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[charlotine]

one thing i learnt from atla live action is…

if you ever meet that boy from your dreams, RUN THE OTHER WAY

HE IS NOT YOUR SOULMATE

HE IS AN OMEN

HE IS THE FIRST HORSEMAN OF THE APOCALYPSE

[charlotine]

i love how i used to leave my my homework until like the very last hour or few hours before i had to pass it in, just to get a little kick. a little adrenaline boost. bc i’d ace it everytime still, no matter the small amount of time i’d do it in

honestly, it’s no surprise i started abusing substances a few years later

[gothicenjoyer]

the only thing worse than disliking a book and taking to goodreads to indulge the hater instinct only to find that you are apparently the only person in the world who dislikes it is disliking a book and taking to goodreads to indulge etc and finding other people who dislike it, except that every single one of those people dislikes it for wildly incorrect and bad reasons that have nothing to do with why you (most correct person ever) found it dislikeable

[hypokeimena]

#once again shouldering the burden of being the only person alive on planet earth with good and correct opinions. :(

[stuckinapril]

mentally i’m a slut physically i break into tears if someone hugs me for too long

[passumbapper]

(logging into the beating a slightly funny joke into the fucking ground website) they better not be beating a slightly funny joke into the fucking ground in here

[charlotine]

every time someone says “wow i’ve never met someone so similar to me before” to me, i wonder if it’s really true or if it’s just my autism/bpd making me emulate them

[homunculus-argument]

[this comic was brought to you by methylphenidates]

[charlotine]

i used to struggle with my adhd but after taking the right meds, i now struggle with intense social anxiety

[rf-times]

The whole “radical feminism isn’t racist because it’s the most common form of feminism in third world countries” is just really intellectually lazy and doesn’t challenge any of us to work on our biases or bring intersectionality into our work. Liberal feminism is such a harmful ideology because it buys into patriarchal, capitalist, racist lies and then promotes that this will save women and it is often used to promote imperialism and racism.

Liberal feminism is far more popular in the first world because it appeals to women privileged on other axies who believe in the capitalist, meritocratic myth. Women who are sold the idea of having it all: full gender conformity, fairytale husband and kids plus capitalist success.

Of course most feminists in third world countries will put anti-racism and anti-imperialism at the forefront of the movement’s goals and will be far less likely to buy into liberal feminism. This doesn’t mean that anyone who disagrees with liberal feminism is now automatically non-racist. As radical feminists we need to do the work to actually align our politics with the interests of third world women, not just be like “see we both hate liberal feminism for one reason or another!”

[charlotine]

it is absolutely bonkers to me that ppl do not overthink themselves into tears over the smallest interaction. I WISH MY BRAIN WOULD SHUT UP !!!

[charlotine]

me, becoming aware that i do not share the same interests as people and intentionally research their interests in order to fit in and be likeable to them: I am the most Evil Manipulative person to have Ever Existed on this Earth😔

me, 10 years later after getting diagnosed with autism: ohhhhhhhhhhh

[charlotine]

splitting is like a slow pour of thick (redundant word) maple syrup

[charlotine]

does anyone else with adhd smoke or vape? and does anyone else with adhd, who takes medication, only feel the need to smoke or vape when they’re on meds?? bc ?? why ???

[charlotine]

i saw a post on reddit the other day of this person asking if they were the asshole for not feeding their granddaughter as a punishment for making a rude comment and like,, it was crazily controversial. lots of ppl were saying that to enforce certain good behaviours, punishment is good etc etc, and that not feeding them once does not equate to starvation. okay yeah it doesnt, but idk,,

imo its not good to enforce from a young age that food is a pleasure (idk what the right word is) and not a right?? like everyone deserves to eat, everyone. hence why even prisoners are given food in prison, food is and should always be a right.

from personal experience, my own parents punishing me with no food etc just made me think that only good people deserved food. so if i didn’t go to school bc my undiagnosed autism&adhd had left me feeling burned out (and i had no words to even explain this to my parents), i wasn’t allowed out my room, or to eat or to read/go on my phone/watch tv. now if i dont go to work bc im actually ill, i find myself not eating, as a punishment. i never really figured out why i was so averse to taking care of myself when sick, but reading that post the other day (+all the comments) got me thinking.

we can’t force what connections ppl make in their heads, and it’s especially worse enforcing such murky punishment&reward things on a child. they can make other unhealthy connections, and even then, if they do learn the lesson that was meant to be taught, they won’t actual like,, get it. They won’t get that they should nice to ppl bc it hurts their feelings, but they’ll do it. though resentfully or fearfully

context: in the og reddit post, the poster sent her granddaughter to bed without dinner, not dessert or anything (dessert is a different story ofc)

[charlotine]

constantly feel like im one bad (minor) event away from breaking down completely and reverting back to my 17 year old self

[yourlocaladhder]

[randomyeeker]

the autistic struggle of trying to say “please stop talking to me I don’t have the brain power to continue this conversation” without actually saying it