actual life
I have not written a thing in awhiiiiiile hello! I am sitting in my london airbnb in bayswater, my favourite street here, a walk to my favourite park. The blue car parked outside. The rain hitting the pavement. The hum from the kitchen. It is January 7th, 0212. Uptown Girls is on on Netflix. I can't sleep.
i dont think ill be quite coherent here but i just want to type something out for future me to look back on, whenever that may be. i wish i wrote more but i haven't been writing lately, even in japan! maybe i just don't have the word anymore, or i haven't allowed myself the time to really sit and think about it. maybe i will tomorrow.
a year ago i was out on the streets of london with my parents. we stayed at... oxford (i was trying to recall!). i walked past that same street so many times now, but this time i got to walk it with my best friend. anyway, while out on the streets, i remember us talking. i kept waiting for your replies. you were still half the world away then. and for some reason i still wanted to talk to you. i wanted you to know me. i wanted so bad to know you as well.
a year later, in about 10 hours, i will see you walk across the station. this isn't our first rodeo though, i now have that memory of you from last week. i have so many feelings, so many things to say. but right now all i know is that tomorrow will change the rest of my life.
