CGS Draws

I'm depressed and getting therapyyy

[cgsdraws]

Abstract?

💜/ Name’s CGS, stands for Childhood Goldie Syndicate or Psychosis in my URL. However my actual name is Jax (I also use Senku as a nickname)

💜/ My pronouns are He/They/Xe/It

💜/ I am a Trans Man, Bisexual, and Ace! I am also ambiamorous but beware, I’m mentally unwell

💜/ My favorite colors is Purple or Yellow

💜/ I draw my schizophrenia sometimes in an art style I created, it’s black with white or colored lineart but no shading or only glow added for affect. I made it as a low energy style and the name is a work in progress

💜/ This is a vent blog now, there will be mention of sui, sh, mental health. Don’t like? GO AWAY BITCH

💜/ I like TADC, Dr Stone, Rescue Bots and more! Send me art!

💜/ Please send me asks! I love anons, asks, comments. INTERACT

💜/ Dm me! I love DMs! (Don’t be a creep, I hate flirting unless I consent to it)

💜/ I am Pro Endo and currently looking into a better term for Radnormal but for the most part, other than being pro Endo, those are my stances. Look here for more info

💜/I’m now a Jirai blog! Block don’t report :,)

New tags!

Retail rants

counseling conundrums/counseling compromises/counseling check in

rabbit tags in process…

[your-imaginary-guardian-angel]

whats the POINT of POSTING if i dont get CONSTANT ATTENTION???!?!?

[cgsdraws]

why do I love calling myself a rabbit now?

using the word scurrying when I’m being quiet?

the Jax is taking over TvT

[cgsdraws]

just got back in the country after like four weeks and we finally get to sit down and read through your blog! we like the redesign and we're glad you decided to stick around :D

@golden-patchwork

OMG HI I MISSED YOU

yep a lot changed ;)

[golden-patchwork]

I really like the colors!! Teal and pink is an underrated combo for sure and the lilac is so soothing!

I'm also glad you're accepting aspects of yourself and reaching out for what you need! Its hard for us certainly so I'm sure it was hard for you too but I think you're a lovely boy and (if you don't mind) I would love to do a little sketch of the new sona I think the hair and clothes are sooooo fun

[cgsdraws]

just got back in the country after like four weeks and we finally get to sit down and read through your blog! we like the redesign and we're glad you decided to stick around :D

@golden-patchwork

OMG HI I MISSED YOU

yep a lot changed ;)

[golden-patchwork]

I really like the colors!! Teal and pink is an underrated combo for sure and the lilac is so soothing!

I'm also glad you're accepting aspects of yourself and reaching out for what you need! Its hard for us certainly so I'm sure it was hard for you too but I think you're a lovely boy and (if you don't mind) I would love to do a little sketch of the new sona I think the hair and clothes are sooooo fun

[cgsdraws]

a) omfg I’m glad you love the colors (we didn’t even realize that! We used to love these as a kid and I guess found them again :3)

b) thank you for the support

c) ooo I’d love to have a new sona! You probably see the basics around our new blog theme but I can gather refs if your curious

[cgsdraws]

What if he hates his boyfriend? but loved his girlfriend?

[leafwing-life]

Then that's something for him to work out without a partner, because you're supposed to be prepared to love your partner no matter the circumstances.

[cgsdraws]

I knowww but the VOICES

[cgsdraws]

Imma be so fucking pissed if I drive all over town Wednesday and don’t get my fucking Jax plushie and hoodie

well I mean I get to spend time with my bf but

I WANT JAX DAM IT

(At least he will get something out of it lol)

[cgsdraws]

What if he hates his boyfriend? but loved his girlfriend?

[dumb-teenagerx]

im hugging my pillow pretending its you btw

[cgsdraws]

“How would younger you feel

if you said all your negative thoughts to them?”

That it was another fucking Tuesday

“bring back bullying!”

ok someone is allowed to walk up to you and yell at you your most horrible insecurity and you have to say it to yourself five times

now you gotta try to act ok

that is a fucking Tuesday for someone bullied

[cgsdraws]

WEDNESDAY I SEE HIM WEDNESDAY

I WILL TELL HIM WEDNESDAY

I get therapy and a date WOOHOO

[disgustinggf]

[cgsdraws]

FUCK I HAVENT TOLD MY BF IM A BOY YET

ok ok we haven’t had a day off together ok?!

ITS NOT MY FAULT-

[leafwing-life]

It IS face to face news...

Do it soon tho

[cgsdraws]

I’ve been trying I swear

he keeps working!!!!

next time HE has a day off I’m planning a date

been trying for a week now :/

[cgsdraws]

I wanna be so gay with my boyfriend that historians will call us “roommates”

[cgsdraws]

FUCK I HAVENT TOLD MY BF IM A BOY YET

ok ok we haven’t had a day off together ok?!

ITS NOT MY FAULT-

[swarmofravens]

Memory loss doesn't look like what I thought it would. I spent several years convinced I could have a dissociative disorder primarily because I "didn't experience memory loss". I wasn't waking up in a strange place unaware of how I got there. I wasn't having people I'd never met come up to me and call me by a different name. I wasn't finding things I'd bought unintentionally or projects I'd done with no recollection of doing them. But I was, not remembering why I was upset in the middle of crying. Finding journal entries I didn't write. Suddenly not liking music I saved on a playlist named 'my favorite songs ever'. Randomly wanting to make drastic changes to my appearance and then forgetting why I wanted to look like that. Not knowing what day of the week it was, or how many days it had been since I did something (was that this morning or 3 days ago). Having friends tell me I was acting differently when I thought that was how I always acted.

[cgsdraws]

just got back in the country after like four weeks and we finally get to sit down and read through your blog! we like the redesign and we're glad you decided to stick around :D

@golden-patchwork

OMG HI I MISSED YOU

yep a lot changed ;)