chaikachi

chai | she/her | adult digital art and comics, mainly ocs and fanart https://chaikachi.com

[chaikachi]

I know my answer seems like I'm being cheeky - which, tbf, I am - but it's also genuine.

I have been The Weird Kid since I was old enough to remember feeling excluded from my peers on the playground. I became an adult, and even in my niche fandom hobby, I managed to pick the unpopular ship and get ruthlessly bullied and alienated for it.

For my entire life I have had two options:

1. Suppress everything I was and everything I liked for the slim chance of appearing normal enough to appease those around me, or

2. Become definitively myself no matter how much it made other people uninterested or upset

I spent most of my childhood waffling between the two. I often didn’t bother to try with people I wasn’t already close to, but betrayed myself many times over for those I was. And all I learned… was that it doesn’t work. The people I was trying to please? Their issues with me were issues they had with themselves; and no amount of bending myself over backwards was ever going to be enough to satisfy them.

I am 30 years old now. Of those, I’ve spent 15 posting on this godforsaken website and 19 of them watching anime (yes, starting back when you could only watch it in 3 parts on youtube). You can scroll on this blog alllll the way back to my art from 2012 which I posted to the tune of 0 notes several times over. That never deterred me from picking up the pencil again. I am a woman who has not shaved or worn a bra in over a decade and I legally changed my name because I just didn’t like the one I had. My wardrobe is 90% loud patterned pants and jumpsuits. I am going to the movies by myself later this week just because! And I have a small but mighty group of friends who have never asked me to be anything than what I already was.

I haven’t always been kind to myself, but am happy with the person I am now. And while the existential horrors make me anxious about it often, I’m very excited to meet the person I’m becoming, too.

If I have ever given anyone the illusion that I was Trying To Be Cool, then I sincerely apologize. I have only ever been trying to be me.

[chaikachi]

Yeah, they're right, you're not cool, you're hot ayyyyyy.

Eyyyyyy 😎

Okay but real talk it is weirdly warm in here despite being so chilly out

[chaikachi]

You are not cool though

Well, thank god for that! Being cool sounds like a lot of hard work. One of my new year’s resolutions for 2026 was actually to get even weirder and more annoying. Im glad to hear I’m succeeding!!! :D

[chaikachi]

become who you are 🌹

[chaikachi]

pov your name is samyr record keeper and you just did something stupid

[chaikachi]

Based off of the recent post you reblogged with the sending super specific assumptions based on your art post, I assume that based off your art and your characters that you love the difficulty communicating and hardcore yearning tropes.

Not the, “I’m saying something incredibly insensitive in the moment, and that causes conflict between my relationships,” trope, but the kind where either party can’t share what they’re feeling because of some sort of pressure whether it’s internal or external and it’s eating them alive and festering in their soul and choking them all at once. I’m also gonna assume you think about it regularly and it drives you insane a little bit lol!

Your most recent art post, “Forgotten Sanctuary,” is soooooo beautiful (I’m cupping it in my hands and rotating it!)

How are your tomodachi life characters? :)

Ahahaha. Yes. It’s only the trope and enjoyment thereof; nothing more to see here... 🫣

a friend of mine commented similarly on that post saying they could see “Transistor’s influence” in a lot of my work, which, for those unfamiliar, is the quintessential example of that dynamic. “What if you were so close I was literally carrying you in my hands and yet I couldn’t speak to you” for the whole game. It irrevocably changed me as a person and makes up probably 60% of my personality by this point.

You got the nail on the head anon. And yes, it drives me absolutely insane (affectionate).

Also thank you for the kind words!! I have a parallel piece I’m planning to go with it, but it’s a bit outside my comfort zone so will likely take some time to finish. And the tomodachi life characters are… neglected, sadly. I have been very busy. But I can happily say:

half of the rwby characters on my island are crushing on Ren. His emotionally unavailable rizz is just too strong.

Sam and Vel are trying very hard to make Ozpin their third even though the game won’t allow non-monogamy options.

deltarune characters also got added including whatever this is:

[chaikachi]

forgotten sanctuary

[chaikachi]

Lil close up of the sad man being sad

[sepulchritude]

I love seeing people’s picrew art styles because you can just look at them and be like

“You read homestuck and it was a big part of your life for a few years, you’re not into steven universe but you did watch it, and you had an intense black butler phase in middle school and doodled their eyes over and over again in your spiral notebooks”

[sepulchritude]

Art is the biggest snitch ever man like have you ever read a fanfic and been like “Oh the author is working through some trauma here”

Or when people rec songs/shows/fics and you suddenly know everything you need to know about who they are as a person?

Like I know art is inherently an attempt to make others understand what is going on inside our lonely little heads but sometimes the mortifying ordeal of being known just slips in there while you’re not looking

[lem0ns-art]

New ask game: Make super specific assumptions about me based on my art syle

[moved-goodbai-deactivated202603]

please. this sounds so funny lol

[chaikachi]

forgotten sanctuary

[chaikachi]

Lil close up of the sad man being sad

[chaikachi]

Hey folks! I know it's rare that people access blogs on here from their desktop site, but something wonky is going on with mine. I'm getting a redirect error that my browser's blocking. Quick google is showing the error might be malicious spyware through pop-up ads. I had a friend check on there end and it redirected them to a local betting site. I have not edited my theme in months so I can only assume it's a result of poor vetting on tumblr's side with ads. I've sent in a ticket to @staff but would appreciate some prompt action on this!!!

And uh. be careful checking desktop blogs for now! Yikes!!

[maswartz]

Not just you.

[chaikachi]

GREAT! LOVE A FUNCTIONING WEBBED SITE

[chaikachi]

Hey folks! I know it's rare that people access blogs on here from their desktop site, but something wonky is going on with mine. I'm getting a redirect error that my browser's blocking. Quick google is showing the error might be malicious spyware through pop-up ads. I had a friend check on there end and it redirected them to a local betting site. I have not edited my theme in months so I can only assume it's a result of poor vetting on tumblr's side with ads. I've sent in a ticket to @staff but would appreciate some prompt action on this!!!

And uh. be careful checking desktop blogs for now! Yikes!!

[shortboxcomicsfair]

Apply to SB Fair — ShortBox Comics Fair

Applications for ShortBox Comics Fair 2027 are now open! Full details and form at the link.

[chaikachi]

forgotten sanctuary

[chaikachi]

Need to set a reminder or something ‘cause every 3 weeks or so i get too busy and overwhelmed and say things like: “drawing can wait! I cant prioritize it right now. Its fine. It’ll be there when i have more breathing room again.” and that is the devil speaking!!!! I played with my crayons last night and guess what? I had fun! And it made me feel better! I somehow have to relearn this lesson every 21 days!!

[chaikachi]

sheep's clothing

[chaikachi]

sheep's clothing

[chaikachi]

Artist tip No. 372: is your composition lacking movement, but you’re too far in to redraw everything? Make it wimdy.