Solitude is Bliss

Little fragments of my mind and lots of self reflection.

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This day, last year

I remember this day last year clear as day. And it couldn't have been better. This day last year meant lots of self growth and self appreciation. I could use more of that on this day.

One thing i'm surely thankful for is the amount of knowledge you shared with me. I'm thankful for the times you opened up to me and i'm thankful to have gone through what we did. I still always wish you the best, but i'm most definitely thankful that you brought out the best in me when i was at my lowest. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for showing me the universe as it really is.

[existential-words]

i just want to feel normal; like i’m not going to obliterate into an infinite amount of meaningless useless atoms

@existential-words (via existential-words)

[blackpenwritings]

What do you do with the leftover you? The parts that no one wants. The cigarette stubs, empty bottles of pills, hair in the shower drain. The bits of you that spill over when you clench your fists so tight, your nails bore wounds within your palms. What do you do with the parts of you that shell out bullets and dig themselves deep in your chest? Your hair, skin, bones, teeth, rattling as the storm passes. The late night clenching and grinding of teeth that you wouldn’t tell anyone about. Do you take those parts of you and bury them like it’s poetry you wouldn’t want anyone to read? Or do you leave them to rust, like steel nails at the balcony window, never giving them a second glance until they’re too rancid to be used. Those parts of you turn black when you burn yourself, hoping someone will come and save you. Those parts of you, they fill in the empty spaces in your chest, finding corners that no one uses and making place for themselves.

Tamarind Fall

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Fall in Love

We discover things about ourselves on a daily. We learn who we are and who we aspire to be, and we either choose to keep being as we are or change something about ourselves. Don't change for anyone unless it'll help you grow. People will love you as you are if they truly care. Make choices you won't regret. I always find myself asking "am i gonna feel this way about this situation the same way in X amount of time? Take risks. You'll never know until you try. If you never take risks, you'll always wonder "What If?" When you fail, don't give up. Imagine that we never failed at anything. We would never learn from it. And lastly, fall in love. But not with just anyone. Fall in love with yourself because you were meant to live for more than just 9-5 job or to live being so scared of what could happen. Love yourself if you feel no one else will and love the universe around you. And never let that spark go. You are the creator of your own universe and you deserve to feel love as deeply as you love.

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Capture the Love

When i photograph strangers, the only tning that truly runs through my mind is just the vast possibilities of who they are and what they're currently going through. I can't express enough that you've gotta embrace life and appreciate it as it is. "Love Yourz," said J. Cole. Put yourself in others' shoes before you even attempt to judge them. No one cares about how much better you think you are than someone. It feels so much better to just throw love at people. Sure, there are bad people that make mistakes, but don't pretend you're perfect when you fool yourself into thinking you are. Be humble and give love to others.

[midnightwritings]

This is the one about all those selfish lovers we all had at some point. This is the one about those who knew that we only had them in our lives. You knew didn't you, you knew that you are our only beacon of hope. So this one is for you, all those who knew exactly how much damage their absence would cause but decided to leave anyway.

voks (via midnightwritings)

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

“When should you let go?” She asked, with her chin rested on her palm. “When the ‘I love yous’ stop sounding like ‘I love you’,” I answered, “When they begin to sound very much like, ‘I’m sorry’.”

Lukas W. // Forgotten Words #163 // I love you but I’m sorry (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

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Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Why this is my favorite movie of all time has to do with many reasons. If you've never watched this incredible movie do so before spoilers. Picture this: boy and a girl undergo a memory-erasing procedure. They have a doctor come and analyze the sleep patterns and cut out memories which trigger anxiety, pain, etc. They get rid of all of the things that remind you of that person. Boom. Gone. Simple as that. Well it went south all of a sudden. They met again after they both had the procedure and then the boy witnesses the girl falling in love with another boy. But during the procedure on the boy, he has many memories he's going through and even makes up some in his sleep. And he always tells the girl he loves her or shows it. He tells her, "i cant see anything that i dont like about you." The girl says," but you will! You will think of things, and i'll get bored of you and feel trapped because that's what happens with me." And it's just incredible how much love is shared by two human beings even though they attempted to erase each other from each others brains. Absolute fantastic film

[juansendizon]

Here are the things I want for me. First, I want to feel okay. I want to wake up every day with a smile on my face. I want to wake up every day filled with hope knowing that everything’s going to be alright. Second, I want to feel lovely. I want to feel what it’s like to be someone that matters. Someone who counts for something who’ll forever remain a memory. Third, I want to feel alive. I want to feel the sun’s warmth above my head and grow like a flower that always experiences spring. I want to feel what it’s like to be the best version of me. And lastly, I want to be in love. I want a love that makes me feel free like a bird flying towards the blue sky. I want a love that comes from me.

Juansen Dizon, For Me (via juansendizon)

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Just a dream about the self

You make words sound so pretty I like you; so kind, so witty You're a ray of sunshine, I couldn't keep my eyes off you, And what the universe tells Me? This is something new. Born into this world for reasons to be discovered, I was dying in this world but i fucking recovered

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First Impressions

How do yoou start off conversations? A simple hello? Do you ask them questions about who they are or what they like to do? First impressions mean so much when you grow up. Connections come, connections go. You listen to music to forget certain things, but those same songs are art you showed me that i now adore. There’s bittersweet comfort mixed in there. We’re dancing back and forth to a bittersweet symphony. And how i long to dance with you once more.

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Only human; Definition

People make mistakes. We regret saying things a certain way. Or not saying them all at. It’s a human component which allows us to find ourselves. Change is inevitable, but it’s needed in order to grow. You’ll never come across knowing all the knowledge you can get–only what you need [Or what others need from you]. Only you can define who you are. All that love in your heart that you carry–give some to yourself. You deserve it.

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Fragments of the universe

I hope you find someone that treats you like beautiful fragment of universe you are. I hope you become better each and every day. I hope you're able to see the progress you've made in time. Things don't always go as planned. No one has the right to tell you how to live. Be proud of who you are. I hope you show appreciation always.

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Toxic

I always told myself i wouldn't be toxic and to always strive being a decent human being. But sometimes i end up bottling so much up that the only time i feel comfortable talking about it is when too much is going on. I hate being this burden to people, because i don't want to be sad. I don't want to be that girl that always has shit going on. I want to be the one that puts everyone else before herself. I want to be the help that people need regardless of their pasts. I want to grow and i want to be someone that makes a difference in this town.

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What if?

Emotions cannot simply be pulled out of a list and explained as simply as counting 1,2,3. Sometimes emotions exist that we haven’t encountered. And this feeling isn’t the feeling of being empty, sad, happy, whatever. This is a different feeling that is neither bad nor good. This is a new feeling of just being in the moment. Whatever happens, happens. But what if….? Just let life take its course. But what if? The life span of a human being is impermanent. But what if for once i do something to change the world? What if i grow up to find out i’ve made it. What if i start being who i am instead of who i wish to be? Appreciate your existence.

[chamberofselfreflection-blog]

If i've learned one thing about depression is that it comes at the most inconvenient time. If there's one thing i learned about depression is that no matter how hard you try to keep yourself together and telling yourself it'll pass it'll keep lurking around the corner, waiting for you to feel happy only to destroy your mood. And the worst part is that half of you wishes it was all some funky episode of Twilight Zone and that it would pass. The truth is i don't know why i feel this way, but what i do know is that i will fucking beat this.

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Never give up on someone who makes you feel like a bigger part of the universe. Never let go of people that make you smile. Never miss an opportunity to use your voice to tell someone how you feel.