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[celestialampersand]

[all]

all i see is everything

[celestialampersand]

they are [timing it]

73 days

73 yards

[recalibrating]

[celestialampersand]

yes.

it work'd.

[celestialampersand]

[circa]

i gave up in 2021 so its ok

[celestialampersand]

reminder.s

[sankofa]

[celestialampersand]

you

some one. i think. i was never supposed to meet.

[celestialampersand]

sometimes smiles hide [too much]

sometimes. the places you feel most unwanted you need to go to.

reclaim whats yours. learn if perception meets reality.

or have you been hurt and played with by too many for too long to believe pleasant things can actually come.

your way.

[celestialampersand]

wrinkled wings.

still fly.

[celestialampersand]

only the ones that linger[...]

they let me think of you less/thinnest skin never touched/in the stills a mess/unnecessary airy shame/whisked away

seeing you in color/we dream in black & white/what's felt fades/white washed and refreshed

seeing them in color/y.ours in black in white/everything & nothing

giving up all that is left/only the ones that linger

[celestialampersand]

the audacity to think i could, is the reason i do

[mahdelu]

[celestialampersand]

least favorite

making the space feel hostile and unwelcomed and then say

she doesn't show up

the game "he's" a genius

[celestialampersand]

t[hey]

hid so much from you/knowing you'd be better, know better, do better if you could/

but they

told each other not to/benefiting from the game and the serious claims/to prideful and angry to be ashamed

so they

give you nothin/ only what they think you can handle / grasping at straws/given no weight to learn how to carry it at all

she loved him you don't care at all and thats why they follow

they are

[celestialampersand]

[hate]

hate is just unrequited love and obsessions with no control.

you hate that i don't care

[celestialampersand]

[you] need to figure. it out

using you. someone said it. don't leave. they did not forget it. it smells. they do. don't give her that money.

oh it is fun. this IS funny

i don't want her to know about it it. there is one. we/she/he stole all of it.

all you have to do. be unclean

for the last A? you are not 18 and you are not trying.

they know i'm lying. i they believe her. it's just you. all of them hate you and you don't care about it.

they laughed and ran down the street. he screamed Adrian you stink.

i wish they would believe me now. he's rich. just pays them off. they enjoy and take the pics. money on the table for your lie and the time

[celestialampersand]

not made for this world

the fun i don't want to have.

[celestialampersand]

[just a point.] not a poem

who do i need to fight for yall to leave my drain alone

who do i need to fight for yall to stop doing drugs around me

who do i need to fight for yall to realize i don't want to be bothered

i know you're reading

[celestialampersand]

when

the know the truth and still hate and blame you

[celestialampersand]

ties that bind

closely estranged