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the way i shouldnt be allowed to be awake this late bc the thoughts get coordinated and evil against me but i also chugged a cold brew like two hrs ago, you live, you dont learn😔

r/im14and this is deep, brb some being cringe finna go kms

do i experience psychosis and delusions or am i perfectly normal bc i can rationalize it and recognize it🥰

#actually mentally fucked #childhood trauma #personal vent #vent blog #actually traumatized

i am in pain

not physically as much as emotionally

and not emotionally as much as mentally

how do you battle a pain you cant place, only feel

how do you heal a stab wound that has already closed over the poison in your blood

how do you reach in and grab the dirty innards of the animal you cannot see baring its teeth at you from far above and far below and far in front and far behind

it is everywhere it is nowhere, it does not exist to anyone but me but to me it is the child shrieking before the bomb it does not cease, but pierces every moment

how do you stop the bomb, denoting a thousand lives i couldve had a million times over in hundreds of cities

i have lived millions of lives with people who did not exist

or perhaps

i do not

exist

666vortex666

desperate..

i am so fucking horny how am i on this blog?? im gonna go whore off on my alts alt 👌👌

i know what they found on his phone. but how much of it was me

#i’ll never know #childhood trauma

come1nalone

are you only here because you dont have a choice

#the silence deafens

i would beg for mercy in anything, in any form, from any god, mortal, or monster

#mercy from what i don’t know #i want to escape this body but it is safe #juno.tag

“the whole pie”

#i’m not disordered in my eating anymore #im *not*#but oooh the things that stick with you #i don’t think this one is going anywhere for a while #i like to think i’m healing but that really did trigger something so deeply buried and shameful

mathsbian

I haven’t seen this one yet so

Disabled friends and tumblrites all: do your best to stay alive. The fight will be very hard for some of us, if certain plans go into action and our cost of living goes up while benefits go down, but we have to try.

We’ll crawl up the Capitol steps again if we have to. But we have to stay alive to make it there.

i cant do shit to make this better. there is no “better” about being fucking homeless and i dont know how much longer i can do this bullshit

how fucking ironic that now i cant even afford to kill myself

do you even know how many people never escape homelessness?? tell me one good reason i shouldnt fuckin kill both of us. is it not a fucking mercy???

cheesy-cheddar-sadness

text could never portray the scream i wish i could let out

#gonna start sending voice messages #< op this is the single funniest fucking thing reblogged here and you are so right. i am gonna start sending voice messages

i fear if i think for just a moment too long i will fall into the hysteria that was beaten from me, and god, please, how i wish it was acceptable to do so, but it will not help, and it will not change anything, and there is nothing i can do, so i put my tongue in my cheek and bite as hard as i dare, hoping maybe. maybe. for a moment, that the copper taste will distract our ever ranting mind from the repetitive groove the rabbit Is dug into our bones, and mind, and thoughts and soul.

unorcadox

Dear diary,

I can’t remember who I used to be anymore.

I wonder what they would think of me now.

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