So it's been three years...
Honestly, I forgot I ever made this account. I remember I was pretty determined to stick with it for a while, but I guess I must've run out of ideas or got scared or just disheartened generally. I was 19 last time I posted. I'm 22 now, and I can't say I've done much since then.
I spent so much of 2025 feeling like a ghost. I was lonely, and unwell, and bored, and scared. My health issues were bad for a while, I dropped out of college quickly, I tried putting myself out there and I just got hurt, but I'm trying to be an actual human being these days.
While I don't expect everything to become easy or fixed just because the year changed, I actually have some goals this year. Those include my education, trying to read more and write again, and to accomplish some things I used to fantasize about. I wanted so badly to make/post some Youtube videos, stream some games I love, talk to anyone who wants to listen, typical gen Z goals, I fear.
Content creation is not really a dream of mine anymore, at least not currently. I think it could be a fun hobby, maybe. I don't think I'm cut out for Instagram or TikTok, but writing and ranting about things I love and why? I can do that, even if nobody really cares.
I'm not saying I'm going to be super active on here, but I'd like to use this account for something again. Maybe I'll post once a month, maybe three times a week, who knows? Maybe it'll be writing I'm proud of. Maybe it'll be my most recent Tav, or just something pretty. Important things too, probably.
Apologies if this reads like a disorganized thought. I'm not used to writing for myself anymore, let alone a post anyone could stumble onto. Just saying I'm trying to be here.
