conflicted contradiction;

I am mended, whole, and made new in Christ's name. if you want to meet someone who will love you no matter what, click 'one' :) If you need love and encouragement, click '❤' :) if you need someone to talk to, click 'ask' :) we're here for you, dear! :) *hugs*

[cheeesyfriesss]

pagod na ako at super daming kailangan gawin. broooo :<<<

[cheeesyfriesss]

grabe crush na crush ko talaga yung crush ko hahahah :(( but i already broke my own heart para ala nang hurt in the future. iniisip ko na agad na may jowa na siya, na i’m not good enough for him. kasi masyado kaming opposite - tanging similarity lang namin ay yung same kami ng major. HAHAHAHA CRUSH ANO baaaaa hay :(

[cheeesyfriesss]

i just realized that my fear of falling in love stems from me thinking i don’t deserve love. it scares me so much that the person i love the most will also hate me the most for all the reasons why i hate myself too. it’s such a scary place out there, and this makes me want to just stay in my hermit hole and never let anyone in.

[sehyn]

my mom says she’s not a hugger. but when i put my arms around her on a gloomy day or after bad news she’s the last to let go. my dad says he doesn’t want gifts on his birthday, but i see the way his face lights up when i get him a card with a nice message and a box full of chocolate anyway. he’s just a kid inside, still. it makes him giddy. my brother never says i love you. but when i tell him “i just need to finish the dishes before i vacuum!” he wordlessly goes to vacuum the entire house before i can, and if he sees me struggle with a wrapper or a jar or a bottle he mutters ‘c’mere’ and opens it for me without even sparing me a glance. the thing is, people love you quietly, and you love them quietly, and the air is buzzing with tiny but grand gestures & once you look for them, you find them everywhere. i think that’s really beautiful.

[cheeesyfriesss]

i got accepted to the diversity committee today. playing “sila” on spotify right now and realizing over and over again that it was best to let you go. if you were still in my life, i wouldn’t have worked or studied this much. you celebrated your 22nd birthday two days ago and i’m really happy for you. i like to think that you’re happy for me, too. i’m getting close to my dreams and i had to lose you to step into bigger worlds. i’m grateful for you -- the person who used to be my sunshine, my araw sa tag-ulan, and my home. i’m grateful that after i lost you, i found myself. thank you for leaving...it led me straight back to where i truly belong.

[lemonsharks]

what my parents told me: you can do anything if you set your mind to it

what I wish my parents had told me: sometimes you will fail, and it will be scary and it will suck, but you will probably not die

[dsudis]

I would also have appreciated: the fact that you can do something if you try very, very hard, does not actually obligate you to spend your life putting forth maximum effort to achieve it. It is okay to not be 1000% driven by life-consuming ambition and instead be satisfied with something less difficult.

[milqi]

It wouldn’t have hurt to hear:  Sometimes, no matter how hard you try or how right you are, life will be unfair.  But you probably won’t die.

[cheeesyfriesss]

grabe muntik na ko mamatay kahapon at sobrang shookt pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. So many thoughts and emotions na naman. Sobrang pagod na ako.

[cheeesyfriesss]

onto the next one

if you lose, reflect 

[cheeesyfriesss]

at this point in my life i just really, really enjoy my company. i like being by myself. as in i really do. i’m comfortable and i’ve fallen in love with solitude. i’m happy. i really am. :) 

[cheeesyfriesss]

here’s to realizing that my friends have their own ways of showing me their love. some will write me 12-page letters, or some will check on me every day and ask me how my day went while also just wishing me a simple “happy birthday.” some will fill my tank with words of affirmation, some will give me so much of their time, and some will just give me the prettiest of gifts. here’s to 20 years old, and to realizing that more than anything else, i was called to love, to really show love to other people. my heart is theirs. always.

[cheeesyfriesss]

sooooo torn kung ano bang gusto kong field i-specialize sa slp... i know i have so much time pa pero alam mo yon, gusto ko malaman na what i really want to do para ngayon pa lang i’d be able to take CEUs naaa. the thought of becoming a PICU/NICU SLP talaga is a dream uhuhuuhu

[cheeesyfriesss]

grabe i want to cry :((( i have so many wonderful people around me who are always ready to listen and check up on me... i am blessed, i am valued, i am loved. grabe. ang gaan sa pakiramdam. gusto ko na lang talaga umiyak. ang hirap magmahal, pero handa pa rin silang mahalin ako. i am grateful. sobra. way beyond words can ever express. 

[junipertree-deactivated20210111]

i just want to warn young studyblr users to be wary of adults messaging them, especially adult men. i know that this is a very supportive space and often, more experienced students want to give us guidance and advice. but as a community made up largely of teenage girls, we need to be aware that we’re vulnerable.

if you’re a minor and a strange adult tries to befriend you on this site, i’d encourage you to block them. if you’re not sure of their age, please ask right away, and don’t be afraid to directly ask about their intentions. we need to be aware that grooming over social media is a real problem.

i’d be really grateful if people could reblog this.

[cheeesyfriesss]

brb crying a lot bahahahhhahfahhhh

[cheeesyfriesss]

i just want to legit cry kasi parang do u apprec8 me or do u care abt how i feel :( i covered 4 shifts this week that weren’t even mine and u scheduled me to open on Sundays -- the very day i asked to be off on. i apprec8 the gesture from tita and my other coworker na magcover sa shift ko if i ever get tired but the thing is di naman pagod, hurt lang siguro??? hurt na u didn’t think about me enough to at least shift the schedule a bit to give me an off day sa sunday after working 10 straight days... nahiya pa kayong gawing 14 eh hahahahh but im ok :<< need magtiis kasi we need money and tuition is so heartbreaking HAY PUSO KO LORD

[cheeesyfriesss]

grabe us2 ko na lang umiyak hahhaHAHAAHHHhdfd ndfbjdfkjbdk

[cheeesyfriesss]

been working for 7 straight days and i still don’t have a day off in sight... also sending proposals on Upwork rn HAHHAHHA really channeling the type 3 in me!!! pero kanina my ate’s said not to worry too much kaya kalma lang self, the Lord will provide for your gintong tuition hay