Meditating with the Devil

I’m a cat mom, a therapist, and a real human bean.

[champagnehoneybee]

This timely/ironic Snapchat filter and the Jesus in question. 🥰 My wedding dress came in today. And I’m trying to not listen to my body dysmorphia about how it looks on me bc it’s pretty and it’s comfortable!!!

[saisonmousery]

[elesianne]

to be a small curly-haired white mouse sniffing a flower…

[homoangel]

team free will demon fucker

[consecuences]

[champagnehoneybee]

He tolerates my love. I’ll take it.

[champagnehoneybee]

It me, I won a scholarship and I am easily distracted by how pretty blossoms are

[champagnehoneybee]

Not my current 29 y/o self asking my 23 y/o self why I thought it was appropriate to be blatantly not wearing a bra to this scholarship awards ceremony lmaoooo

[anxietyproblem]

[modogoblin]

[anxietyproblem]

[whimsigothwitch-deactivated2026]

Glass stained moon window

[fishingscam]

that quote like “god gave us transness for the same reason he made grapes but not wine; yeast but no loaves — so we may partake in the divine act of creation”

[genderkoolaid]

- Julian K. Jarboe, quoted in Something That May Shock and Discredit You by Daniel M. Lavery

[elfgirlfriend]

[tulipjeanohare]

RIP to the sexiest bitch in all of Westeros. You gave off the biggest dick energy, I KNOW that dick was big.

[champagnehoneybee]

Fuck, it’s really been 5 years since I’ve been on here. Reading old posts makes me feel really grateful for my therapist I had in college. Ma’am, I hope you’re thriving and living your best life because we both know I put your ass to WORK back in the day. That was some hard work beginning the untangling of all the tentacles of self doubt, people pleasing, and self sabotage that had made their way into my brain. God bless.

My mental health was a nightmare back then and tbh it still is but at least at the ripe age of 26 in grad school I finally got my ADHD diagnosis, which explains a fucking lot about why I could somehow never seem to get it together. A lot of these old posts cause some grief for me to read because at the time I knew there was something else going on underneath all that anxiety and depression, I thought maybe it was ADHD but I had shitty insurance at the time and doctors constantly hit me with the “you’re probably just anxious” 🥴 Well jokes on y’all bc I had a hella strong fam hx of neurodivergence and had become an expert at masking as a survival instinct.

Now I miss my grad school therapist. I swear to god that woman held my mental health in her hands like a tiny bird all throughout grad school, the hellscape that is modern dating, a long term relationship, through the shitty therapy farm jobs I had after grad school, my cousin’s death, my own self being nearly chewed up and spit out by the profession that eats its young and is steeped in white supremacy and ableism. She gave me a book before I moved to New York, The Gift of Therapy… I didn’t have the heart to tell her that I already had my own copy that I bought after she told me about it but I was too burnt out to read it over Christmas vacation. Bc you know a bitch was trying to get caught up on my notes on Christmas vacation, what else would I be doing? 😵‍💫 fueled by coffee and Jesus’ mom’s arepas and hallacas. God bless her too. I’m keeping the copy she gave me to give to the next baby therapist that I encounter. Sisterhood of the traveling Yalom book I guess.

Now I get to hold the space for others to untangle their stuff and it’s a privilege. We’re all just walking each other home

[wolfsdragon]

me when daenerys is finally making love with someone who respects her for more than her looks, money, power, and would never hurt her for his own gains

[champagnehoneybee]

What’s up folks I’m back on tumblr for the first time in literally 5 years and I gotta say… this post did NOT age well. 🥴😵‍💫

[wolfsdragon]

me when daenerys is finally making love with someone who respects her for more than her looks, money, power, and would never hurt her for his own gains

[reketrebn]

a concept: Jon Snow finally happy for once in his life without any guilt attached