Jerry

he/they/she house md my love 19 :3

[ikimaru]

I finished uploading all my kl comics on Fanon a while ago so here's a reminder that you can read them on there as well, it's free! 💜

(if you prefer this format to reading them on tumblr I mean haha)

I also recently updated a bunch of pages from Fool Me Once, mostly art tweaks across the more recent pages and added a couple pages! I plan to update them on tumblr as well when I have the time but they're on there in the meantime! 👍

[cervical-vertebrae]

I love my dad, and I know that he loves me too, but I also know that if i call him at 3 am needing to talk or for him to just come hug me he would drop the call, maybe even put me on silence for the rest of time, and I know why, I know it was the years of his mother calling him threatening suicide and his brother calling him wasted yet again, but I need that 3am call, I need him to come hold me.

I know he never will

[cervical-vertebrae]

Tips and tricks to use for bettering your mental (and maybe physical) health by Me:

1. water, water, water. it's very important to drink enough water. Dont like the taste of regular water? Add flavoring, bc remember its better to drink 2 to 3l of flavored water then drinking only a l of regular water (or sprakling water, thats what i do)

Cant remember to drink water? Me neither. place water bottles around your room and house, sitting at a desk working or relaxing? place your water bottle on top of your phone (or any other thing you pick up a lot) and take a sip every time you touch it, take multiple water bottles if you feel like that once you're done you wont fill it up again. Watter bottle (or just a mug if you drink tap water) in the bathroom, every time you go there take a sip. Bottle next to your door, everytime you pass it? take a sip.

2. Food. Im someone who can't eat in the morning cus i get sick, so eat a bigger lunch! bring a snack that you like and eat once you feel okay! make sure to not eat at least 1h before you sleep, a full stomach can cause sleep issues.

Cant remember to eat? alarms, 10 if you need. keep snacks at all times somewhere you can see it.

Walk after eating, can be outside, can be just circles in your room, it doesnt have to be hours, just 5 to 10 mins to get your stomach moving, this can help bloating and overall make you feel better (plus getting your steps in). Cant walk for long? me neither dude, sit down and just move your legs up and down as if you were walking.

3. Sleep. so important, but remember not to oversleep, that can make you feel more groggy. Cant fall asleep? yea i can't either so here are some things my life long insomniac dad does to be able to go to sleep at 11pm every day.:

Put phone and other screens down at least 30 mins before you sleep, an hour preferably. Cant sit alone with your brain? read something or listen to something, preferably something boring to help shut your brain down and not think. Wanna move? put on some music and dance, walk around.

hungry? milk. honey and butter is great to add, helps you relax. Absolutely need food like right now? something easy for your stomach to handle, soup, broth, cooked vegetables (COOKED, your stomach has a rough time with uncooked veggies).

i wont tell you to do that meditation bs bc it doesn't work for me (but if it does for you, do that)

cant sleep without noise? turn on the fan (afarid of waking up sick? turn that mf away from you), put on calming music, preferably one with no lyrics, podcasts. I like listening to those dumb ass AI reddit stories, but you might wanna also see if you can find some children books that are recorded.

take sleeping meds? take them roughly 30 to 10 mins before you plan to sleep so they can have tome to kick in, turn off or lower the light in your room to make your brain realize its sleepy time.

Schedule. doesn't matter if you go to sleep at 1am or 3am or 8pm, choose a time that will let you sleep at least 7 to 9h before you need to wake up and stick with it. so so important you stick with it, even on weekends (obvi if its a party or a special occasion you can stay up or go to sleep earlier, once will not change anything).

4. struggle to wake up? dont pick up that phone, get up, even just SIT up and chill for about 10 mins, preferably in daylight (or if you have dark until 9am like we do in winter) turn on a light, let your body realize its time to get up. Still can't? cold water on your face

5. exercise. you don't have to go to the gym, you don't need to work out till exhaustion every day, take a walk once a day, ride to work/ school on a bike, do some stretching once a day while watching something. have limited movement or energy? me too girl, bed workouts. best part? you can stop at any point and chill till you feel better to continue.

6. fresh air. dont need to walk, dont need to move, just open a window and sit by it for a bit to get some fresh air in.

7. part take in things you like, video games, drawing, reading, painting, walking, singing, playing anything you can immagine (even if it's something others would call "useless" or "not good hobbies") if it brings you even a little bit of joy, do it.

8. take. your. meds. meds make you feel worse? do NOT cold turky and decide that no meds will ever help you, as someone who has been on like 10 different medications and currently has to take 4 a day to function, PLEASE see a doc and tell them your symptoms while on thsese meds and they will switch you. do NOT expect meds to start working immediately, most can take up to 2 weeks of regular use to see effects. also do NOT think meds alone will help. They won't. you have to take steps to better yourself, meds are just another tool to get you feeling good again, and do not be shamed into needing medication. you wouldn't shame a cancer patient for needing meds would you? well your mental illness is the same, its an illness, and its okay and good to take medication to treat the illness.

9. write. dont wanna write in a diary cus you're afraid of someone finding it and calling you pathetic or a lier? write on a piece of paper, then tear that up or burn it, you'll still be getting things out of your head and you won't have to feel embarrassed or scared that someone will find it.

10. and for the love of god, cry, be angry, be sad, be happy, be miserable, don't lock these feelings away, they will only come back stronger and worse.

11. And remember, it will pass. All that you're feeling will pass and you'll be better.

~someone who is diagnosed with bpd, autism and adhd and all the lovely things that go with it, as well as someone who is chronically ill and struggling to even graduate highschool, remember you will get trough it, you will move on from that ex, you will move out of that house, you will find your own place in this world, dont let anyone tell you otherwise.

[cervical-vertebrae]

they will never guess this one

[cervical-vertebrae]

My grandmother doesn't like me. She never did, ever since i could remember she would buy thought out and lavish gifts for my cousins, when she went to trips abroad she would always bring a little gift back for them, i used to be jealous, now i just mourn the relationship we could have had. she random visits my cousins to spend time with them, but never us, which is weird because we live next door to each other. she doesn't even visit for my mom, her first daughter.

[cervical-vertebrae]

Free roaming bunny be like

[cervical-vertebrae]

sometimes i think I'm not ill anymore but then i spend one day doing more then i usually would and spend the next 3 days in bed in agony and remember that I'm ill, i just make sure not to overdo it

[cervical-vertebrae]

One thing I'm still mad about that my dad did to me:

I was around 4, we had face paints at home and i begged my dad to paint me as a butterfly and he finally agreed, i was so happy, i sat and waited till he was done but when i went to see his masterpiece i found out he painted me as a clown.

I cried as i scrubbed my face clean while he laughed at me

[doorknobinmyayuss]

After the battle,

The Vees have been saddled,

Charlie’s Dads Hangin by a Thread~🎶

[drazhaq]

Have some boy failure Alastor (っ'ヮ')╮=͟͟͞🦌 🍎💦

The man knows how to flirt, but not with someone he's actually into.

[cervical-vertebrae]

Stacy really was Houses one true love

[cervical-vertebrae]

I recently got a new tattoo and its right at the fold of my knee and since it's so fresh it still hurts to walk. I have been limping around and I just need a cane and I'll be House

Also follow my artist on Insta!!

She is @/corvusossium.ink

[cervical-vertebrae]

god I'm finally re-listening to this masterpiece

[cervical-vertebrae]

i truly have a love hate relationship for the Palant arc, it's so good but man do i hate it.

[cervical-vertebrae]

Every time i watch the episode The Doctor in the Photo (season 6 ep 10) i wanna just cry, i relate to Bones so much, being so closed off for so long you don't even realize you forgot how real emotions felt, only for everything to get turned upside down for 3 days, 3 months or 3 years, only for everything to go back and to see the true you. I'm not the doctor in the photo, im me.

[cervical-vertebrae]

Why is season 6 one of the most gutwrenching season ever but I WATCH IT EVERY FUCKING TIME

[cervical-vertebrae]

PLEASE make it popular to NOT go to school or work sick, I HAVE BEEN SICK ON AND OFF FOR 3 FUCKING WEEKS, INCLUDING HAVING COVID

ITS MY FIRST DAY BACK TO SCHOOL AFTER A WEEK AND HALF THE CLASS IS SNIFFLING, THE TEACHER IS COUGHING AND THE GUY NEXT TO ME CAN BARLEY SPEAK.

Lord help me.