uh hey hi hello yeah YEAH i know I said i'm not coming back yet but you know times are getting desperate
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anyway made this cutie patootie adn since tumblr is a chill place for sharing art than twt and instagram decided it would be better to post this here kfdhhsdf, anyway my bank is holding my money hostage for god knows what reason 🧍🏽and my cat needs food so, making adopts now
anyway would be great
only have one up but if someone were to grab her that would mean a fuck ton 👍🏽
I probably owe the people I haven't answered in DMs an apology also. Sorry for scaring any of you.
I'm not dead, I'm safe, still alive and physically healthy.
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What's going behind screens these past two weeks has just been really stressful and scary. But now, I feel more comfortable and in a safer mindset.
I have a plan for me and my cats (both of them) I will be taking both with us when we move. If it ruins relationships with my family, or makes it harder to adjust cause of tension in the air. Then it'll probably be longer until I can fully adjust, recover and come back. But that's a sacrafice I'm fully commited to and a relationship I'm okay with damaging.
For now, I'll be logging off of Tumblr taking a break until I feel comfortable enough to come back again.
Once again I'm really sorry for not responding to dms. But I am safe and I am alright 👍🏽
It's the day after. Didn't go to ER. But was dragged to CRC. I don't know what they were hoping to get out of it. Cause now that we're back at home. Nothing's changed but that's how it always plays out even when I tell them everything how I feel. It's like talking to a brick wall that just hopes I'm the one that's going to change my choice.
I'm not getting her back- my cat.
I told them why I did what I did. They let my mom know, gave us both options. But I don't think there's anything any amount of talking can undo what's about to be taken away from me. She's just not worth arguing to sometimes.
I felt like It was taking every fibre of my being to even graduate. And it just didn't feel worth it. I'm just wishing this one time I can be a little selfish and just take both of them.
Both of them are even the reason I'm still here, I always said they were the small bits of light in that dark cave of darkness. They always pulled me out and showed me there was something to look forward to, waking up, coming back home.
one of them's being forcefully taken away from me and I have to make the desicion. it just feels so unfair that that's how I have to repay them... I feel so clouded and so unheard.
That everything was for nothing.
I'm sorry If I alarmed any of you. Everything I did was just, me being desperate really trying to find a way out of a bad headspace. But now I'm just trying to really get out of it.
Right now I can't say for sure If I'm still 90 or 60% here. Cause it's so strange how... almost weird how this feels like fate to me.
Like it's really almost my time. Like If life is trying so hard to take away my only will to live, then maybe it might really be a calling. My head is clear, I'm thinking clearly guys. It's just strange how it's happening like this and how hard life is really trying to make it for me. But it seems like this time it's really pushing it.
just a little post for where i've been and an update for my blogs
((Hi everyone!! Just checking in on my personal to let yous know, yeah Im still here. I still check in. And for the ones seeing this from my other blogs. I'll get to that in a bit. But if we in dat discord, lmao hi.
Anyway, not posting anywhere at the moment. Taking a break from socials. I'm getting extreme cabin fever. Not outwardly expressing it. I got word we have housing back in the city, just don't know when were moving. But once we do and once everything else is figured out. Things will probably be a lot smoother...
As for my rp blogs lol hi hello. I havent forgotten to reply. Not to memes, promts starters ect.
I think I just got into a habit of forcing myself to try and interact as my more. Try and reply to as much as I can in one go, because sometimes I do! And I WANT to get back into the habit of writing. So i try reblogging a meme and I hope it'll help me reply to the ones left in there.
But it doesn't and I feel a little bad. Or it just makes me a little frusterated at my own writers block for certain things.
So I'm currently backing off. Going to try and focus on my other hobbies for a bit to try and keep myself busy. I won't be gone for long I can tell you that lmao. I'll probably check in, maybe post ic everynow and then. But I'm going to take time and just to reset.
Cause writing is hard lol Im sure thats something most if not all of us can agree on))
oh goodness, i love these colours, ahhhh ! i originally made these in a more neon-y, brighter colour. let me know in the comments if i should post those too 🙇♀️
fooling around with cai to write the interactions ive beein writing/drawing/thinking abt, wo having to to it by myself
But with desp me/rise of gru characters its so funny and i cant stop laughing at how realistic the time period of homophobia/internalized is w some of the bots
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