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i wish i got to talk to you again..

i got so excited earlier i thought i heard you when memaw and uncle came in just now. even got up real quick made it to the bottom of the stairs not thinking…

like damn that really isnt you laughing anymore.tbh idek what ur doing,or if your even doin anything.

i wish this wasnt true.

i wish it was my dad instead of you.

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Plot twist he does too. Three years later.

whats the point of trying anymore.

woke up oneday & the trajectory of my life changed. Funny how one death changes things.

I just hope I’m writing this so one day I can say wow it really did all work out.

Remember when you knew what to do in your life ? Lol fun times …

I donated your shoes today.

You know the ones that stood catty cornered in your room… Your everyday tennis shoes… & the pair of stiletto heels….

I almost donated the few shirts I have left that I never wear but I just couldn’t do it….

Today poppop would of been 80.

I know we would of had a big party for him…

The fam threw me a surprise bday cookout. I haven’t had one of those since high school. You always threw the best birthday parties.

I should … we should be planning your 50th birthday trip.

I hope your traveling for me… I miss you so much

I feel so stuck.

This isn’t fair..

I wish I could talk to you.

Your voice is not as clear in my memory like it use to be I don’t want to ever feel like it was a dream..

Six years and 3 months… feels the same as 6 mins and 3 seconds…

Miss you mom.

#grief journal

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I kinda just want to know which of my mutuals would fuck me if they had the chance 👀

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In this blog we support eating it from the front AND back😋😋

All I do is talk about how much I miss my mom & how Im high functioning through this depression. I just want to catch a break.

Feels weird that today is my dad’s birthday. Idk if it’s the fact I have no core memories with him forreal. Or is it cause all these memories my dad side are sharing today I have nothing close to those. Or maybe it’s cause ppl are still mourning a guy I never knew. Or is it cause I just learned when his birthday was when looking at an obituary. Can’t make this sh*t up.

Sometimes I feel like my life is a sitcom and I’m constantly the bud of all jokes.

Not going places because your broke & trying to make that not be known is so draining. I wish no was good enough for some people.