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design + patasa kay arki jessa! #ArkitekPuhon

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Lord, help me move on from this. Please grant me the strength to let go.

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Hi, love.

Dinaan ko na lang sa ganito ah, kasi pag thru call ko pa to sinabi baka di tayo magkaintindihan. Baka mamisinterpret lang natin isa’t isa and awayin na naman kita lol pero actually wala na ko energy makipag-argue. I know you hate reading long messages. Hindi ko nga sure kung tatapusin mo to basahin, pero sana tapusin mo.

Sorry if I haven’t been giving you much time lately. Alam ko naman na naiintindihan mong naghahapit na ako sa review, pero ramdam ko rin naman na hindi na talaga kita halos nakukumusta plus i can barely give you any updates pag daytime. Tho i miss you so sooo much, not updating you was intentional kasi gusto kong umiwas na magkaron tayo ng conflict. Lately, from our small talks kasi maraming pagkakataon na pakiramdam ko hindi mo naiintindihan kung gano kagulo ang utak ko sa lahat. Malala ako mag overthink, madami akong insecurities na ngayon ko lang nadidiscover sa sarili ko and I tend to be so sensitive. At hindi ko na natetake yung jokes mo lightly na madalas ko naman normal na tawanan lang dati. Sorry kung parati mong nararamdaman sakin na parang wala ka nang ginawang tama. I don’t mean it that way, actually yun ang pinaka- ayokong maramdaman mo pero nararamdaman mo na pala sakin.

Sorry, I don’t know if i’m giving you a hard time. But if ever you’re overthinking this (which as far as i know hindi ka ganon satin) please know that I love you, still. Tho you may not see castles, and mansions in me- i hope you can still see home. But if ever you soon find and realize na hindi pala ako yung home for you, I hope I at least gave your heart a shelter to rest.

I love you, my pookie bear. You have my heart, always.

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Sana dumating ang panahon na mapagtanto mong kalmado pala dapat ang pag-ibig. Hindi ito puno ng bakit o kaya naman ng pait. Payapa nga pala dapat ang magmahal. Hindi nakakasal, hindi nagpupumilit at hindi hahayaang makasakit.

Kalmado nga pala dapat ang pag-ibig.

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“andyan naman si Pat”

wala na sya dito :’)

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okay to, okay to.

i’m good, i’m good. *pats self in the back*

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the intimacy of having your efforts reciprocated in the same intensity and with the same tenderness

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– Audrey Hepburn

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Lord, ayoko na mag-beg.

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hindi talaga ako kasama sa plano noh? :))

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alam kong mahal mo ko, hindi mo lang talaga ako kayang piliin.

Oh God, i hope i can get over this.

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Ang hirap pala pag nasanay ka sa routine na meron kayo. Hectic lang naman talaga sa work ni Pat pero di ko mapigilan hindi magtampo. Kahit pa alam ko na he’s trying to somehow find time para samin. Sabi ko na e, feel ko may kapalit yung super bond namin last time. Tas di ko na alam if magtatagpo pa yung sched namin the coming weeks kasi start na din review szn. I miss you so much, my love :(((

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hayyy the will to end things between us is strong tonight. is this a sign to let this go, universe? will I ever be ready to let him go?

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i miss you.

almost 48 hrs of no contact with you feels like weeks for me. but i am hurting. i am still hurting. i really want to reply but i am deeply hurt, and i dont think your “explanation” can mend this.