy” and he’s like “tots man, it was awesome” and I got super excited and we high fived and I said “man I thought this town could never be cool, but there’s hope” it was amazing, man someone slash my tires cause I’m dying to give that place some business HARRY POTTER til death R.I.P. to my nigga Dobby.

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I hate when my dad goes and buys breakfast at mcdonald’s and hands it to me while I’m asleep as if I’m conscious enough to eat it and then when I wake up I’m literally holding a cold sausage biscuit and hash brown in my hand and it tastes gross and it’s like why are you such a fuck nigga can you please wait until I wake up before you go deciding when everyone should eat breakfast ugh this is the second time this has happened and honestly mcdonald’s is gross and only should be eaten in dire situations like you only have $1.45 in your bank account and there are no grocery stores near where you can buy a cup of ramen and a nectarine and there’s a mcdonald’s right there in your face and you haven’t eaten since the night before and you’re about to die.

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just thought about Hagar & Milkman from Song of Solomon.

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love a slogan tee with crewneck collar

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@shesasolarbeing

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june vlog, I kinda like this one

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one of my persistent life dilemmas and inconvenient truths is that the hottest women, at least on this planet, are in no way, shape, or form into men.

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yeah because being hot is wasted on men

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I'M SAT FOR THIS ORANGE

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